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natan ๐Ÿ”ช
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npookie0 ยท 2 days ago
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Heh hello there what if you make an idol au with all of your ocs.....just a thought
not sure if this was a story request or a question on what they would be, so i'll do the latter and if you'd like a full on written story you have to see yourself in my inbox again ^^
so for Min-Kyu he is an idol already and I can skip him - tho i can add that if he were to be in a group with my other ocs he would be the leader and main producer/lyricist and lead vocalist (the high notes king)
Luce would probably be a manager or a staff member, not that she wouldn't want to be an idol from the get-go she'd be scared of how the people would see her, but maybe she would be a soloist singing about her struggles and how she's been finding more ways to love herself, both as a soloist and a staff member she would show a lot of care towards the people she works with and the fans, make sure they have water and no one is getting hurt
i don't think she would be in a group, in girls group she would feel anxious and insecure that she's too tall and stands out too much, in co-ed groups she would be anxious that she would ruin the whole groups reputation (mainly if she's the only trans person in the group, if she was in the group with Min-Kyu he'd gently talk the thought out of her silly brain)
Micah - he'd be a producer, a label's live band member, but he could also be a rapper in a group or a soloist rapper + vocalist, still he would enjoy the background work way more
bonus oc:
Audrey - she'd def be the main vocalist in a group and she would be a visual and centre since that's kinda what she's used too, she'd be happy with fans who respected her and saw her for more than a pretty girl who can sing but i feel like weird and toxic fans would push her into an hiatus, in Min-Kyu's group she'd be the maknae too
Lydia - i think she would much rather be a stylist or a manager of a group than an idol herself
so for the group out of these
Min-Kyu, leader, main producer, lyricist, lead vocalist and a choreographer
Luce - staff, soloist, in Min-Kyu's group a sub vocalist
Micah - producer, live band member, rapper
Lydia - staff
Audrey - Visual, centre, main vocalist, maknae
(yes i went with kpop group vibe.... can you tell that i'm kpop fan? / silly)
this is all for the role giving
OH i made an oc server and i guess i can put the link here (there's not much there cause i'm too lazy/occupied to fill the oc channels out shhfh)
here's the discord link meow
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npookie0 ยท 3 days ago
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omg.... guys guys someone wrote a fic inspired by Death With The Devil's Butcher (iirc i titled it that way.... my own knowledge about my own works is showing so welll.... and for my own well being i'll assume that it was the nicer and newer version cause the og one is... it is) and i'm eating it up !!!!
here's the ao3 link i really enjoyed reading it :D even if i'm about a month late to the party </3 sorry i don't check ao3 that often...
Fated By Shared Pain (it's the soulmate au title) updates for those who asked: 1200 words in, dunno when i'll post it cause i'm taking my time so stay tuned!
maybe i'll post some headcanons soon to keep this alive buuut i'd rather focus on writing the story rn
anygay have fun reading and send the writer some love!
nate ย โœฉ
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npookie0 ยท 4 days ago
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someone feelin' like trading writing for drawing???? i found the cutest outfit for luce but no coin to commission anyone rn <//3 i can do a trade tho smhsmh (maybe not now cause im working on the ronin x reader and i dont want to distract myself ofc.... but maybe when im finished....) i can show the outfit here
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npookie0 ยท 4 days ago
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Be thankful to the beta reader cause the voices were about to win
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in case someone was feeling worried... i am still writing and going to post fics it's just that i realised some things and found a way of writing that makes me feel happy to the fullest and finally some insecurities left me so the writing process will take longer but the quality should go up thanks to it....
i have 700-ish words in the soulmate ronin au fic as of rn (and found a beta reader yahooo) so don't worry i'm still here <3
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npookie0 ยท 4 days ago
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in case someone was feeling worried... i am still writing and going to post fics it's just that i realised some things and found a way of writing that makes me feel happy to the fullest and finally some insecurities left me so the writing process will take longer but the quality should go up thanks to it....
