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Really well said!

Needles coming up again

First wanted to reference back my thoughts on this from awhile ago:

but I also wanted to say some of the comments I'm seeing around aren't oriented to harm reduction, they're just tearing down people who engage in needle play and post it. Which is not going to save anyone. It's going to galvanize and sequester folks which will cascade into riskier behavior.

I guess what gets my goat about it especially is why I've pulled back from a good number of folks, which is engaging in dark cardio play as a means or extension of self harm. People know this stuff is dangerous and stupid, you don't need to remind them. That's not going to "wake them up". Some people by comparison just... like doing it. Neither case will respond to this approach.

I don't offer a definitive solution, i just don't vibe with yelling at people. I appreciate things like folks declaring that they'll disengage from the content: that I think does something.

So here's my additional thoughts to tack on to my last post:

If your perception of reckless behavior is that it doesn't matter because your life is so bad or meaningless that the consequences can't make it worse, you're depressed and you need help. Getting help isn't easy. But you need it.

If you feel a strong desire or need to do this for sexual gratification, you need to find healthier outlets. I struggle with this immensely myself. I'm open about liking and engaging with this content and some of its creators. The best I can do for myself is dark roleplay or using already existing content, and playing with generally safer dark play (which will always carry its own risk). The ideal would be to not find it gratifying. I don't know how to.

You should never engage with someone whose relationship to you is conditional on risking your health-- people you actually talk to or "fans" of your content. Anyone pressuring you to play with needles, especially when you're on the fence or have expressed you don't want to, doesn't have your best interests in mind. If you walk back wanting to do it, regardless of if you ever have done it, avoid the people who don't support your decision.

I'm never not going to end a public discussion of needle play without reemphasizing its danger. The possible bad outcomes are catastrophic and there's almost no way to mitigate the risk.

I'll add as well that the community has an obligation (IMO) to make sure newer or younger participants know how dangerous this kind of play is. Don't allow people to stay naive.

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I recorded this out of curiosity about how my visible neck pulse would react to breath holds. Is it just me, or can you see a double pulsation after the holds? If you have any comments or thoughts, I’d love to read them!

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my heart starts to pound faster as the edible kicks in. ive been horny and waiting for this moment. i lay in bed with my earbuds, stethoscope, and blood pressure cuff. i take my blood pressure.

114/66

93 bpm

i listen to some recordings while scrolling through the cardiophile tag and playing with one of my nipples. it feels incredible. i start to play with the other one too. this is exactly what my body was craving and is reveling in the feeling, hips rocking, and im not even touching myself yet. i desperately want to hear how hard my heart is pounding so i place my stethoscope at erbs point. i take my blood pressure.

141/89

107 bpm

i get an erratic heart rate warning. i love seeing that.

my body feels so good, i want to cum. i feel so good that im surprised i havent already. i slide a hand down to my clit and take a deep breath. my heart is so pounding loud and clear and im still indulging in heart content. im touching myself and i sync up the rhythym of my breath, nipple play, and clit stimulation with the beats of my heart. my pleasure is reaching its apex. i take my blood pressure.

161/108

102 bpm

waves of pleasure crash over me as the cuff deflates. i feel my pulse returning to my arm. i love timing a reading perfectly with my orgasm. i lay there for some time blissfully listening to my heart slow down to a more normal pace. i take my blood pressure.

109/70

82 bpm

ps: please no one be concered by my readings, theyre usually around 110/70 with about 70 bpm. i was just having a really good time and also high 😉

i cant believe im posting this 😳 i may need a round two after writing this......

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more visible heart beats :)

please enjoy 😊☺️🙏

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A recording from a couple of months ago which I forgot about: the sound of my heartbeat at my apex while I relax in bed. What can you hear?

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Please, if you're posting about an eating disorder (ESPECIALLY about engaging in disordered behaviours), fucking TAG IT.

I don't want to be surprised by that. People in recovery don't want to be surprised by that. It makes me sad to see people feeling the need to hurt themselves like that (and yes, the ED is hurting you, even though it tells you that it's the lesser evil), but it also fans the flames of an ED to stumble upon people glorifying self-starvation. The tag system is dysfunctional, but at least it's some kind of insulation.

I'm sorry about the angry tone of this post. To the people it's addressing, I don't mean to criticise you as people, and I wish you all the best. Try and be kind to yourself: as a good friend once told me, it's hard to keep going when someone's being mean to you all the time.

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Don't mind me, I'm just thinking about hooking someone up to a heart monitor and edging them based on their heart rate. Watching the numbers on the screen tick higher and higher as you bring them close to finishing, only to pull away once their heart reaches a speed you decide is too fast. They whine and plead for you to put your hands back on them, but their begging only stresses their heart more. You insist you won't touch them again until the rate drops, and they struggle to control their body, filling their lungs with shaky breaths, desperate for their heart to slow when all it wants to do is race. After a few rounds of this, they would be so worked up their heart rate would simply refuse to come down, and it would pound so much harder than usual when you finally allow them to orgasm. ♡

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A poll for my followers, just because I’m curious about the demographics here.

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A poll for my followers, just because I’m curious about the demographics here.

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My heart was pounding hard today, and I could feel my carotid arteries surging with each heartbeat. Sure enough, they were visibly pulsing too (less so than before I got set up to record, but that's always the way!). Watch them throb as you listen to my heartbeat at Erb's point. How's my heart doing?

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damn. I might delete this blog ngl. I’ve heard stories about people being creepy in this community but I thought it was just a few bad apples. But since I started posting here I’ve been getting the weirdest and most uncomfortable and uncalled for messages. like, far beyond what is okay to say to a complete stranger. I know what kind of content I post but really? I don’t feel safe with some of what y’all have been messaging…

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my heart goes soooo wildddd I can feel it in my fingertips!!! 🙈 all thanks to you @heartstethspain and the gorgeous stethoscope you gave me. 🖤

I wish he were on the other end to listen to the mess he made inside of my chest, I can't help but wonder how much harder and faster it would beat with his hands caressing my skin like that... moments that only live in my imagination right now. 🤭

my heart will always hold a part of you. 🩺💓

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Six minutes of my visibly beating heart reacting to pushes!

Doing a push for the first time in a while caught my heart off guard, so naturally I stepped things up by doing some back-to-back pushes next. This felt incredible! My heart was really flinging itself against my ribs.

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