n4thir

[n4thir]

🌙 * ― 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 𝐒𝐀𝐈𝐃 𝐎𝐍 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐂𝐎𝐑𝐃 ( a collection of unhinged and relatable things said on discord. feel free to change wording as needed! do not add to the list. )

❛  you know bullying is my love language and you’re still here so… ❜ ❛  i mean... who am i to say no to that. ❜ ❛  hey, some might be into that. i won’t judge. much. ❜ ❛  we can both be dumb but pretty. ❜ ❛  because you wanna know why? fictional men can't disappoint me like real life men can. ❜ ❛ i need someone that’d end the world for me.  ❜ ❛ can’t be sad with dick / pussy. or nice tits.  ❜ ❛  thinking of how they're all old in this movie like wow i love dilfs and milfs. ❜ ❛  he fucking is like a ROACH, CAN'T EVER GET RID OF HIM. ❜ ❛  [name] do not encourage their antics, I BEG OF YOU. ❜ ❛  don't bully me, i'll cry. ❜ ❛  [name]..... why are you such a people pleaser. ❜ ❛  i am an indecisive bitch okay. ❜ ❛  don't squish his TUMMY! ❜ ❛  fair enough but what did you do dumb bitch? ❜ ❛ i have a flyswatter, i will smack him.  ❜ ❛  oh god yeah, add that motherfucker as well... the hate list grows. ❜ ❛  he gets no peace in any universe. ❜ ❛  if they get hurt, they get hurt. ❜ ❛  no love… there is no love in this house. ❜ ❛  truly, the braincells are not in my head. ❜ ❛ i wanna grab his waist. ❜ ❛  they just… need to fuck the anger out. ❜ ❛  could be worse but i'm judging. ❜ ❛ yes, oil me up baby.  ❜ ❛  don't you shush me. ❜ ❛  how dare you make me NOT distracted. ❜ ❛  i'm sure you've seen each other naked before, this is nothing new. ❜ ❛  suffer. ❜ ❛  i ... fucking THIEF. ❜ ❛  old men are just superior. ❜ ❛  sometimes people just deserve to be stabbed. ❜ ❛  bisexuals don't sit normally. ❜ ❛  i never said i was smart. ❜ ❛  what am i to say about this? want me to kiss your booboos better? ❜ ❛  JOKES ON YOU, I ACTUALLY DO, AHAHAHAHA. ❜ ❛  we both know you have a mask kink. ❜ ❛  kick him six feet under. ❜ ❛  to be fair i only killed those at the gate. ❜ ❛  well sooooorry, can't all be goody-two-shoes like [name]. ❜ ❛  i'm gonna murder you. ❜ ❛  it's because you're OLD. ❜ ❛  we're just ... too nice for our own good. ❜ ❛  and then you got sweaty [name] out here going batshit crazy and killing a whole building of people. ❜ ❛  we are in fact too dumb and yet here we are. ❜ ❛  actually i'm a liar, i'd let a lot of men get it. ❜ ❛  oOP NOT ME SEEING ANOTHER VIDEO/PICTURE AND I THINK HE'S FINGERING HER. ❜ ❛  he's adorable when he isn't being a gremlin and trying to randomly bite me. ❜ ❛  it’s in my contract of existing to bully everyone. ❜ ❛  well clearly you enjoy it since you’re still here. ❜ ❛  feeling a little called out? ❜ ❛  anything can be a dildo if you're brave enough. ❜

[n4thir]

hello friends i hope you're all well! i've been busy with work and trying to finally get my driving licence but hopefully i'll be back soon 😩

[n4thir]

↪     ����𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐎𝐍𝐄 , 𝑰'𝑴 𝑨 𝑭𝑬𝑾 - ᶰᵒ ᶠᵃᵐᶤˡʸ ˒ ᵗᵒᵒ . 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑎𝑚 𝑖 ?    (  a  series  of  sentence  starters  from  season  1  of  “ orphan black �� .   adjust  phrasing  as  necessary . will be updated !  )

i wanna see [ name ] .

