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Cry Me A River | Masterpost

— summary: forever is just an illusion, nothing lasts forever. don’t make me a promise that you cannot keep. please...it’ll break my heart

— pairing: bts x reader

— genre: angst, slight fluff, poly!au, mafia!au, arranged marriage!au

— status: ongoing

— word count: 150k+

— warnings: (triggering topics! please read at your own discretion) childhood trauma, mental abuse, physical abuse, child neglect, manipulation, gaslighting, violence, mentions of assault, implied sexual assault, hurt and comfort, divorce, emotional neglect, minor character deaths, kidnapping, some emotionally unstable scenes

↳ there will likely be more specifics in certain chapters. just know that this series highlight some things that can be triggering to some

— please don't go into this thinking it'll be a light read. don't estimate the warnings

— if you happen to read this series despite the warnings and if there are certain chapters you wish to skip rather than reading because of the warnings, feel free to send me an ask if you ever wish to know the gist of certain chapters and i will gladly catch you up so you don't get confused on anything

one. the breaking | you tried so hard to be enough

two. the lie | a house made of cards, they lived in your beautiful fairytale

three. the promise | if you told them about the darkness inside of you, would they still look at you like you're the sun?

four. the gentle heart | keep your heart warm, no matter how cold they have been to you

five. the void | no matter how many times you read a story over and over again, it always ends the same

six. the puppeteer | father wanted perfection, you fell in love with disorder

seven. the trial master | the only way to get rid of a buried memory is to face your past

eight. the scarlet drop | you can wipe someone's tears but not their memories

nine. the game of chess | everything's burned down into flames and all that's left is you right in the center, unable to escape

ten. the abuser and the bystander | it hurts just as much knowing someone could have stopped it all but chose to stand by and watch instead

eleven. the thorns of a rose | loyalty means to have full allegiance and faithfulness owned by a duty, a pledge, or a promise. and the reapers' loyalty lies much deeper than that

twelve. the black rose | he loved you once, so hard, but taehyung has no right to begin caring for you now

thirteen. the broken | once someone's been taught to stay quiet their whole life, how do they learn to scream and shout for help?

fourteen. the hurting | you can break something in two seconds but it will take forever to heal

fifteen. the cruel and the fool | nothing hurts more than trying your absolute best and still not being good enough

sixteen. the second choice | an illusion of free choice, it will always be namjoon in the end

seventeen. the liar | hoseok lied about choosing you, namjoon lied about leaving you, but the biggest liar of them all is you

eighteen. the frightened ones | drowning in the middle of the sea means being blind and not knowing who is on your side and who wishes to pull you in deeper

nineteen. the snakes | you're left on your own to save your own self

twenty. the watchers | sometimes to not protect is the best form of protection

twenty-one. the apologies | how many apologies have you heard in your lifetime? too many to count

twenty-two. the pawns | when pawns are used well, they are the soul of the chess. you might as well take advantage of what you’re given

twenty-three. the unprepared | no one is ever prepared to be broken, even if they think they are, and breaking again and again does not make you numb to the pain

twenty-four. the reckless | in the face of danger, you run right into it

twenty-five. the habits | you are a weapon and weapons do not weep

twenty-six. coming soon...

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THESIS IT | lemons

🍋 Description: “When life gives you lemons, make cocktails! It doesn’t solve any problems, but then again neither do lemonades. Besides, it has the word cock in it, just like what the Bangtan boys have on them. So, why don’t you just suit yourself?”

🍋 Genre: a rom-com with tons of sexual tension and eventual smut from a mix of: university!au, medicalshit!au, roommates!au, music!au, cafe!au (Looks a lot, right? but trust me it’s just the right mix of chaos) NSFW, 18+

🍋 Pairing: BTSxYOU; (OT7xreader)

🍋 series playlist ; series trailer

✏ Complete Chapters:

the wholesome arc: intro to BTS | dopamine | limonene | norepinephrine | norepinephrine2.0 | irisin |

the not-so-wholesome-arc: *ghrelin | *leptin | aldosterone | *cortisol | cortisol1.0 | cortisol2.0 | cortisol2.1 | cortisol2.2 | cortisol2.3 | *cortisol3.0 |

the real-chaos-begins arc: citrulline | epinephrine | epinephrine2.0 | *melatonin | *melatonin2.0 | kisspeptin | kisspeptin2.0 | *ghrelin2.0 |

the oh-shit arc: endorphin | endorphin2.0 | *endorphin3.0 | estrogen | *estrogen2.0 | androgen | *androgen2.0 |

the aww-shit arc: oxytocin | *glucagon | *glucagon2.0 | *serotonin | *serotonin2.0 | *serotonin3.0 // fin

mini drabbles:

