nightshade-regrets

[nightshade-regrets]

Glimpse of Us, but rewritten as looking at who you could have been.

I'd take the world onto my shoulders

Though it grows too hard to move

I'd turn the rain to a rainbow

If you were living in the blue

Why, then, if I'm so perfect,

Do I still wish it were true?

Perfect don't mean that it's working,

So what can I do?

It's just out of sight,

In my mind.

'Cause sometimes,

I'd look in my eyes

And that's when I find a glimpse of us

And I'll try, oh so very much,

But I'm thinking of the way I was

'Said I'm fine and said I'd moved on

We're only here passing time in each other's arms

Hoping I'll find a glimpse of us

Tell me he savors his glory

Does he laugh the way I did?

Is this a part of our story?

One that I will never live?

Maybe one day, he'll feel lonely

And in his eyes, you'll get a glimpse

Maybe he'll start slipping slowly,

And be me again.

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"Life is cruel. Why should death be any different?"

-Captain Davy Jones, Pirates of the Caribbean; At World's End

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At the end of the rainbow there's happiness

And to find it, how often I've tried

But my life is a race

Just a wild goose chase

And my dreams have all been denied

Why have I always been a failure

What can the reason be

I wonder if the world's to blame

I wonder if it could be me

I'm always chasing rainbows

Watching clouds drifting by

My schemes are just like all my dreams

Ending in the sky

Some fellows look and find the sunshine

I always look and find the rain

Some fellows make a winning sometime

I never even make a gain,

believe me

I'm always chasing rainbows

Waiting to find a little bluebird

In vain

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Lo:

Me declaring war against the higher power that took another loved one from me just this morning.

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I have to find a way

To make this all okay

I can't believe this grave mistake

Could've caused so much heartache

Oh why, oh why?

Something is wrong, it's plain to see

This isn't how it's meant to be

Yet you can't see it like I do

It's not the fate that's meant for you

Oh why, oh why?

Losing promise,

I don't know what to do

Seeking answers,

I fear I won't get through to you

I'll try

And I'll try

I'll try

And I'll try

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It's a Small World After All

It's a world of hatred;

A world of tears

It's a world of loss;

An' a world of fears

There's so much we've lost- all the paths you've crossed.

It's a small world after all.

Oh, it's a small world after all.

It's a small world after all.

It's a small world after all.

It's a small, small world.

There was just one you,

A real golden sun.

It was a pain,

Shared by most ev'ryone.

Now we family divide

As the oceans are wide.

It's a small, small world after all.

[nightshade-regrets]

I'm in that mood where I just wanna be alone. Outside. In the pouring rain. Not necessarily crying, though.

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Is anyone else afraid of who they've become because of loss? Because I am. Genuinely. I'm afraid of who or what I've become.

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Bringing this back, just in case. And to make sure it's seen, y'know?

Should also add that I'll respond and give details.

But thanks to anyone interested in helping.

I wanna ask florists out there what flowers I should choose for a bouquet for my deceased cousin. I'm loosely interested in flower symbology, but mostly I'm interested in the message. If anyone is willing to answer my questions, let me know through my dms. I'm not pressuring for responders, but any help would be appreciated. Thank you.

[nightshade-regrets]

I'm just a step away

I'm just a breath away

Lost all my faith that day

(Fallin' off the edge today)

I am just a man

Not superhuman

(I'm not superhuman)

Someone save me from my hate

It's just another war

Just another family torn

(Falling from my faith today)

Just a step from the edge

Just another day in the world we'll live

I need a hero to save me now

I need a hero (save me now)

I need a hero to save my life

A hero'll save me (just in time)

I've gotta fight today

To live another day

Speakin' my mind today

(My voice will be heard today)

I've gotta make a stand

But I am just a man

(I'm not superhuman)

My voice will be heard today

It's just another war

Just another family torn

(My voice will be heard today)

It's just another kill

The countdown begins to destroy ourselves

I need a hero to save me now

I need a hero (save me now)

I need a hero to save my life

A hero'll save me (just in time)

I need a hero to save my life

I need a hero just in time

Save me just in time

Save me just in time

Who's gonna fight for what's right

Who's gonna help us survive

We're in the fight of our lives

(And we're not ready to die)

Who's gonna fight for the weak

Who's gonna make 'em believe

I've got a hero (I've got a hero)

Livin' in me

I'm gonna fight for what's right

Today I'm speaking my mind

And if it kills me tonight

(I will be ready to die)

A hero's not afraid to give his life

A hero's gonna save me just in time

I need a hero to save me now

I need a hero (save me now)

I need a hero to save my life

A hero'll save me (just in time)

I need a hero

Who's gonna fight for what's right

Who's gonna help us survive

I need a hero

Who's gonna fight for the weak

Who's gonna make 'em believe

I need a hero

I need a hero

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[nightshade-regrets]

I see a cold wind blowing through

I see days neither fun nor free

I see a future caused by you

I see a path not meant to be

The future should be filled with magic

Dreams and wishes brought to life

But the days ahead are dark and tragic

No time for hope when all is strife

Whatever might have been

All the dreams that we'd all share

Because of all you have caused

Now the future is a cold nightmare

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"Goodbye may seem forever

Farewell is like the end

But in my heart's the memory

And there,

You'll always be"

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"Once upon a time there was light in my life

But now there's only love in the dark

Nothing I can say

A total eclipse of the heart"

-Bonnie Tyler, "Total Eclipse of the Heart", 1983

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"There are those who believe in some greater Plan. A greater Plan for each and every one of us. Why they believe it is their own business. But I can't believe in that. I've been through so much in my short life, that I have to believe there is no Plan. I have to believe there isn't one, so I don't lose my mind."

-Me