i have 700-ish words in the soulmate ronin au fic as of rn (and found a beta reader yahooo) so don't worry i'm still here <3
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npookie0 ยท 6 days ago
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hey, currently working on a ronin x reader soulmate au fic and i think i'll need a beta reader for that, would someone like to do it? preferably over discord, i dunno when i'll have it ready (writing is going slower than before and i'm sorry for that! i'm just trying to take my time to give you all a better quality of stuff and focus more on the other things i like and not just writing - i do like writing but there are other things i like too c:) but i'd rather have this out there now :D
the only thing i'd ask is for the beta reader to be over 18 not that it will be a minor-non-friendly work but it'll just be more comfortable for me that way, i hope you understand
see you soon with, hopefully, Fated By Shared Pain (it's a drafted name but it makes sense with the anon's ask and my own idea for it)
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npookie0 ยท 10 days ago
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Helllooooooooooo I know you told us about Luces domestic life but how about the rest of your ocs?
(by domestic the asker meant home life hdhhf )
so for most of the ones you guys know rn (Micah, Min-Kyu, Lydia) their lives weren't as bad as Luce's so since these are the ones you know i will write them here
Min-Kyu -> since he's mostly a kpop demon hunters oc i will first write down his family life there and then the one in the au when he's just an idol and not a demon
kdh min-kyu - he's a 200+ year old demon so he lived in the Joseon era Korea, I won't focus much on history here but what you need to know is that court entertainment was still a big thing then including music, his mother was a court dancer though she wasn't beautiful or graceful enough to earn a high pay so she and Min-Kyu were poor and very much restrained, Min-Kyu's mother was a kind person but she had barely any time to spend with her child who was growing up alone, Min-Kyu showed interest in male dominated arts from a very young age and was too masculine for a girl, with no resources or records on transness during that time and fear of having her child executed under susception of mental illness, Min-Kyu's mother forced him to learn how to dance, sing and play instruments like any other women did. He was very good in musical arts and actually learned to love it so he is thankful towards his mother for helping him find something he loves even if it was caused by fear. After becoming a demon he continued to watch his mother from the shadows until she died (he never moved on from the strong bond he and his mother had, even if most of his childhood he spent alone, from his early teen to early adult years he spent by his mother's side and they grew close and for that reason he never cut his hair believing that it'd let him keep the memories of his mother forever)
regular idol au: in this au his life is a bit different, his mother is a music producer still very busy in Min-Kyu's early childhood because working for big labels is time consuming, Min-Kyu was showing interest in boyish things and he started to get bullied because of it so his mother decided to get him into music which worked for a few years until Min-Kyu got access to global internet and discovered the term transgender, his life got complicated and for a while his mother couldn't face him because she was scared that if she let him be who he desired to be then he would be harassed or worse. That was a big crash for their relationship and once Min-Kyu started his transition even though she didn't voice her support at first she gave in once she realised how happy it made him feel. Generally their relationship is pretty good and she's supportive of him throughout his idol career.
Micah - His family life is very chill in a lack of a better word. They care for each other deeply, parents support Micah and Nina (his younger sister) about everything they want to do. The family is connected by their love for music. Though of course Micah and Nina as any siblings had their ups and downs especially when Nina was going through puberty but they never stopped loving each other (as siblings pls dont be weird!!!) even during that hard time. Currently Micah lives with Nina in Suli Sands (my fictional city) while their parents moved from Nashville (TN) to Harrisburg (PA), Nina chose to live with Micah because she always wanted to move there and him going there was just perfect for her.