(↯) 21.5 | waking up with Bangtan-prechaos (☁)(❂)  

(↯) 22.5 | on the flipside of T A L K  T O  U S ! ! gc (☁)(❂)  

(↯) 28.5 | *masquerade ball bonus (❣)(☁)

(↯) 32.5 | *valentine ice cream cake (❣)(☁)

(*) indicates smut

⌦ A/N: This fic is one heck of a roller coaster ride. Please do not copyright.

⇢ Interlogue: “I messed up big time and I need your help,” Taehyung in his puppy eyes confesses but you could only groan, sick and tired of all his shenanigans.

“Well, guess what? You’re not getting any,” you huff before turning your back on him, heading towards the door.

You’ve been so stressed out with your life and all the fuss that’s happening to you that you don’t have any time for the other shits he do. Living with seven different guys has been driving you insane, plus, the obvious stupidity of yours for reopening your coffee shop despite the crappy situation you’re already in. And right now, you just can’t take it anymore.

You’re fully decided to storm out but all of a sudden, he gives out three little words that make you freeze in place.

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The Household’s Bunny: New Beginings

A/N: Here is the establishing written part I promised! This is just to kinda set the scene a bit, the rest of the parts won’t be going in chronological order since this is a drabble series, but I wrote this literal years ago when I wanted to make it a full sequential series! Please enjoy!

Warnings: 18+, talk of sex work, mentions of stalking, OnlyFans and camming are discussed, soft and (kinda) yandere dummies, the members are adopted by the same person but don’t see each other as family, weird (adoptive) family dynamics bc this is a bit of a crack fic

Pairing: OT7 x Chubby! Reader

Word count: ~6k

Series Masterlist

Synopsis: Among the clouds, there is sun. It was time for a new beginning among new people in a new home. You had always enjoyed company, and you could only hope they would enjoy yours for all that it is. It wasn’t everyday you get seven new roommates and they get one that’s like you.

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Poly/OT7: I

Updated 2/25/23

Burn the Stage - @adonis-koo

A Place Called Home - @agustdakasuga

Between the Bloodshed - ^^

Everything Between Us - ^^

How to Sell Sunshine - @alpacaparkaseok

The Tales of Sisters (Queendom series) - @borathae

Damn the Charcuterie Board - @bratkook

Sanctuary - @btsreactsarchive

Love is Blind - @cinnaminsvga

Dorm Duels - ^^

Betrayal - @daydream-hobii

Sanctuary - ^^

Peculiar Pack - @daydreamindollie

From Eden - @ddaenggtan

Under the Same Sun - @floralseokjin

No Doubt About it - @hoebii

Black Mamba - ^^

Dance to This/Call Me Yours - @hollyhomburg

Hybrid House - ^^

Reasons Wretched and Divine - ^^

Sugary Sweet - ^^

Cute Aggression - ^^

Champagne & Sunshine - @jamaisjoons

Complaint - @jiminiesfavouritecolourisblue

I Want You to Stay - ^^

Our Little Love - ^^

Bleeding Butterflies - ^^

A Bed of Roses - @jimlingss

The Seven Kinds of Love - ^^

Tomorrow - @jungk0oksthighs

Voracious - @jungkookiebus

Date Night - @justcallmenikki7

Regretful Choices - ^^

Wild, Wild, Wilderness - @kimnjss

Thought you were Different - @kookiesbuckethat

Broken Communication - @kpopisthereasonihavenolife

Protectors - @kyutiekook

Little Dove - ^^

Kings of Campus - @luxekook

You Belong to Us - @minniepetals

Feelings of Doubt - ^^

Yours Alone - ^^

Strawberries & Cigarettes - ^^

When the rain gets Rough - ^^

Until the Last Star Falls - ^^

Caramel Macchiato - ^^

Honey Love - ^^

Nightlight - ^^

Heartbeat - ^^

Love Poem - ^^

As Long as You're Here - ^^

A Cup of Love - ^^

A Thousand Springs - ^^

When a Demon Loves - ^^

Guardians - ^^

Milk Honey - ^^

The Butterseries - ^^

Cry Me a River - ^^

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The Doms Next Door 3.1

Part 1 | Part 2.0 | Part 2.1 | Part 3.0 | Part 3.1

Word Count: 13.5k

Warnings: Second-hand embarrassment (lol sry); a lot of dialogue for explanation purposes; slight dub-con (nervous reader); graphic, NSFW content; crude, vulgar language; oral (female receiving 🤑); fingering; degradation; a dash of Humiliation; implications of Daddy-kink; lots and lots of dominance; and hella Big Dick Energy.

