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Um, its harris bomberguy.

Y'all.

Y'all.

What the fuck.

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God I hate AFAB and AMAB. Y’all usually just mean genitals (AND you use it to lump in the endo stuff) so it pisses me off.

Im just going to use born penis haver and born with a testosterone dominated endocrine system. Never call me amab when you mean those it pisses me off. I am BPH and BTDES.

I was not assigned male by my parents or most of society. The way I was treated was a mostly positive experience of “do whatever” and “third gendering”(stemming from me doing whatever). Then i put myself into the girl box. (Before realizing i like boy box too) I was not assigned a male role in most respects, I was assigned an androgynous one.

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I’m joining the war on disgusting immoral porn on the side of fucked up disgusting immoral ethically sourced porn.

once you've successfully banned porn, it's not a huge leap for them to then define your body as pornographic, and ban it from public life. force you to hide yourself, to not speak, not even laugh in public, lest it arouse a man. the anti-porn movement feeds into the oppression of women. it always has, and it always will. you don't have to like porn, and the industry needs regulation, but what you are doing is paving the way for your own oppression.

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Thanks for working on that and I love trash!

The definite hardest part for me of this situation is when other victims of abuse tell me that because there are a culture of shitty people getting off to video games about rape (in a misogynistic and not kink way), that there should be a line of things that are censored. That they think that they can get rid of the culture by banning certain free expression. They are just being sold authoritarianism in a palatable “progressive” disguise.

The commenter I’ve argued with said that they’d only ever seen the abused needing differing depictions of abuse in media (especially the romanticized ones) as a means to process trauma as a fake justification uses by people being misogynistic. But like i told them I’m literally right here, so they cant say that anymore.

People like this I think just refuse to realize that fighting structural incentives for poor behavior by taking away certain means of that expression is authoritarian and will never fix the issue.

AO3 is one of the last bastions of supporting the free expression of horny fucked up people and abuse survivors (especially people who are both) and its model should be a baseline for what we deserve for every medium of artistic expression

We deserve a place like AO3 where people can share their disgusting immoral rape themed games whether it’s for them processing trauma or they’re just horny (or both). It just needs to have proper warnings (like ao3) so that only people who consent to see it can.

The thing that pisses me off is when in arguing against payment processors acting as defacto censors is that if we argue that “well i think this should be censored, even if I disagree with the way its done” its just woke authoritarianism saying groups of people’s artistic expression should be on the chopping block. Its really an extension of bodily autonomy that yeah, people deserve to make whatever art they want as long as they don’t violate others bodily autonomy.

Can you please do a video on the whole payment processor thing? I‘m tired of people being like “well actually I agree this specific thing should never be allowed, and there should be an organization to determine what cannot exist, but it shouldn’t be payment processors”

The line I can say makes sense is if the product is the result of someone causing harm, or if it is targeting someone with intent to cause harm, or like material that came from being abusive to someone. But that always is a case by case basis. You cant broadly determine these things as a category, it is a behavior that needs to have consequences.

Any attempt to create a broad “obscene” category inevitably leads to the censoring of people processing their abuse and also an attack on the kink community (which inevitably leads to encompassing the queer community into the kink one; why i believe the pride and kink answer is no pride without kink)

We need places like AO3.

Im just sick of the way authoritarianism is sold to this newer generation especially, the idea that we can just get rid of only the bad icky art. The people who are like no I’m not against porn but i think people shouldn’t be allowed to write rape porn. Or rape art is fine but in video games thats too far.

Even amongst progressive circles the is too much focus on “well lgbt content is censored to so this isnt just about banning porn”. People are in a small way throwing adult and complicated material under the bus to have a sense of moral superiority. Whats the post on tumblr? “I’m joining the war on disgusting porn on the side of disgusting perverted porn.”

We need people to react harder in specific support of pornographic or adult content’s right to exist, full stop. Im a sex worker too so Im sick of being the canary. I just want some fresh air.