Lydia - She's in a very weird family surrounded by magic and ghosts, they're a very queer and positive family (she has a mother and an amab nonbinary parent and 2 younger siblings that include a lesbian sister), Lydia's parents always let them and their younger siblings pick whether or not they want to expand on their gifts (Lydia - a medium practising witchcraft, Heather a practicing witch, Eddie a medium) so there was never force from the adults' sides. The family lives in a big house with Lydia's grandmothers (they're married (they got widowed at the same time... totally accidentally ofc, and formed a marital bond with magic before it became legal by law for two women to get married), Lydia's peers saw her as weird ofc their whole family was outcasted in all the towns they lived in because they practiced magic and believed in ghosts, spirits and demons. Not like they ever cared tho, the Hawthrones are thick skinned and as long as it's strangers who point fingers at them and mock them, they won't really care. Being raised around spirits - good and evil, probably fucked up little Lydia's head (since they're kinda dating Ther and Ronin if I put them in Gluttony Gods/Angelwood au (the long ahh fic/commission was inspired by Lydia x Thernin lore) you can tell that there's something wrong /hj) but i'd have to explain more via writing some childhood tales of Lydia with spirits and magic if i wanted to give more info about it....
yeah that's pretty much it ! i have more ocs in the making or once that i haven't shared here but hey! i made/am making (hard to tell tbh) a little discord space where i share my ocs and yap about it, for now it's just me in there lol but if anyone would like to enter that space feel free to tell me! i'd love to chat with ppl about my ocs <3
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npookie0 ยท 11 days ago
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GUYS GUYS GUYS I GOT LUCE ART MADE BY MY BEAUTIFUL HANDSOME AMAZING THE SMARTEST THE GREATEST THE BEST ARTIST FRIEND AKA @4storc!!! im in love !!!!
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its literally her summer edition outfits im crying ;w;
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npookie0 ยท 11 days ago
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offically opejning killer chat asks again.... i need new creative juice in the house and no matter how much i want to do some of the ideas i have in my drafts or in the inbox nothing quite hits </3 plus i miss all y'alls asks so feel free to ask for killer chat i'll handle the amount of asks.... somehow....
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npookie0 ยท 11 days ago
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hello father, this is from one of your recent adopted children by the way in discord! if I may ask... can you write any story where the mc/reader is like an artist looking for inspiration on what type of art to do? you don't have too if you don't feel like it! also it can be an Misaki x Reader type.
A Missing Piece
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An artist without a muse decides to look for inspiration out in the city, hoping that the loud with life Tokyo will be a good enough source for their next art piece. Maybe it won't be the city that gives them inspiration, but the seemingly worriless and cheerful person who's backpack is loud enough to catch the artist's attention.
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"I don't care how you do it, we need the official art before the month ends!" The sound of your assistant's shouts filled your studio which you haven't left in weeks.
You sighed looking at the empty canvas in front of you. "Yeah, yeah, I'll have it finished before the deadline. Don't stress." You replied, luckily the false confidence in your voice was enough to make your assistant happy and the conversation ended in peace.
Still, it didn't matter how well you played the confident artist role, you still had a whole empty canvas to deal with and a deadline towering over you. You needed to create a cover for a shoujo manga, yet nothing came to mind which on its own didn't make sense to many of your friends. And maybe their confusion was valid since you lived in Japan and the country itself should inspire you.
"Huh, maybe that's it..." You murmured to yourself and looked out of your window. Maybe going around town and finding a pretty scenery to sketch would warm your artistic engine up. With that idea in mind you got ready to leave, changed your clothes into something more weather appropriate, grabbed your headphones, tossed your sketchbook into your bag with some pencils, pens and so on, and finally left your house.
The mission to find inspiration officially started.
You reached the Ueno Park, as crowded as ever. Kids were playing and running around, adults were enjoying walks or going through the park to reach their destinations, tourists were taking pictures and enjoying the scenery. You couldn't find a better suited place for inspiration seeking, at least that's what you thought.
After finding a place with shade, you were seated with your sketchbook and a pencil in hand. At first you started by lazily sketching your surroundings; trees, the sky, grass and other elements perfect for the background. You weren't going for anything realistic, just a quick sketch before you would try your hand at the real deal again. With a semi-ready background it was time to find something, or someone, specific to draw. None of the people you saw caught your eye and if they did they turned out to be just regular passersby who disappeared before you could try to remember their features.
