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[nobodean]

Genuinely just tired of trying to exist

I just want it to stop

I could disappear and nobody would know

I want it to end

I want to end

[nobodean]

i don’t have many options

1) I make myself sleep, I have a full bottle of melatonin.

2) I play games or watch tiktok while entirely empty to avoid how I feel.

3) I do something I know I shouldn’t, bc it’s been so long and I’ve done so well without doing it.

I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to do bad things, I know I shouldn’t. But I feel like I deserve them.

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i am not present

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Please don’t leave please don’t leave please don’t leave I’m sorry for everything I’ve done I didn’t mean to blow up like that I’ve repressed so much hurt it shouldn’t have come out on you I know you don’t mean to hurt me I know I’m overly sensitive please I’m so scared to be alone please don’t fucking leave me

I don’t know if I can live without you

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yeah basically

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[nobodean]

Bad thoughts bad thoughts bad thoughts bad thoughts

I want them out I don’t want to think these things why won’t they stop

I’m so tired I don’t want to think these things why can’t I just sleep until it’s over

I don’t want to make myself sleep anymore

[nobodean]

When you accidentally reblog stuff from people you follow onto your vent blog and delete it hoping they don’t go looking into who just rebloged from them 🙂

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When your friends keep screaming and yelling at you even though you told them you’re overstimulated and get anxious and scared from loud noises

Also when your friends continue to call you a woman and a girl even after two years of being openly gender queer

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i’m mad at you but i feel like i shouldn’t be.

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ik you said that if i don’t have you attention i can get it and i can blow up your phone or whatever but i really don’t want to do that. i want you to talk to me because you want to. not because i’m annoying you. and if i even text twice i have this “i don’t want to get in trouble” feeling. i think you’re avoiding me or ignoring me or something. i just want to talk to you but it’s hard. idk if you’re making it hard or if it’s just hard on it’s own.

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reblog with ur most obscure trigger

mine is literally a disorder i have