natashaswifeordaughter

[natashaswifeordaughter]

she told me she won't like me. yeah, that hurts me so much in every possible way every day, but why do i still not want to give up? i don't know at all anymore, i'm just gonna continue loving her until whenever it takes. i won't give up, and i don't know why, either.

[natashaswifeordaughter]

other ones are tagging now her too:< it used to be me only

[natashaswifeordaughter]

"i want a girlfriend who would jump out of the universe to save me from alien stuff." fortunately, i will genuinely do that. if only she knows i think of her whenever there is a cute fitzsimmons scene. but yeah, i guess she'll never really like me, no matter what i do. something i realized is that nothing matters if that person isn't really interested or looking forward to you. but i will be consistent while it lasts. i partly know what's gonna come, idk how to live with that, but okay

[natashaswifeordaughter]

she doesn't say nighty nights anymore, she replies less, her replies got shorter, idk i just miss it when i would wake up at midnight and then she would have pretty much replies and tell me nighty night and stuff. she's probably really focused on math, maybe that's why. and she could be tired when she gets home. yeah probably that idk

[natashaswifeordaughter]

I know she's trying, though. i see it. but is it wrong that i feel unseen whenever she disregards my spam? maybe she doesn't realize it, she reacts to my spam sometimes. but sometimes it would also be like i would send spam, and what would she do? nothing? i know that nothing is wrong for her. but i feel unseen and discarded sometimes. but i know that she doesn't mean to make me feel like this, so i won't say anything. i want to talk to her about it, but i know that instances, it is something for me, but it's all good for her, and i won't bring it up because i don't want her to be mean again and say words that will make me cry. oh god, i love her, i don't know what to do.

[natashaswifeordaughter]

she has replied to someone else's post where she was mentioned, but she hasn't even liked mine:(

[natashaswifeordaughter]

she doesn't say nighty night to me anymore before i sleep, she reacts less too, and now she hasn't replied to my messages, but she has a lot of reblogs. idk if something is wrong?🫤

[natashaswifeordaughter]

OKAY I'M RELIEVED NOW SHE SAID "HIIII"😁😁 I KNEW IT HEHE

i'm not that annoying, right? not all the time, at least. yeah, she's just always like that in the morning, so it's okay. little texts probably don't mean something's wrong with me. yeah, right, i always overthink, and then after a few hours, i will realize that it was actually all okay and nothing was wrong. maybe that's the case. should i still spam? i want to spam, though. i want to, but i will not spam too much for now. maybe she is tired and busy enough not to reply. yeah, okay, that's what i'm gonna do. but i will go back to spamming tomorrow even if it will still be like that. i hope her day goes great.

[natashaswifeordaughter]

i'm not that annoying, right? not all the time, at least. yeah, she's just always like that in the morning, so it's okay. little texts probably don't mean something's wrong with me. yeah, right, i always overthink, and then after a few hours, i will realize that it was actually all okay and nothing was wrong. maybe that's the case. should i still spam? i want to spam, though. i want to, but i will not spam too much for now. maybe she is tired and busy enough not to reply. yeah, okay, that's what i'm gonna do. but i will go back to spamming tomorrow even if it will still be like that. i hope her day goes great.

[natashaswifeordaughter]

let me keep her, please. i don't want anyone else. i hope i don't feel the need to kill myself if this really ends. i don't want to meet and love anyone else anymore. i wish i had enough chance and ability to go to france and be there for her. i want to keep her, please. i love her so much. please, let me have her. i don't care how long it takes for that to happen. i will just wait patiently. please, let her be the one. please.

[natashaswifeordaughter]

i'm just gonna go to nat for comfort again

[natashaswifeordaughter]

the first time i cried again before sleeping:(

[natashaswifeordaughter]

i thought i would be okay. but it turns out that we were just talking before i slept, so i felt okay. and now i woke up feeling heavy.

[natashaswifeordaughter]

"best friend" aw that was bittersweet. i mean, yeah, we are besties. you told me before that you want to be besties first, but will it just be like this forever? is it until besties only? well, i hope and wish not. but i'm patient here, that's okay.

[natashaswifeordaughter]

"i have no gf to do it with" IM LITERALLY FUCKING HERE😭😕😞☹️ JK THAT'S TOO POSSESSIVE BUT LIKE PLEASE DONT LOOK FOR ANYONE ELSE BECAUSE IM HERE😞😞 IM WAITING PLS, PLEASE DONT BE IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE PLEASE DONT HAVE SOMEBODY WAITING ON U☹️

[natashaswifeordaughter]

i just need her to tell me if she needs space, and i will give it to her, but please don't give me silent treatment because it makes me cry:(

[natashaswifeordaughter]

i hope i wake up at midnight with a message from her