You were about to get up and look for a different spot in hopes to find something there, but before you could close your sketchbook something caught your eye. A pair of extraordinary patterned shorts worn by a person who definitely didn't know that mixing stripes and chessboard wasn't something most people would go for flashed in your eye. Your nails were almost digging into the back of your sketchbook as you were looking at the person, you were hoping - no, you were praying that they'd stay in the park. And as if the gods heard your prayers, the unconventionally dressed passerby sat on a bench opposing yours, from where you sat you had a great view at them and they'd fit the space you left for the main object of your drawing perfectly.
With no time to waste you immediately started drawing them, starting with their pose and then slowly adding the shapes for their clothes and hair until you could add details and finish of the sketch. With the fear that they'd walk away at any given moment, you couldn't take your time drawing them so it was far from perfect, at least in your opinion.
Looking at the finished sketch filled your hard with excitement, you finally finished a piece and you felt like the stranger was the reason behind it. They sparked your creative spirit and pulled you out of the artistic slump you found yourself in.
"I can't just keep this drawing..." You mumbled and looked up to see your creativity inducing buddy get ready to leave the park. Without much thought you stood up and quickly tossed your things into your bag, leaving only the sketch in your hand.
You started walking towards the person you drew and when you finally reached them you patted them on the shoulder.
"Excuse me!"
They turned around and it felt like the time has stopped. You were holding your breath looking into their brown eyes that sparked with curiosity.
"Yeah?" They answered with a slight smile. Their eyes looking between you and the paper you held in your hand.
Suddenly you felt shyer. "Uh, I'm an artist and I looked for inspiration and, you see, I sketched you. I, um, wanted to give you the sketch since it would be weird for me to keep a sketch of a stranger." You laughed nervously, feeling like a total loser in that moment.
Luckily your interlocutor didn't seem to be weirded out by your nervousness or awkward speech and took the sketch from your hands. You saw their eyes sparkle with joy and a wide smile form on their mouth. A smile you wanted to draw to have a memory of it forever.
"Ohmygod! This is the coolest thing I've ever seen! Your style totally reminds me of one of my favourite manga artists!" They went on a short rumble about the artist and it didn't take you long to realise that the artist in question was you. You decided to keep that to yourself tho.
"I'm glad to hear that you like it! Drawing you was a pleasure and honestly I wish that I did more than just this one sketch." You chuckled.
"Well I can pose for you!"
"Huh? Really?" You asked surprised.
"Yeah! Draw me like one of your French girls!" Their Titanic reference made you laugh.
"Haha, I'll do so with pleasure. That is if you'd care to give me your social media or number so we can discuss the posing business." And maybe get to know each other better.
They nodded and gave you their phone for you to write down the name they gave you.
"The name's Misaki by the way. And, what's your name, stranger?"
"I'm...." You were about to reply but your phone started buzzing and it was one of the main graphic editors calling you. "Suddenly really busy and it looks like the name exchange will have to be finished in our dms." You sighed.
"Nah, no worries. It'll just leave me curious." They winked. "I'll leave you now. Bye-bye, extremely busy stranger!"
You waved them goodbye and picked up your phone. Reassuring yet another team member that you'll have the cover finished before the end of the month, this time without a pretended confidence.
With this new source of inspiration you were sure that you'd finish your job withing the deadline.
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i apologise for it being so short and artist reader focused but i guess the short writing break i've been having gave me so trouble </3 i promise to come with more better pieces ! treat is as a comeback opener!
love you, take care of yourselves and stay healthy!
with all the love i can give
nate โœฉ
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npookie0 ยท 12 days ago
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This makes me sick to be honest
As a Ronin fan and a trans person myself, please stop taking away one of the biggest parts of ronin's character
That's just plainly disgusting and disrespectful towards rose, ronin, his fans and the trans community
deadass thoufht this was the regular art on Pinterest only to realise the poster EDITED OUT HIS TOP SURGERY SCARS AND CHANGED HIS TRANS BRACELET TO A BI ONE???
