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So many things to do currently...

Even though I don't have to go to school this week, I have so much to do. My teachers gave me lots of tasks to do at home.

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Drew this tonight while I was feeling absolutely terrible.

I didn't manage to go to the CSD today...I feel like a huge failure. Guess I am too broken and fucked up to get out of bed.

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Another meme post.

I swear, every time I think about actually trying to improve my life and to get better mentally, my thoughts will become like this. But I am still trying.

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I love experimenting with perspective and light currently.

TW: Talking about offing oneself

This is how I felt after my 2nd(?) attempt, that happened while I was in the psychiatry.

My memory regarding the attempts is super foggy, I am not even sure if I remember all of them. I assume that this is a reaction to the trauma.

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For clarification, I am not in danger and this post is just about my thoughts.

Being trans is not a choice.

I experimented with light and perspective in this one, I hope that it didn't turn out too ugly.

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Currently quite busy with school, so I couldn't post daily anymore.

It's really annoying when random people call me an emo when I'm not wearing long sleeves. It's not helping me nor them, calling someone an emo for having SH scars won't change the past. It's the same with random people giving me weird looks for them.

Just mind your own business.

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Wasn't able to post for some days unfortunately, I drew a 7-page comic for school, which will be published in the yearbook of my school :D

Finally finished this one after 2 weeks of occasionally drawing on it.

While I was drawing the lineart, my girlfriend was lying on my (left) arm.

We both struggle a lot with loud noises due to autism and noise sensitivity. On this one day there wasn't even only a crying child, we also had people calling someone on their speakers, and a friend group talking and laughing very loudly.

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Finally finished.

I am very sorry for the bad crop ;-;

Learned a lot from my past relationship. I had lots of difficult feelings because of it, but I got over it eventually.

I have a girlfriend now, who loves me and accepts my real self. Met her when I was at my rock bottom, and after we got out of the psychiatry, we started meeting up and dating. And this time I am certainly not going to hide my true self to make her happy.

(Also, I started drawing the "bi and still single" comic right before our first date, haha)

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Long sleeves in summer are terrible.

But to avoid questions from others, I usually cover my arms. It's a really exhausting thing to do. Constantly hiding a part of your psyche under long sleeves.

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I hope that this explains a little.

This comic is based on my own experience. Every person with autism is different, some are even the exact opposite of me when it comes to this!

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My life as a YouTube challenge, lol

Another meme post, the idea stuck with me since I first thought it, so I drew it.

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Ah yes, it is what it is :')

I finally drew a LGBTQ+ comic. Enjoy!

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Found a post on r/2meirl4meirl that I related to so much that I decided to draw it, lol.

This is basically my life in a nutshell.

Also, first and last time I draw a brain (maybe), haha

Original post: https://www.reddit.com/r/2meirl4meirl/s/EM98OEqkl6

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My misery.

Feeling really low right now. The bad thoughts and urges are getting closer to me. I want to do really bad things, but I can't disappoint my loved ones.

Drawing this helped unexpectedly well. Generally, drawing those comics is a great coping skill for me.

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Always such a pain...I am so confused every time. Usually I find out that I actually haven't had a crush on someone I thought I had a crush on.

I am generally very blind, when it comes to emotions.

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Happy pride month! 🌈

This is me with all my pride flags. Which ones are yours, guys, girls and enbies?

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As you voted in the poll on IG, here is another mental health comic.

I'm sorry that I uploaded it so late, I wasn't at home.

Depression is a bitch.

Those thoughts are haunting me almost every night.