well , that's not fair , is it ?!

oh my god , you look like crap .

i didn't miss your birthday , did i ?

something really weird just happened at the train station .

what the hell is wrong with you ?

listen to me , [ name ] , i'm only gonna ask you this once .

oh , i'm fine by the way , thank you .

get in the car .

when you don't give a damn , i get pissed .

you'd better be ready . are you ready ?

you're sure as hell overdressed . what , were you out all night or something ?

this shit is as hard as it gets . but you've gotta stop making it worse .

i panicked , what do you want me to say ?

i'm kidding . where's your wit gone ?

you don't have to babysit me , dipshit .

i know this thing's got you all twisted up , but try to forgive yourself .

[ name ] , open the goddamn door !

yeah , the last thing i am is special .

[ name ] , where have you been ?

where have i been ? uh .. long story .

oh , jesus , are you alright ?

you have a few words , [ name ] ? anything you want to express ?

plead your mercy & your pity .

love is imperfection itself .

say it . go ahead , say it's my fault .

who the hell are you ?

of course not . you think we'd let that happen ?

i'm at home , you've got it all wrong .

you know what ? don't . i'm going to ignore that .

i'm worried you're losing the plot again .

sorry , i've got ... i've got a lot of work to do .

i mean , what am i supposed to do ?

you don't have to take this on .

i can't keep waking up every night , checking your breathing , worried you're mixing your meds , booze ... god knows what else .

i knew it was too good to be true .

why would you help such a stupid plan ?

i'm not going to play [ name ] in the middle .

i'm not dirty , i just freaked out .

if there is another version of this story ...

walk me through it again . so i know you won't crack under questioning .

you're making me nervous .

finally ! where have you been ?

who am i speaking to ?

how did you find me ?

idiot . do you even know who you're talking to ?

i don't care who you are .

nope , that is not my responsibility .

go , & wait for a call .

what i'm trying to do is move on .

we have known each other for awhile now , [ name ] .

i nailed it , man . every detail .

come on , [ name ] , give me a little love here !

you know , my skin just breaks out every time i leave downtown .

whoa , hey , [ name ] - you always do this to me !

i don't do backup , i don't even know what backup is !

i got stuck , i was running from my own shit .

i'm not giving you shit 'til you give me some answers .

don't ! do not shoot me , please !

seriously , it's life or death .

am i going insane ?

[n4thir]

 𝗚𝗥𝗔𝗧𝗨𝗧𝗜𝗢𝗨𝗦𝗟𝗬  𝗗𝗘𝗧𝗔𝗜𝗟𝗘𝗗  𝗗𝗜𝗦𝗟𝗜𝗞𝗘𝗦

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝗻𝗶𝗰𝗸𝗻𝗮𝗺𝗲: she doesn't have many so it's never occurred. ( please give her one )

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝘀𝗲𝗮𝘀𝗼𝗻: that part between autumn and winter when it rains all the time.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  —  𝗵𝗼𝘁  𝗼𝗿  𝗰𝗼𝗹𝗱: she doesn't do well with cold, and sure you can wear more clothes to warm yourself, but since deirdre's found herself in instances where she had to sleep wherever, it's just not something she likes.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝗵𝗼𝗹𝗶𝗱𝗮𝘆: probably her birthday. seems a bit obvious perhaps, but considering she was assigned a random day and thinks her parents didn't want her... yeah she doesn't want to deal with that.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝗳𝗼𝗼𝗱: she's not picky, but i guess anything that's too raw.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝗳𝗹𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿: ashes.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝗱𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗸: again she's not picky, perhaps bottled orange juice if it existed in her time.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝘀𝗰𝗲𝗻𝘁: blood & smoke.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝘀𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗱: heavy stomping of feet.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝘁𝘃  𝘀𝗵𝗼𝘄: tv doesn't exist in her time but i guess it would be any random teen drama.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗮  𝗼𝗳  𝘀𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗼𝗹: cafeteria. too loud, too crowded.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝗮𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗰𝘁  𝗼𝗳  𝗵𝗲𝗿  𝗷𝗼𝗯: having to chase people around otherwise she can't claim their bounties.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗶𝘁  𝗶𝗻  𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝘀: dishonesty.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝗽𝗹𝗮𝗰𝗲: anywhere that's not home.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴  𝘁𝗼  𝘁𝗮𝗹𝗸  𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁: her family, both biological and of choice.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴  𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁  𝗵𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳: ironically her eyes, she thinks it's too much of a cold color.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝗱𝗮𝗶𝗹𝘆  𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗿𝗲: sweeping / mopping, which ironically was doing a lot of both with the loria priestesses and on the vanguard.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝘁��𝗽𝗲  𝗼𝗳  𝗰𝗹𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴: tight pants probably.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴  𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗻𝗴  𝗶𝗻  𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲: the mortifying ordeal of being known so intimately by the other person.

𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁  𝗳𝗮𝘃𝗼𝗿𝗶𝘁𝗲  𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴  𝗮𝗯𝗼𝘂𝘁  𝗱𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗵: parting from her loved ones.

tagged by : @prosopagn0sis, thank you! <3 tagging : *points at you!*

[n4thir]

@redpi11 // Anaïs Nin // @kfkx // Jennifer Willoughby, "The Sun is Still a Part of Me" // Jorge Luis Borges, "A New Refutation of Time" // Euripides, Medea (trans. Oliver Taplin) // Jenny Slate, Little Weirds // Keaton St. James, "September Affirmation (Don't Be Afraid)" // @kfkx // Czeslaw Milosz, "Late Ripeness" (trans. Robert Haas)

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the way i worked eight hours and missed the train home so now if everything goes well by 8pm i finally get to eat ,, i'm not cut for this capitalist life 😭

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deirdre loves stargazing and has a slight attitude for astronomy. it mostly comes from sleepless nights on the vanguard and reading hela's books about traveling and constellations, and as a child she would even make up stories about people living on polaris / the north star.

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↪     𝑺𝑬𝑻𝑻𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑷𝑹𝑶𝑴𝑷𝑻𝑺 , updated .     (  a  collection  of  various  settings  meant  to  inspire  drabbles  or  be  used  as  prompts .   )

001.   the seaside ,  as the sun is setting .

002.   a cabin in the middle of the woods .

003.   a picket-fenced home in the suburbs .

004.   a dark bus stop lit only by street lights .

005.   a private jet miles high in the sky .

006.   a funhouse’s room of mirrors .

007.   an office building ,  bustling and busy .

008.   the back row of an empty movie theater .

009.   a run - down motel room .

010.   a loud house party on a suburban street .

011.   a university lecture hall during a class .

012.   the rooftop of a very tall building .

013.   a great ballroom during an elegant party .

014.   the back of a wailing ambulance .

015.   the wine cellar of a large mansion .

016.   behind the school’s gymnasium .

017.   a boisterous bonfire at the lakeside .

018.   an otherwise empty parking lot .

019.   the shady bar of a noisy , dark club .

020.  the grounds of an empty summer camp .

021.   a large hedge maze ,  easy to get lost in .

022.   a neglected or derelict treehouse .

023.   a spacious ,  light-filled meadow .

024.   an underground illegal fighting club .

025.   an abandoned scrapyard .

026.   a large penthouse overlooking the city .

027.    an apple orchard in the middle of spring .

028.   an empty playground with squeaky swings .

029.   an extravagant greenhouse .

030.   the base of a large waterfall .

031.    a spacious walk - in closet full of lovely clothes .

032.   a solemnly quiet hospital room .

033.   the dark depths of an abandoned mine .

034.   the deck of a fishing boat at night .

035.   the thick crowd of an audience at a show .

036.   a long ,  winding road .

037.   the scene of a violent crime .

038.   a fork in a hiking trail deep in the wilderness .

039.   a cramped dressing room .

040.   a dusty antiques shop full of relics .

041.   the street of an unfamiliar city at night .

