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Ch3cks (kinda)

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creds: @beautifuiprincessdisorder

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Bro, they put me in culinary 4 my online school elective... i talked to my friend abt it and he was like "you dont even like eating" 💀 im suuuuupperrrr picky, and its gotten like v bad, so ive lit just pretty much been eating like candy and bread for weeks🙂‍↕️

my main food groups rn r

Ice cream

Snickers minis

Sourdough baguette (ripped up and split through like a week+)

Pizza

Idk guys, i need more foods that i feel like won't make me super sick/ lit. kill me (ik im delusional, but aren't we all?)

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Ch3cksss!!

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LOVING MY COSTUME

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make me beautiful ♡.

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Im an intellectual at heart lol

Me at the grocery store reading the nutrition labels on everything:

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Guys... all i wanted was to be underw3ight for halloween... GUESS WHO BROKE BMÌ 18.5? ME.

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Ch3cks after cut!!

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I do NOT remember writing this, but its lowk fire so now yall gotta see it😋

I was born upon a bed of nails.

I was poked and proded

For the "benefits." of constant expectation

They claimed to love me.

Or at least the idea of me; Children as a concept

They said I was good because i could lie there

Being pushed harder and harder

Till the nails left deep pressed circles of problems

As I got older, I learned

I could stay.

Longer than anybody else

I could handle it.

Better than my peers

Of course, i learned to love the gentle stabs

Used the constant pressure for good,

Like a reminder.

But later, as I threw myself over the tip of a knife,

I did not earn praise

"They do not congratulate the dead." They said

But the intention made it better.

At least in my eyes

I can never forget if I leave the gash

If im bleeding out, I can get up from the bed

And not feel ashamed

Though i still lie, even with peirced skin

I am no quitter.

Though I wish I was allowed to be.

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Guys if i post more than 5 times in a day just know that its deluded high rambling and that it should be disregarded🩷🩷

💀

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ANYBODY ELSE FEELING FAT ASF TONIGHTTTT🙌🙌🙌

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I hate dropping out of school because now all i an is one of the losers who coukdnt hack it, and ive gotten rid of all my potential. My councilor even said that i was "just giving up" behind my back. My fp said that he hates people who dont go to in-person (his bf doesnt, its a long thing). Does he hate me now? What.if he doesnt want to see me outside of school anymore? I miss everyone and im not even gone. But right about now, being "gone" sounds like a pretty fucking great idea.

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Im scared of myself and my emotions because all i do is s3lf-h@rm and punish myself for being alive

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BALLET IS SO SICK AND AWESOME AND I LOVE IT (dont ask me if I love it 5 hours into a 7hour rehearsal, but still😭)