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My dumbass really thought life would get better as I grow older

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How do I find a job I enjoy doing?

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Somebody please hug me

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What do I do? I feel like I was just sixteen yesterday and suddenly I'm job hunting and my god I don't know what to do! I lost the energy to even apply now like it's so depressing! Everything is so depressing!

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I need a break

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self care is so damn difficult when you… don’t… care… about your own self

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I regret it

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I feel really stressed. I have two more semesters left which makes this my final year in college. I can't fail now because if I do I'll have to stay back another year and that reality is so terrifying for me because I do not wanna stay in this college any longer than I have to. Till now too I always had the fear of failure. Fear that I will fail even if I study but my parents always told me that it's okay. That even if I fail I can just take the make up exams and I'll be okay. And they still help me, they still say that I will be fine, but God I'm terrified. I don't wanna fail. I don't wanna fail. And I know I have to study and I am studying but it's a never ending sea. I can't focus for more than an hour and everytime I take a break my brain goes into panic mode saying you should be studying and then when I try I can't. It's a struggle. I hope I can survive this like I survived other times.

I hope I'll be okay soon because living in fear of everything all the time is so annoying.

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are you okay

is anyone

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I wish I wasn't a very weak person

I wish I was capable of taking care of the things that I love

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I wanna go home

I wanna go home

I wanna go home

WHY THE HELL CAN'T I MAKE A PROPER CHOICE ON MY OWN

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:(

Not being able to talk to that one person I really want to 

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Yōkai by Mau Lencinas

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I wanna feel okay

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too scared