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Rock N' Roll Wedding Reception today 🎸

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Ngl.... I killed it with my makeup this week 💋

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It's exhausting

Constantly caring for everyone. Always having to be "on".

I need a break.

But here I am,

With a smile on my face.

Can't let it settle and fade until I'm the only one

left in the room.

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Me: *hasn't been able to eat much over the last 3 months due to chronic illnesses*

Last week-

Mom: you've lost weight

Me: I feel bloated and ginormous and you're definitely wrong.

Mom: you're ridiculous 🙄

Today-

Infusion Nurse: So how are you feeling? You've dropped like 24lb in like 2 months..

Me: Girl, where???? 😂

Nurse: *gestures to me actively trying to get my pants to stay up*

Me: Huh... weird 🤷🏼‍♀️

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Chronically chill 😎 or something like that

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Sorry I only fuck dorks and goofs

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🍁 ​✨ an *almost* fall look ✨ 🍁

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1st of MANY weddings I'll be attending over the next two years 😅 (including my own 😉 )

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Exhausted but this light is hitting just right so 🤷🏼‍♀️

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Sending love to everyone who has health issues or chronic pain in parts of your body that aren’t usually socially acceptable to talk about. It’s frustrating to feel like you can never explain your pain to someone because it’s TMI and to feel like you have to hide it. Your pain is nothing to be ashamed of. I see you, and I’m sending you support and strength.

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Me: *driving home from running errands with significant other* I'm not doing the best mentally today because of my chronic illness stuff.

SO: *proceeds to make a 'joke' about my chronic illnesses taking over while driving and me killing us both*

Me: *gets upset because they do this constantly and I tell them not too*

SO: *gets made because they're "a realist" and apparently I'm not living in reality when I tell them not to say that. *

Like this is fucked up right? I hate being made to feel like I'm in the wrong for being upset. It's like I can't talk about my health issues without them going off the rails about worst case scenarios that are like a <1% chance of happening to me and how upset it makes them. Like it isn't about what I'm dealing with but how my shit affects them. I'm really fucking mad. All while I'm doing wedding planning. It makes me wanna lash out and say fuck the wedding because according to you i probably won't live long enough to even have our wedding.

Why do I fucking bother.

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Infusion nurse gave me pink gauze today 💗

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You're free falling and burned. You're scrambling mid air, blaming the sun. Was it really that bright? Basking in a false glow and getting too comfortable. Was it worth it?

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🩵😴