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Tell Me How

I said I loved you And I fucking meant it. I breathed in every lie you ever spoke, Taking it like sulfur In the back of my throat. I let my heart beat so furiously For a love that was not reciporcated. I still have the scars Criss-crossed on my skin, From where you singed it with your lips. I fucking screamed my love to you, With every touch of my fingertips. How could you not know? I gave every piece of myself, Until I was nothing more than a voice, Faint and pleading for you to give me yourself. How could you not see, The way might eyes lit Every time you whispered to me. How could you take everything, And expect me to function? How could you burn me so badly, And expect me to come out unscathed? Tell me how.

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I'm sorry I'm not posting much. I'm struggling with a lot of anxiety and depression, mostly being triggered by lack of sleep and stress due to my job. So I haven't been up for much writing. Truly, I'm sorry, and hopefully I get back to it. Thanks.

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I didn't tell you that I loved you, until after you were gone. The regret that came with my silent words, Were far more devasting than your quiet exit. Because once I was able to choke out these poisonous syllables, They were meaningless. No antidote could fix their damage. Your word, however, only stoked the destructive fire. 'Oh.' That's it? That's all you could say? You laid in my bed, day after day. You consumed my whole world, my whole mind, And all you could sputter out was, 'Oh.' I looked deeply into your brown eyes, And begged the question, 'Why?' Why, after a year, could you not tell me the same? After lying together every night, Whispering how we missed each other, each time you had to leave. Just fucking why? 'How?' How could you leave like you did? How could you destroy me like this? How could it be so easy for you, to watch me fall apart without you? Without an explanation? How could you be so silent, watching my soul slowly die? My regret lingers, with a simmering anger about the edges. Would it have made a difference, If I told you I loved you, Before your escape? Would it have changed a thing, If I said it with my head on your chest? Or would I still hear your single word, 'Oh,' Ringing in my ears?

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Let me tell you how much you destroyed me. How you set my soul on fire, And left it as ash. Should I have seen the end coming? Yes, But like any flame, you enjoy the warmth and thrill. The consequences escape your mind, And you just watch everything become engulfed. This ash cannot be reconstructed, It is merely nothing anymore. My soul is non-existant, But I still search. Hoping that like the phoenix, A new one will emerge from the dust.

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There's a moment, Where things make sense. Even if it's just milliseconds, There's peace that comes with it. You won't recognize it then, Maybe not even a year from now, But you'll see, Everything fell together in that single moment.

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I fucking love these two, haha

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Morgan Freeman Narrates Himself Playing Pokémon Go

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This started out with weirder colors underneath. Halfway through I got frustrated and started painting in blues. It's not fantastic by any means, but it's one of the best pieces I've ever done.

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I wonder if I ever truly loved you. Or if I was just lonely, Searching for my soul in somebody else. Maybe I did, Maybe everything I said to you was real, But maybe ours was a temporary love, Meant to be engulfed in flames.

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Am I yours? Are you mine? Do you want me? Do you merely want to own me? Tell me, Tell me you need me. Burn my lips with your kiss. Bruise my skin with your grasp. I’m yours, All yours. Destroy me if you want, Let my fire consume you, And we’ll end up in ashes together.

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this is so relaxing

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Nearly finished. Had to stop before my hands fell off.

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And again.

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Because I usually only post my random poetry, lemme show you what I started today.

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let her be everything because she is everything

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Bitter, Are your lips, Coffee and cigarettes linger on your tongue. Hints of rosemary and mint scent your ebony hair. Your eyes, Deep and dark, Full of life and what I hoped to be was love. Each time we touched, It was like a fire, Burning just underneath our skin I’ve memorized each tattoo on your chest, The way each one curved, The way they felt underneath my fingertips.

It’s like a ghost, These memories. Hiding around corners, Coming into view when least expected. Haunting every aspect of my life. I’m beginning to wonder how to exorcise you, How to destroy these things that hold me. Or is this something that will be the end of me?

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Bruh. For real!