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Easy-peasy ADHD brain tip:

Make the most out of sticky notes/digital notes. Declutter and unload items from your working memory, so you can make room for more! Think more and think clearly. Open yourself up for deep processing.

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My dad and I don't really talk these days. We've just been mindlessly absent and doing our own things. Today, there was a very loud thunderstorm. I sent a message our family group chat wondering why the weather sounded like bombs and my dad explained the types of lightning he knew about and it let me remember the days of my child and teenhoods of when my dad would always hang out and just talk. We hung out and conversed a lot. I would always ask him why and he would always answer, never shunning my curiosity. I think that might be a main reason as to why I enjoy conversations and why I am intelligent now. I love you, dad. I miss you. I would go and hang out in your room now, but I know you wouldn't let me lie down on your bed with outside clothes. Hehe.

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Rainy season

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There are just some songs meant to be danced with the warmth of another person wrapped around you

#sade #iwannadancewithsomebody

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Photo by me

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I feel so lonely and taken for granted

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Why are you about to do what you're doing

I don't want to feel dissatisfied at the end of the day because of how little I've managed to do in all my waking hours. I want to change my life down to its modular blocks, and here I am trying to do so. Show me your daily habits and I'll show you your future!

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One of my favorite songs

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I saw this lady wearing these jeans and I couldn't help but ask her where she got them from. She was wearing it with a pink fitted polo shirt tucked in, with loafers. She had it altered to her length. Sadly, they only had the 0101s in stock. This costs 295USD on the site. I have my eye on them now

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Do people need to know I'm a naturist? I was never closeted about it. Anyway, I am one. Always been one. Ever since I was a kid. I hate how nudity's always so sexualized. I hate how people freak out over a woman walking around topless, but bat no eyes at a man doing the same thing. I'm comfortable with my body. Why can't I just take my shirt off IN PEACE? Sexuality is overrated. It's not fun anymore. Society's crazy. But society'll tell you it's the other way around! Anyhoo, crazy's relative.

Photo by Georgii Vlasov

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My first pee in Bali (2023)

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A quick snap during a sidetrip to Book Off with a past lover before we ate at an unli yakiniku place

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In light of my guakong's passing, I asked my grandparents over lunch how they wanted things done when their time came: whether they wanted to be buried or cremated.

I was curious about their answers and wanted to honor their requests but I was initially hesitant to ask. I ended up doing it anyway because death is a 'scary' topic they don't open up about a lot but constantly think of, and I didn't want it to feel like a taboo topic with me.

Angkong replied after a period of silence. "Que será, será." Whatever will be, will be. Ahma uttered no words.

I thought that was such a beautiful and emotional answer. Graceful as always, angkong. I love them so much. They were more present in my everyday life compared to my parents. I am forever grateful.

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Grandfather's funeral

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Welcome

Supposedly, there was an audio of me reading aloud the joke of the day, but the screen capture ended up not recording the audio.

Anyway, welcome to never-punctual-observation-deck. By the second floor entrance lies an old piano that's been out-of-tune for almost three decades. Feel free to formulate music with the quirky keys, or wipe the hair out of your face while gazing at the wall mirror by the head of the instrument. It does get windy this time of the year, but it's dusty indoors all year round.