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credits to mxnstur for the original please go check them out
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npookie0 ยท 19 days ago
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Hellooo!! I was wondering what do you think the kc li's would be thinking when a mc who doesnt verbalize their feelings a lot started saying the sappiest things ever when they think the li's are asleep.
Sudden Sappiness
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headcanonssss !!!
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Ronin
He'd let you talk about your feelings in peace a few times but then he'd just pull you in like he usually does when you sleep together and then whisper into your ear something to tease you
He'd secretly appreciate and feel happy about your verbalisation of your feelings
Ronin would make snarky and light hearted comments and jokes about the sappy words but he'd still show his appreciation in his own way
Angel
she'd barely hold back her giggles and the happy smile that your words have caused her, she'd remember everything you say and remember your words on her bad days, they'd melt her heart
she'd act like she thinks that you're asleep and say some sappy things back or some deep words of appreciation towards you
if you find out that she'd not actually asleep she'd chuckle and confess how much those words meant to her
Misaki
Misaki wouldn't be able to pretend to be asleep, they'd immediately hug you tightly and giggle, calling you a dork and teasing you
deep inside joy would fill her heart and mind, hearing your feelings and witnessing your sappy side would mean a lot to them
they'd ask you to repeat your words over and over because they felt so much joy from the first time they heard them
V
witnessing your sappier side would shock him at first, it's a new side of you that he never seen before so it would be a big surprise, but he'd feel warmth spreading throughout his body after the words sunk in
v is a man who can keep a secret so if he felt like you don't feel like you want to face him when you express your feelings he wouldn't admit to hearing your honest thoughts he'd just use the fact that you're unaware of him knowing to stay awake on some nights to har more of your sappy words
he'd leave messages with equally sappy or just love filled words for you around the house, neatly placed notes with beautifully hand written words on them, maybe he can't reply to your words but he can give the love back
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it looks like v is my favourite and i live for it hhfhfhg
yayyy this is ittt i hope you liked this !!!
goodnight pookies
nate ^_-
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npookie0 ยท 19 days ago
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Hiya Nathan!! Could we please get some Lydia headcanons just some little funfacts so we can get to know more about her personality:D
of course!
ill give as much as i can hdhfhfhg
idk if i mentioned it anywhere but lydia's hands are actually tainted black because of her magic (the witchcraft i created for her is ery much "i am a writer and i do what i want" coded) and how much she uses it
her nicknames for her partners are usually connected to the night, examples; moon, star, starlight; they're not limited to that tho she does prefer them
she's very much introverted who's very loud when she's close to someone
they're a demigirl with a preference for the she/her pronoun but they do appreciate when people actually use they/them for them
other than bands like Bauhus, Siouxsie and the Banshees, the cure and more groups like these she also listens to the hex girls' songs from scooby doo, chappell roan, saint avangeline, and chase atlantic
her favourite colours are purple (all dark shades), dark greys, black, indigo and most darker browns
they enjoy reading books about vampires, they actually somewhat liked twilight even if lydia was laughing most of the time
lydia will never admit to it but they really care about their family, they're super protective of their younger brother and sister
she had mullet throughout most of her life but one day decided that shes too tired to cut it or ask her mother to do it so she let it grow out and just lets the hair be as messy as it wants to be
she owns (1) pink baggy tee and it's a Pinkie Pie from MLP t-shirt, their sister has a matching one with Maud Pie, it was her sister's idea
sometimes Lydia pretends that she's possessed so people leave her alone in school or while she's out alone, it usually works
Lydia is on the aro spec!