copyright © 2018 all rights reserved

~ please read the A/N at the end so that I can properly explain in a rant as to why it’s taken so fucking long to update. A bitch cried real tears over this~

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summary⇢ “listen,” taehyung says, eyes wide and eager as he smiles at you. “i figure we can just help each other out. i scratch your back, you scratch mine.” but when you find yourself suddenly in need of a massive favor, exactly how much scratching are you willing to do? pairing⇢ kimline/reader word count⇢ 38.6k (and counting) rating⇢ 18+ genre⇢ smut | escort!au | ceo!au (kinda)

↳01. intro

↳02. kim seokjin

↳03. kim taehyung

↳04. kim namjoon

↳05. ?

↳06. ?

✨series playlist✨

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The Household’s Bunny

Note: This will be a series of unnumbered chapters, drabbles and texts as opposed to a formal written series. Yes, the premise is loosely inspired by Brother’s Conflict, so I will be tagging it as pseudo- brothers, just in case, although none of them consider each other family, because the boys were adopted later in their childhood so they never really felt that familial bond and often refer to each other as friends, so I’m still up in the air on if they will get romantically involved with each other. The fics are more or less in order starting from the top and going down, concurrent with the texts. There will eventually be a lot of sexual content in this, so I stress again, no minors here or on my page thank you!!

Summary: You were a cam girl and OnlyFans creator all the while you were a senior in college. A series of events leads you to be living with seven men under the same roof of one renovated motel. Entering the life of rich, and touch starved, men as a less than rich, but similarly touch starved, woman is bound to hold some shenanigans

Pairing: Soft Yandere! OT7 x Chubby!Reader

Genre: Smut, Fluff, hurt-comfort at times, softish yandere, kinda a crack fic at times, part smau, part written

Warnings: 18+! unhealthy relationships (i mean, it’s a yandere, albeit soft-ish but still a yandere, fic), subject to change warnings include.. smut, cam girl, pseduo-brothers(see note above), kinda a crack fic, online sex work, camming, sex toys, onlyfans, yandere behavior but the boys are all dummies kinda- at least at first-, obsessive behavior, possessive behavior, specialized warnings for each drabble will be on the specific post

Updated: October 09, 2022

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easy tips to be your best version before 2023

this is my little gift to you! if you needed a guide or ideas on how to get started here it is! it is very simple and it will help you to create routines and get improvements in your life 🤍

things to do before the end of the year

incorporate small healthy habits into your routine

replace bad foods with healthier ones

go to sleep an hour earlier than you usually do and wake up an hour earlier

start the day with gratitude, meditate and be thankful for what you have

exercise 3 times a week

focus on what you like about yourself and what is within your power to change right now

create a skincare routine (day and night)

put on a face mask once a week

start taking care of your hair

take time for yourself before going to sleep, relax, forgetting the worries of the day

listen to podcasts that motivate you to be the best version of you

install an application on your phone to help you organize your day

keep track of your days and always get organized before the next day

be more aware of who you are and your surroundings

change your internal dialogue for a more positive one

stay focused on your goals

tidy up your room

drink plenty of water a day, and carry a bottle of water with you at all times

get rid of things that no longer benefit you or are bad for you

organize your cell phone

spend less time on social media and when you do, watch motivational content (e.g. my blog)

feel pretty

start acting the way you want to be

treat others the way you want to be treated (e.g. kindness and respect).

set new goals for 2023 and continue with all of this in your life.

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♥️Red Light♥️

Nightmare!Hoseok x Psychologist!Reader

Genre: NSFW/18+ content, Drabble Series, Monster!AU, Horror!AU, Psychological Horror, Angst, moments of Fluff.