Hey!! I actually already am working on a video about this!! I wanna talk with my friend @trashdiscourse about we you need to be able to defend the rights of even the stuff we might not be into but that the fascists want us to agree is nasty and icky to exist because hey, actually the fascists don't get to decide what gets to be created or shared. It wont be until after my video about how much i hate the movie booksmart but this is def something im working on

Originally my route into it was that I noticed a bunch of young women who have purportedly feminist YouTube channels which the fascists would love to censor being like "woohoo hell yeah this rules gimme more" when that australian woman was arrested over her novel. And then just over the course of the few weeks that I've been looking into it to make a video there has been such a clear escalation that so many of us knew was coming where the censorship is getting much more imposing and the rules are becoming more opaque. There is a concentrated effort going on right now. I feel, to make censorship aims sound feminist the same way transphobic aims are made to sound faux feminist, and it's pissing me right off.

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As someone who hates eating due to digestive I disagree. Food is painful and gross but if I dont eat enough i die 🥲

for months ive been thinking to myself "food is highkey yummy", a phrase which not only means nothing but is also stupid as fuck

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My dad has helped me a lot financially with my school and various points of housing. He also has started to be accepting (At least of the more mundane „he sees me as a girl“ aspects).And I‘m greatful for that. But I kind of just… cannot feel comfortable around him as this decent into fascism has worsened.

He enabled this by being on the right, and probably still being on it somewhat. He enabled this by watching fox „news“. He enabled this by just blindly hating Obama for the absolute wrong reasons. He enabled this by not caring when i told him I was abused. His worldview is small and pathetic and i cannot handle talking to him in the hateful climate he helped create. And like maybe he realizes somewhere in there, as the son of a Mexican mom, who only kind of passes for white, that they‘ll easily come for him too. If we weren‘t so quickly descending into worse and worse fascism I‘d be willing to give him time to come around but that time is up. I have to give him an ultimatum that he has to change and be better or I just am not going to deal with him anymore.

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"It's so fucked up women have to do sex work to survive" so trueee it's so fucked up we live in a capitalist society where you need to do work you don't want to do just to be alive. I'm so glad we're talking about ALL the jobs that are forced onto people, especially women, that are full of harassment. Thank God we're not just focusing on jobs that are already heavily stigmatized and shaming women for doing what's necessary to survive, even though every single person has to do that but for some reason it's immoral when it's a stripper instead of a fast food employee

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The funniest part about forcibly giving a heterosexual love interest to de-gay two people of the same gender in movies is that it just makes me feel like they’re adding new members to the polycule

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I’m genuinely insanely uncomfortable with this. I don’t know the exact wording or whatever but the main mod for the leftist cooks sent a paragraphs long message at me about issues they have with me since i rejoined.

And the thing that i cannot handle or get over is the way that there was *any* complaint whatsoever about me calling out someone who used to be in that server as an abuser. Thats a non fucking starter. You do not tell someone to not talk about abuse. For any reason.

If you ever see this TLC. Fuck you for enabling the silencing of victims on your server. Fuck you for caring about civility more than letting minorities speak. You guys do not deserve to head a community. And the fact you haven’t transitioned away from discord to element at this point is embarrassing. Especially with the way discord molds and shapes every part of the server to abandon leftist principles.

Do fucking better. I never want to see your faces again.

I hate liberals cosplaying as leftists so much. The leftist cooks really should have kept their name as The Liberal Cooks lmao.

I met someone on their discord server who i dated and ended up being abusive towards me. I left the server for them not defending my right to speak for myself as a minority. I rejoin because I think I can coalition build. And today I get some fucking pissy little ping about “don’t start drama about former server members” idk what it exactly was but they got mad at me for calling out my abuser in their server. They also were talking about ME being the problem when I left. For ME saying someone spoke over me and the person who spoke over me being angry at me for saying it.