Lydia's favourite animals are mice and lizards
when they make a new friend they assign a stone to the friend and get the exact stone to then carry it in their bag to "feel the friend's presence"
Lydia took singing lessons up to the age 15 and still enjoys singing tho they dont do it around people
they're scared of heights
she can't ice skate tho she wants to learn
they have dried flowers in their room + (if) they live in Suli Sands and sometimes Luce gives them bouquet flowers that are drying up so they wouldn't go to waste
(again if they live in Suli Sands) they're best friends with Nina, Micah's sister, maybe they could be girlfriends
Lydia is actually accompanied by a ghost, the name is Audrey and she got the attachment when the Hawthorne family was staying in Crystal Plum for a bit and they found a necklace under a bridge and decided to take it, there's a teen dead prom queen lesbian following them ever since (this is kinda an au if Audrey wasn't found by her past lover's reincarnation, but Audrey is a conversation for another day.... maybe)
yay that's pretty much it :D
nate โœฉ
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npookie0 ยท 21 days ago
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i was wondering if ya could do a platonic fic of ronin and reader being his sibling ?? maybe angel meeting them or just headcanons
no worries if not tho have a good day ^^
Hellish Blood Relations
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my headcanons of reader as Ronin's sibling, it will be mostly angsty I think, but I'll also try to include some nice family bond here :D
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I think Ronin's relationship with his sibling especially during their younger years would be quite rocky and complicated especially if the reader is his age or older than him or is old enough to see the world as it really is and isn't as rebellious as him. Having a trans sibling wouldn't be easy especially in a town like angelwood and with family like the Baeuforts (I think that in Killer Chat! Ronin's family situation would be similar to the Gluttony Gods one) so there could be a lot of confusion and anger caused by the hatred the reader could receive from the town. After all a sibling of the "freak" wouldn't be liked in the Christ loving town unless they turn their back on their brother too
In the scenerio when the reader is rebellious or simply just accepts Ronin as their brother no matter what, I think the relationship would be better
I feel like Ronin would be the type of guy to stand by his sibling's side if they get harassed or bullied, he'd either take the matters into his own hands or encourage his sibling to fight back and make it ugly
I see a possibility of the reader feeling abandoned or estranged by Ronin when he was spending time with Ther, especially if they're younger than him
On the other hand if they were close with both Ronin and Ther I think they'd make a pretty scary group and also support Ronin through helping Ther get free from the shackles of Angelwood
In older years, so in the current time of Killer Chat!, it would mostly depend on how the younger days were, if Ronin and reader had a good relationship I think they'd be in contact and even hang out or maybe live together, I also think that the reader would be somewhat close to serial killer business or at least be aware of their brother's hobby and second occupation
They might've given Angel the "girl run while you can" talk jokingly but deep down be happy that Ronin found a new love even if they'd actually know the reason behind the relationship, at least on Ronin's side
Even if the sibling wasn't a serial killer I think they'd be in the server as long as they were aware of Ronin's shady business because "why not"
I think generally the relationship would be full of bickering and small fights and, if there wasn't any major conflicts that made Ronin and the reader no longer parts of each others' lives, the bond would be really strong
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these are my headcanons :D i hope that you can agree with some of them c:
remember to stay hydrated pookies!
nate <3
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npookie0 ยท 23 days ago
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YOU CAN HAVE ALL MY LOVE AND ATTENTION โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ ITS YOURS, MIN-KYU. ALL OF YOURS. ๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿฅน๐Ÿฅน
listen pookie bear if you love the man so much then leave me some min-kyu x reader promps or ideas in my asks and ill try to do them for u <3 and feel free to ask about him !
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npookie0 ยท 23 days ago
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Not to be dramatic but I think Iโ€™d die for Min-Kyu
Nathan roleplaying as his oc incoming !!
Oh my darling angel, there's no need for that. Just give me all your love and affection so I may fill my heart with it.
-Min-Kyu <3
No, but I so get you I'd die and kill for that man too.... he lives in my head like a parasite and won't leave anytime soon
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npookie0 ยท 23 days ago
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luca w a tmasc reader and my life is yours .. imagine luca inviting reader to the beach and theyre comfortable w showing off top surgery scars and lucas just like woah dude thats so cool
Blue Waves
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You decided to take Luca on that surfing lessons offer that he presented to you one day. On one hand you were really excited, but on the other it would be the first time that Luca sees the literal scars your transness left on you.