042.   between the tall shelves of a thrifted book shop .

043.   a building abandoned during construction .

044.   a house without power or running water .

045.   a mysterious trail found in the woods .

046.   the back of a taxi stuck in traffic .

047.    the inside of an elevator that won’t move .

048.   fairgrounds during a large event  (or after hours) .

049.   a garden bountiful with flowers or produce .

050.   a childhood home or bedroom .

+   30  more  setting  prompts :    1 / 3 / 2024

051. the site of a horrible accident .

052. a closed pool , after everyone has left .

053. a home holding horrific memories .

054. by the side of a dangerously quick river .

055. a private hotel room .

056. a police station in the middle of the night .

057. a ferris wheel carriage under a sky of fireworks .

058. a lavish , invite - only party .

059. a public transit stop as rain is pouring down .

060. the back of a taxi going in the wrong direction .

061. the underworld .

062. a dusty , forgotten attic .

063. on the set of a television show or movie .

064. a lighthouse overlooking the raging sea .

065. in a post - apocalyptic bunker .

066. on a ship hundreds of miles from the nearest coast .

067. on the rooftop of a perilously tall building .

068. a tent pitched in the middle of the woods .

069. a crowded stadium during a football game .

070. the morgue during an identification .

071. an otherwise empty library during a late study session .

072. a place that feels familiar , yet you've never been here before .

073. a long hallway that seems to stretch on forever .

074. a signpost at the start of a hiking trail .

075. a bar or tavern bustling with life .

076. the dance floor of a masquerade ball .

077. inside of a car parked in a secluded area .

078. at the edge of a cliff overlooking a large lake .

079. inside a very old house with very old haunts .

080. the antiseptic interior of a space station .

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Shelter dogs are still just dogs. You are still a dog. You still love.

— quote from a piece my boyfriend rewrote.

i'll add credits asap! (i say, about every recent web weave i post)

[n4thir]

may i tempt you with a little starter call? length will vary, and i might come in your ims to plot a general line of where we're going too!

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childhood friends plots WHEN

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thinking specifically about deirdre's days spent outside in the temple's gardens, warm sunlight and grass beneath her feet - the high priestess would get annoyed about the laughs because they disturbed the "divine silence", yet zalah never demanded for quiet and would encourage her to explore and learn about the gifts that the gods left behind.

[n4thir]

parallels in my poetry and embroidery

[n4thir]

may i tempt you with a little starter call? length will vary, and i might come in your ims to plot a general line of where we're going too!

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while the vanguard has ceased to exist for almost a decade ( at least by the time her main verse happens ) deirdre has never stopped feeling affiliated to them in some way and same thing goes for the priestesses of loria. these little families she had at different times of her life were both pivotal in the making of the person she is now, and though almost all of them are gone deirdre still tries to honors their lives and wishes by remaining the sole keeper of the relic and living by hela's moral code.

[n4thir]

@roach-works // Melissa Broder, "Problem Area" // Mary Oliver, "The Return" // @annavonsyfert // Koyoharu Gotouge, Demon Slayer // Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance // David Levithan, How They Met and Other Stories // Tennessee Williams, Notebooks

[n4thir]

not even a couple hours since her feet have touched ground, rumours run faster than the bounty hunter would have ever expected. a few words here, a few questions there - her presence is now made known to the ones in command. the only certainty right now is that she's got nothing to hide, hence why despite alert senses a polite expression is colouring features.

@finalslay ft. cullen : i know that look, eyes always seeking.

gaze drops on cue, never allowing anyone to see too much of her. especially when it comes to the reason why she just can't stop seeking. "i'm afraid it comes with the job." it's intended to be an half joke, but there's no denying that finding people requires a little bit of sticking her neck out to get information.

"just one question and i'll be out of your way." throat clears as hand reaches in the pocket of her vest, rushed sketches of her mentor and brother on each side of folded sheet. "do you happen to know these two people? i've been told they were seen here a couple months ago."