This isn’t leftist sympathy this is just liberal tears decrying things not being peaceful.

The leftist cooks server is not a safe place for minorities and people who’ve gone through abuse.

But yeah, I’m done doing anything but coalition building with liberals cosplaying leftism. If they didn’t attack me I would have stayed but I feel unsafe there.

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What the fuck dominos

I know im gay but like

Did you have to?

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Knowing you're bigender means knowing you'll never be able to settle on one gender, because you'll simply never do that mentally. It's impossible.

Knowing you're bigender means knowing you will have to adapt to the antiquated binary gender expectation of your assigned gender (sometimes, even if you want or decide to transition).

Knowing you're bigender means knowing you'll always be more than most other people think you are.

That's me. That's how I've been feeling. And it's sad, but I live through. I understand it now because I thought about it. Because I was analyzing my own brain and the way I think, the way I exist, for a long time. And I'm not some magical unicorn, I'm just unable to put myself into one hole and stick myself in it forever without the nagging awareness of there being more to me than that.

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I hate liberals cosplaying as leftists so much. The leftist cooks really should have kept their name as The Liberal Cooks lmao.

I met someone on their discord server who i dated and ended up being abusive towards me. I left the server for them not defending my right to speak for myself as a minority. I rejoin because I think I can coalition build. And today I get some fucking pissy little ping about “don’t start drama about former server members” idk what it exactly was but they got mad at me for calling out my abuser in their server. They also were talking about ME being the problem when I left. For ME saying someone spoke over me and the person who spoke over me being angry at me for saying it.

This isn’t leftist sympathy this is just liberal tears decrying things not being peaceful.

The leftist cooks server is not a safe place for minorities and people who’ve gone through abuse.

But yeah, I’m done doing anything but coalition building with liberals cosplaying leftism. If they didn’t attack me I would have stayed but I feel unsafe there.

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As someone who uses AI occasionally for work as a way to parse reference material, it can be a useful tool. One of the silliest things it makes trivial is fixing mismatched braces. It is a **pattern** finding machine. It has been effectively trained on the patterns humans have engaged with online. It is really stupid that it was trained on everything, and that different tasks are not trained on different data. But we are cursed to dismantle the master’s house using their tools sometimes.

Google has been rendered effectively useless, reddit is a cesspool, stack overflow is a pretentious garbage website for anyone but the most complicated of questions. The internet is rotting away at its core. To some extent, by crawling the internet so wide, LLMs have substituted for some of the functionality these sites used to serve. They can be used to point out what you missed so you can change it (for example I was building an SPFx framework, and it pointed out the config file I needed to change to get the build to show up on my work’s sharepoint), and they can be used to direct to extremely specific pieces of information.

What LLMs are is the ghost of the dead rotting internet.

A substitute for what we really need, humans teaching and passing knowledge to each other. LLMs provide a morsel of a pretend human connection to keep us from realizing how starved we are from their perpetual alienation.

And for the love of god, shut up about the plagiarism argument. That’s a regressive argument that just enables anti ai sentiment to be coopted by corporations to strengthen IP laws. I think image generators are terrible, but the fact that theres a program that can generate mickey mouse with a fat cock is itself a great fuck you.

Let them fight and hope they continue to waste time and energy forever

Why are you using chatgpt to get through college. Why are you spending so much time and money on something just to be functionally illiterate and have zero new skills at the end of it all. Literally shooting yourself in the foot. If you want to waste thirty grand you can always just buy a sportscar.

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And socially! Not everyone is assigned into either a male or female role. My assigned gender was androgynous.

Friendly reminder to all the people using TMA/TME or any other false binary.

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you literally have the most swag gender I have ever seen, never let ANYONE dull your sparkle <3 <3 <3

:0 thanks :3

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Think im gonna uninstall the tumblr app at some point because it is a scam that clicks on ads that are not on screen. Like are honestly it should be reported to the app store as a scam. Gonna just stick to browser.