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I have a desperate need for more ghoul!Joshua Graham. I just finished Honest Hearts again, and the brainrot has thoroughly set in 🫠🫠

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Ghoul!Joshua Graham (Fallout: New Vegas, Honest Hearts DLC) NSFW Headcanons

[Minor TW for discussion of the concept of marital rape/unhealthy views of consent typical of Caesar's Legion.]

As I've touched on before, you'd be hard-pressed to get this man to even consider the idea that his constant pain and open wounds are the result of active ghoulification and not some sort of spiritual affliction. Ol' boy would believe he's the new Cain before he'd believe that being exposed to radiation when you're freshly, near-mortally wounded would turn him into a ghoul. He'll only believe you if you prove to him that radiation will help to heal his lingering wounds, and he'll only even entertain such a thing if he trusts you quite deeply, and Joshua Graham is not a man who trusts easily. You'll see this man's dick long before you ever hear him admit that he may be turning into "something else". I suppose you could trick him into radiation exposure to prove your point, but I think he'd react really poorly to that.

Once his pain is consistently well-managed, he still won't be enthusiastic about the idea of ditching the bandages, even when the two of you are alone. Yes, part of it is because his skin is still quite fragile, regardless of if he's largely healed of any significant wounds. Fresh scar tissue isn't very strong and he'll be easily re-injured. But that isn't the only factor that motivates him to keep his body and face largely hidden away, or even the primary one; he's also more vain than you'd suspect (or he'd ever want to admit to). As fearsome as his reputation had been before, as monstrous as he was (and is), he still thought himself quite easy on the eyes at one time. Being with someone so beautiful, and likely significantly younger than he is, will not soothe this insecurity, shockingly. The most he'll give you, generally, is unwinding the wrappings from the places you want access to; his mouth, his hands, his groin. That's about it until there's a reason for him to remove more in front of you. However, I think that once he was fully exposed in front of you once, he'd be more agreeable to do it again. The feeling of your smooth, plush skin against his own is actually quite intoxicating. In public, though, I'm not sure he's anywhere near a place where he'd feel comfortable not being wrapped head to toe.

Since he's already several years into the ghoulification process, his senses are already heightened; his sense of smell is especially acute, even through the bandages. He will use this against you as often as possible. Snuck off to have a secret joint or cig? Not a secret from Joshua. Turned on and trying to keep it under wraps? He sees right through you. He can even smell other people on you if he makes the effort to commit their smell to memory. God help you if you come back to him smelling a little too much like someone he doesn't approve of or want you around...you'll have some groveling to do.

Almost embarrassed by how active his sex drive becomes once the two of you are intimately acquainted and he's generally pain-free. It ebbs and flows a bit, but generally he finds himself wanting you to the point of action about every other day. However, when things are going especially well, he finds himself wanting you every day, sometimes multiple times a day. During these intense "on" periods, he tries his best to give you plenty of time to rest (and heal; he frets about the idea of his boldly fluids hurting you now that his whole body is slightly radioactive, so if you complain of any soreness after penetrative sex, he won't touch you for days afterwards, even if you plead...the fact that he can be quite rough doesn't seem to factor into the situation in his mind) and will "suck it up" as often as possible. The man is damn near sixty; he isn't gonna complain about having gas in the tank, but he does find himself feeling some chagrin when it seems like a strong enough breeze suddenly gets him going.

Has never been an especially deep or sound sleeper, and once he begins to accept what's happening to him, he sleeps even less. Not at all some nights. Many ghouls give up on the idea of sleep because they don't want to be haunted by dreams of the past; Joshua is constantly thinking about the past, so that isn't a big deal to him. He simply has a terminal case of Protestant (Mormon) Work Ethic and thinks its a waste to sleep if he doesn't feel the need. Of course, more time awake means more time for his desires to tempt him, and he quickly finds himself plagued by lust while you sleep. Trying to respect your need for rest, he doesn't often act on these feelings much, save for an occasional grope or kiss to your sleeping body. He finds this overwhelming temptation an indictment on his self control, and for that reason, he abstains from acting on his feelings outside of that. However, once you're married (and this man will marry you if you're sleeping together/dating; he isn't the type to date casually for many reasons that I don't think need describing), his thinking on the subject slowly evolves. You'll go from waking up to him staring a hole through his open Bible with an erection he refuses to address to waking up to him on top of you. Like I've said before, that Legion mindset still frames his opinions on many fronts, and in the Legion, the person you marry is basically your property to utilize as it pleases you. I mean, you love him, right? Don't you want to take care of him? Do not ask this man if he thinks it's possible to rape your spouse...you will not like his answer.

Already has the typical ghoul obsession with hair on his partner, whether he realizes it or not. Loves to play with your hair, subtly but affectionately; twirling the ends around his fingertip, smoothing it with his broad palms. Will braid your hair if you let him. Equally loves to thread his fingers into it at the roots and use it to yank you around while he fucks you, bury his face in it as you both come apart together. Also quite intrigued by the soft downiness of any pubic hair you may have. Likes to spend time sucking and nibbling at your inner thighs as an excuse to rub his cheek against it.

#thinking abt this again. that one marriage hc sticks with me.#fo #f/o tag

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nukanom1con · 2 hours ago

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my can my parents go one day without shit talking me and my siblings. pls. i’m so tired!

#head in hands #im tired. i’m so so tired.

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nukanom1con · 4 hours ago

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i hate this stupid bill i want the flagellant body pillow SO FUCKING BADLY GRR GRR

#ransom letter

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