Warnings: nsfw content! (blood, gore, etc.) This story will contain themes of major horror/psychological horror and also explore obsessive behaviors and codependency. Many characters are morally gray. Please be warned! Reminder that this story in no way, shape, or form reflects the actual ideals of the members of bts, their likeness is being used but that’s all.

Summary: Fresh out of school with your psychology license, you would have never guessed your first job would be to take care of those who hide in the dark… The Nightmares.

Find my Main Masterlist here! ♥️

Nsfw/18+ 💋, Fluff 🌸, Angst 🥀, Horror 👻

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Main Story:

(Small note that the parts are not listed in chronological order on purpose ♥️)

Red Light 🥀👻

Curiosity Killed the…? 👻🥀🌸

Black Sheep 👻

Unsecured 👻🌸

Code Red 👻🌸🥀

Blood Rain 👻🥀🌸

Playing With Madness 👻🥀🌸

Call Out My Name 👻🥀🌸

Jump Rope 👻🥀

Finger Paint 👻🌸🥀

Good Boy 👻🥀

Best of Luck 👻🥀

Bubblegum Pop 👻🥀🌸

The Happiest of Trails 👻🌸🥀

White Walls 👻🥀

It All Disappears 👻🥀

Snake Eyes 👻🥀

Fair Warning 👻🥀

Twisted Hands 👻🥀🌸

Twisted Hearts 👻🥀🌸

Silver Tongue 👻🥀🌸

Snippets:

Pudding 👻🌸

Ruby Reds 👻🌸

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50 safe foods

Fruits

Strawberries (4 calories for one medium)

Blueberries (20 calories for 25 berries)

Raspberries (10 calories for 10 berries)

Blackberries (20 calories for 10 berries)

Cherries (4 calories for one medium)

Grapes (2 calories for one medium)

Apricot (17 calories for one medium)

Plum (30 calories for one small)

Apple (47 calories for half a medium)

Watermelon (46 calories for one cup)

Vegetables

Cabbage (17 calories for a cup)

Carrots (25 calories for a medium)

Tomatoes (22 calories for a medium)

Cucumbers (16 calories for a cup)

Romaine Lettuce (8 calories for a cup)

Spinach (7 calories for a cup)

Cauliflower (27 calories for a cup)

Broccoli (30 calories for a cup)

Sugar Snap Peas (26 calories for a cup)

String Beans (31 calories for a cup)

Spaghetti Squash (31 calories for a cup)

Mushrooms (4 calories for medium)

Iceberg Lettuce (10 calories for a cup)

Kale (33 calories for a cup)

Zucchini (19 calories for a cup)

Dairy & Eggs

Unsweetened Almond Milk (30 calories for a cup)

Unsweetened Chocolate Almond Milk (40 calories for a cup)

Unsweetened Cashew Milk (25 calories for a cup)

Unsweetened Coconut Milk (45 calories for a cup)

Egg Whites (17 calories for an egg white)

Meat, Poultry, Fish, & Other

Shrimp (11 calories for a medium)

Smoked Salmon (33 calories for 1 oz.)

Tofu (18 calories for 1 oz.)

Turkey Breast (29 calories for 1 oz.)

Chicken Breast (47 calories for 1 oz.)

Snacks

Pickles (7 calories for a medium)

Sugar-Free Jello (10 calories for a serving)

Graham Crackers (30 calories for a cracker)

Applesauce (50 calories for half a cup)

Rice Cakes (35 calories for a medium)

Starches, Grains, & Other

Sweet Potato (26 calories for 1 oz.)

Brown Rice (31 calories for 1 oz.)

White Rice (37 calories for 1 oz.)

Bulgur (24 calories for 1 oz.)

Barley (35 calories for 1 oz.)

Condiments

Sriracha (5 calories for a teaspoon)

Sugar-Free Barbecue Sauce (9 calories for 1 oz.)

Sugar-Free Ketchup (5 calories for a serving)

Sugar-Free Maple Syrup (15 calories for a serving)

Soy Sauce (9 calories for a tablespoon)

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viii. rotten angelcake ⇾ kth. [M]

chapter eight : roadtrip  ⤑ you keep yourselves entertained on a long car ride to the Kims.

⇽ prev. | masterlist | next ⇾

⌁ pairing; ceo!taehyung x curvy!reader (f.)