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masc reader, fluff, trans masc reader, scars, Luca x reader
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"So, this is where The Monster of Maverick Bay catches his fish?" You asked jokingly, looking around the beach that Luca practically lived on.
To your surprise his surfing buddies were nowhere to be seen, only him, the blue blanket he set out for both of you, some very sweet snacks and drinks, and a surfing board. It really looked like a date.
"Hey! I'm not catching anything, they're just in the wrong place at the wrong time..." He gave you the biggest of his pouts and you couldn't stop yourself from laughing.
"Yeah, yeah, stop pouting you big baby! You were supposed to teach me how to surf, or should we go back to your place so I can write about the dangerous surfer serial killer?"
"Nah, nah, dude there's no need to do that. We're gonna swim!" Without a warning Luca took off his tank top-ish hoodie and threw it on the blanket. His mood shifted from that offended pout to an excited and proud beaming smile.
With a small chuckle you took off your t-shirt, hesitating for a second before letting it join Luca's piece of clothing on the blanket. It's not like you had a reason to be ashamed of your scars, Luca knew that you were trans and he asked you about the surgery a few times before so he already know all there was to know.
Maybe the idea of him seeing the proof of your many stories was making you anxious. After all these scars were a really intimate part of your journey, but you still didn't want him to treat them like something that made you weird.
After shaking off the negative thoughts that started gathering like storm's clouds you ran towards Luca, joining him in the water. He was laying flat on his surfing board, a lazy grin on his lips as he looked at you.
"Woah took you a while to join me. New ideas gathered in your big brain?"
"No, just some silly thoughts." You shook your head. "Anyway, are you going to let me use your board?"
"Ah, right, yeah." He got off the surfing board, standing next to you in the water and petting the colorful resin. "Get on, I'll hold it."
With his instructions you were laying flat on your stomach.
"Okay, good. Now just try to move your arms just like when you're swimming. I'll keep you safe, or as safe as possible."
You side eyed him at the last part, but still listened. Moving your arms and exclaiming in surprise whenever the board actually moved how you wanted.
"Holy shit, I'm actually doing it!" You shouted in excitement.
"Of course you are! I'm so good at teaching and stuff."
"No, I think it's just my natural talent." You teased.
Luca frowned. "Do you want to drown today?"
"Sorry, sorry. Maybe some of it is your teaching skills."
Luca moved the board, pushing you into the water. "Hey!" You yelled after swimming out, blinking aggressively to get the watr out of your eyes.
"I warned you dude, it's all on you."
You mimicked him and splashed water on him. After a session of quick bickering you got back on the board, this time sitting on it, Luca stood in front of you. You were able to look down on him with ease.
Luca started to explain to you what you'd have to do to stand up and keep your balance, but his eyes suddenly gazed down and he paused.
Here it comes.
You thought to yourself, your anxiety levels rising when Luca was just quietly looking at your scars.
Then, after a few seconds that felt like years, he spoke up. "These are so cool man, do you think you'll get tattoos on them?"
That was... unexpected. He commented on them with ease and asked about something that interested him as if he was asking about what kind of fish do you like the most.
It surprised you and your answer was very stiff and sloppy. "Uh, maybe, I'm not sure yet."
He nodded in understanding. "I think it'd be super sick if you got a giant hoard of fishes under them, like swimming by and shit like that."
"We'll see about that." You replied, the shock slowly leaving you.
You really should've expected this. Luca is a straightforward person and what he says is what he thinks. If he said that your top surgery must be super cool through texts then you could be sure that he actually thought that. The more you pondered on that the more you realised how silly your fears were.
it's Luca.
He would always support you, no matter how you looked or what you were.
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I love the surfer boy and I'd love to be his and Feli's bf..... wow maybe a new oc will come out some day soon
goodnight my pookies <3
nate ;p
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