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When things are too hard, look up! There is something out there bigger than your worries.

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Eternity of Blue and Black

A never ending questions of why and how but always go back to zero.

Why do I feel this way? Why did I do this? Why i can't find myself? Why I feel useless and worthless? How can I see the way out?

Do you know the feeling of being sad every minute of your day without even knowing the reason why? Its a feeling that ate you up and leaving you in the dark even if you were in the middle of eating your lunch. Its a suffocating feeling of drowning without water and you can really literally feel a physical pain in your chest. Its the thing that makes you cry silently inside your head and heart. The hardest part is no one knows. You can't even tell to your family because you already feel burden just by existing. Everyone see you as a strong person but you know deep inside your the weakest of everybody. You wanted to shout to break free from this invisible chains that creeping all over you body but you also know that no one will understand.

Every night you ask God for help, to see you too. But every day you got no answer so you just breathe and try to exist for just one more day. Days turn into weeks, to months and into years. You just woke up one day and saw that you're already 30 years old and you have a kid that you need to raise too. You keep asking God and then accepts that you are not just important person to waste time to be notice. So you try to go and make a move to walk forward but every time that you know it will be the key to your sucess, the doors slammed on your face. You realize your facing the wall and every turn you take there are walls that barricades you from moving forward.

You stop and ask the universe, why? And then you're on the same spot again from the start.

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"If motion doesn't lead to results, why do we do it? Sometimes we do it because we actually need to plan or learn more. But more often than not, we do it because motion allows us to feel like we're making progress without running the risk of failure. "

-James Clear, Atomic Habits

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My piece on SHADOW AND BONE (Book and Adaptation on Netflix)

I just want to say my praises to the Author of the book. Leigh Bardugo slayed it really great! She's one of my favourite. I read from some comments that she made the character of Darkling from a toxic relationship. I noticed that Darkling vibes really had the toxicity thing, (when you've been in that kind of relationship, you'll notice it) the feeling that you love that person and you're blinded with that is so heart-wrenching and you felt that while you're reading/looking at the character. You cannot hate him and you cannot continue to love him. I remember the line in one of Pablo Neruda's poem, "I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, in secret, between the shadow and the soul."

Mal, on the other hand, is also the perfect symbol of a growing man. Having a mix feelings with what happened to Alina. The confusion he felt when Alina's power manifest but accept it slowly. Letting her decides for her self and supporting her until the end. The transition from being her best friend to the person who will always sacrifice for her good. I'll say that's something everyone wanted to have.

Mal is the symbol of hope for me. He is like the person who will stay by your side no matter what.

I also love the character of Alina. From being the underdog to one of the strongest. From discoveeing who she is, from trusting and loving the people around her.

Over all, I love the book and the adaptation in Netflix.

Ps. I'll start to read the Six of crows soon so I'll get to know Kaz's crew but I already got a glimpse on Netflix and I'm excited to know them in book characters.

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BEN BARNES as THE DARKLING

SHADOW AND BONE

1.08 | No Mourners

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Im really tired, most of the things seem so pointless, i feel sad and i don’t know how to fix it, I’m tired of the insecurities, I’m just someone who doesn’t know what to do, where to go, I’m just lost, i dont know what to do with myself, is this even real? is this the real world? sometimes it seems so distant and gloomy.

I’m just a child on the underworld.

yuukihiro

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“The things I find most beautiful about a person are almost never physical.”

— Mark Patterson

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"An act of the imagination that doesn't entertain is a poor act indeed."

-Stephen King

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"There are always flowers for those who want to see them."

—Henri Matisse

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Hey overthinkers, we're gonna be okay.

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“You know you are doing well when you lose the interest of looking back.”

— Unknown 

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Back hug.

One of the best comforting feeling when someone give you this after a long and tiring battle with yourself.