⌁ genre/rating; s2l, ceo au, sugar daddy au, smut, fluff, 18+

⌁ word count; 7.7k

⌁ warnings; mullet!taehyung (yes, bestie this is a fucking warning), dom!taehyung, daddy!taehyung, sub!reader, brat!reader, virgin!reader, daddy kink, size kink, praise kink, pain kink, corruption kink, dirty talk, oral (m.), handjob, degradation, attempts of deep-throating, teasing, pussy slapping, spanking, biting, cum eating, spitting, cum play

⌁ le playlist

ও as always a hundred thanks to cam ( @sunshinejunghoseokie ) for the pretty, pretty banner!! three million thanks to my bestest betas sammy ( @chateautae ) and eva ( @nottodayjjk ) reading through horn fest. love you sm 🥺💖

Taehyung loves to speed. You became well accustomed to his pace during that polo match a couple of weeks ago. You’re now just as obsessed with the rush. Watching the world whiz by in a swirled zoom is exhilarating in itself, but knowing Taehyung is in control tickles an unknown itch deep within your gut. There’s nothing more comforting, more arousing than notes of soft pop blending with hums of the roaring engine, and Taehyung right behind the steering wheel. 

This is possibly the only entertaining thing about this trip so far. Taehyung did not pick you up at noon like he once promised, but rather at the crack of dawn. You woke to the distant honk of a horn. You ignored it, having peeked out and spotted an unfamiliar black jeep parked in front of the building. Cursing the fool, you crawled back into bed. A few more honks and endless buzzes of your phone later, you came to realize that it was your fool. 

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hii can I ask who you follow for your workouts at home? since I’m having trouble finding a good one

hey honey 🤍 these are my favorite yt channels to workout at home daily, really being consistent i am seeing a lot of results:

pamela reif (i like it for short stretching routines)

eylem abaci ( i do her routines to train the whole body)

getfitbyivana (love her glute exercises)

train with gainsbybrains

mary braun

sanne vloet (pilates)

yoga with bird (yoga)

madfit

angela kajo

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new habit ideas for june ✨

new moon, summer vibes and it's time to establish healthier habits for the new month ahead 🤍

eat more healthy, avoid sweets and fast food

wake up before 7 a.m

go to bed before 10 p.m

10,000 steps daily

read 10 pages on any book every day

start with a mental detox

keep your space clean

get ready every day

meditate every day and night

if you have the possibility, spend more time near the beach or in nature

journal daily

start talking to yourself and treating yourself as if you were someone else you love

start organizing your summer

spend less time with your phone

affirm at least one positive thing about yourself or your life every day (when you wake up or before you go to sleep)

organize new plans with your friends, e.g. outings to try out new restaurants

take time every day to train or learn something new

pay more attention to the little things in your life

it's time to start what you haven't started yet

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rotten angelcake ⇾ m.list [M]

↳ banner/border by @sunshinejunghoseokie​​​

⌁ pairing; ceo!taehyung x curvy!reader (f.)

⌁ genre/rating; s2l, ceo au, sugar daddy au, slow burn-ish, smut, fluff, angst

⌁ summary; she’s as sweet as angelcake; he likes her honeyed rotten. this is a series following the complicated relationship between a sugar baby, sugar daddy and his corruption kink.

⌁ warnings; mentions and depictions of vaping, mentions and consumption of alcohol, taehyung has a corruption kink, mullet!taehyung (yes, bestie this is a fucking warning), dom!taehyung, daddy!taehyung, ass enthusiast!taehyung, sub!reader, brat!reader, virgin!reader, unprotected sex… other warnings to be disclosed before each chapter.

⌁ status; ongoing

⌁ le playlist 

⌁ TAG ARE CLOSED.

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Being thin by Christmas is…

Warmth from a cozy oversized sweater

Delicate boney hands drinking tea my under a blanket

Walking in the outside feeling lighter than a snowflake

The perfect thigh gap to go with your outfit on Christmas morning

Feeling your ribs without stretching or sucking in

Look thinner instead of heavier when you wear your jacket

Watching the scales drop

The people you know being proud of all that you’ve done

The self control to reject high calories treats for the holidays

Watching a Christmas movie with a skinny main character and not being disappointed in yourself

Unwrapping a present and seeing all the bones in your hands move

The finger gap

Not feeling like you faked an ED

Having the complete confidence to take pictures of yourself and posting them online without the dread of being seen (calling myself out)

Feeling tiny while being held by your partner during the holidays

This is just stuff that motivates me, stay safe!! 💕

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May the peace you’re looking for, find you