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Dreaming of Markiplier

Like he had a panel at the college auditorium and Bob was there and it was so cool!!! My friend was absent though so she texted me back and told me questions to ask and to raise my suspicions just incase he wasnt beibg honest bc we know his real answers...like not that hes lying just goofing it off. So then i took a picture of him. After the panel ended, i ran down and asked if someone could take a pic of us together and then i asked if i could be his friend on FB and o told him i didnt mean the fanpage...he looked like he was really contemplating on the question and he said sure so I could really add him and then he gave me a card with his email, his home phone and his cell phone!!! We became such good friends and then we became a secret couple ourselves. He had more panels there for the rest of the week so i went and pretended to be a regular fan and thats it

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2 Shy People

How are two shy people supposed to tell each other that they like each other? I don't know what to say. We went out on a date. It's not date if he brought his two younger sisters with us, is it? But he payed for me. The movie we watched had a little bit of romance in it, but I don't know. I like him, but I also feel content being single. I don't know what it is, but when I suddenly get in a relationship with someone, it gets boring. So how does one spice up their love life? I don't know. What I do know is that I do like this guy, I can tell you that. But does he like me too is the question?

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Let's MAKE UP❤

Make-up is a wonderful thing to have. It's a creative understanding of expressing ones' true self. Make-up is used in all kinds of places on all kinds of people. From a suttle and nude kind of look to a more dramatic experience, make-up represents not what, but who we are. It's not just for women, it can be used for guys too. Whether they're on set behind a camera or if they just like pretty things, who are we to tell them that they can't? In this day and age, it is very normal for guys wanting to be a bit more natural with themselves and if they want to, it's their choice. It's their lifestyle and we shouldn't have anything to say about that. Although, haters will always hate and take it out on someone who has the potential of being weak. It's alright though and it may hurt at the beginning, but just remember that you're that person they always wanted to be or you're doing what they've always wanted to do, but can't because they don't have enough courage. So grab those brushes and those palettes and create a masterpiece. Whether you're girl or guy, it doesn't matter. Also, never judge a book by it's cover. One day, you could pass a girl on the street with dramatic eyes and beautiful, bold, colorful eyeshadow. Don't just assume that the person could be a stripper or could be emo if they're really dark around the eyes. Maybe they like that color and maybe that's how they want to wear it. Bold is beautiful. Make-up is a luxury that everyone should adapt to and live their life out to the fullest.

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Never Forgotten

My first love. The boy I thought who loved me. I haven't forgot about him. Back then when we broke up and we went to being friends, he was all I ever thought about even if I beat myself up just to help him make it through other relationships. I really did love him..then today...I just realized his mom is a follower on my Twitter...since September 13, 2012. I didn't realize it was his mom back then because Twitter hasn't really been a thing to me, but now it's like I still have a connection to him and I feel the slightest bit of happiness just from that. I'm ecstatic. Should I message her? Should I not? I don't know what to do, but I do feel like one way or another, we are fated to cross paths just one more time. There's a woman with the same name as her on Facebook and she lives in Candler. I'm thinking they moved. Have they? I don't know. He's old enough to work. I only hope he gets a job where I work if that's the case. Haha.

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I Want New Friends

I want new friends. I want new friends of the same interest that I have. I wanna be able to talk about mangas and animes and video games and youtube and music...anything other than relationships. I don't wanna talk about guys and dating all the time. Relationships are cute and sweet, don't get me wrong, but that's not the ONLY thing friends can communicate to each other with. I want to meet other people who I can get along with and I just wanna talk to people and get to know more about things, like what's the newest anime to look forward to? Lol I'm an otaku, so sue me. I'm serious though, if you wanna be my friend, message me because if you like the things I've listed and you feel this need to and know what I'm talking about, I'll be sure to listen. :):)

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My Friend and Her Idea...

My friend must be crazy if she thinks she can pull off a wedding with a guy she says she "loves" and she hasn't even met him yet and they just starting dating May 12. Like seriously, you're setting yourself up to get heartbroken. When that guy falls for her completely and smothers her with affection and love, she's gonna dump his ass, you know how I know? Because I've been there. I've been through her complaints giving her advice on what to do...which wastes my time because she turns around and don't listen to me anyway, so what's the point? Whatever. I don't care anymore.

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The Truth? You Can't Handle It

So the truth is that (J) does like (T)...does he like her now? Maybe so. Is he trying to deny and hide it from me? Yes indeed. I'm the type of girl that knows and has certain intuitions that comes true so if he think he can fool me, he has another thing coming. I have a plan. It may be devious and ridiculous, but no one messes with me and gets away with it. This isn't just for me, it's for all the girls who's been taken lightly. Just watch me. He's not getting far.

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I Don't Know How to Make Him Open Up...

I don't know how to make him open up to me. When there's issues at home and when he's down, he'll never go to me to lay down his thoughts or anything, he'll bottle it all up on his own self and that makes me sad. I know we just started dating basically a week ago, but I want him to be able to rely and lean on me and it makes me sad when he doesn't because I feel like I'm not important enough or he goes to (T). Like wtf? I'm your girlfriend, not her. Whatever. I'll just hangout with my guy friends and tell you about it, it's not like it'll make a difference anyway. I'm sad, irritated, and frustrated. I just want him to depend on me a bit more.

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Blind Dates and Mixed Up Emotions

So (B) and I didn't really workout as much as I had liked it to. My friend (T) actually set me up with her boyfriend's best friend (J) because he was looking for someone and (T) doesn't know about (B), but she gave (J) my number and she texted me first from his phone because he's actually really shy. I literally thought he was the perfect match when I got to know him that night. We both LOVE anime and manga. We both like to dance...we both take things slow like not saying 'I love you' even though it's killing me because I wanna say it, but when I feel the need to, I feel the need to cry because I'm jealous and I get clingy and I just feel not as confident when I see or hear him saying he was with (T). Okay, you're friends, she's dating your best friend so you go everywhere with them, but you don't see me texting (H) and hanging out with (H). I literally feel like (H) was more interested about me and (J) was more interested in (T). Even though I got my first kiss from him the other day and I do feel happy talking to him, I feel neglected and hurt.

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PERFECT DAY EVER 5/6/14

Today has been so wonderful and such the perfect day ever. It was so exciting and so extravagant! 😎 It all started with going to college and finishing up a final for Math and then as I was walking towards the Library, I checked my email on my phone and it was soooo cute. (B) emailed me with the subject literally saying "Where I'm At" and I started laughing because I thought it was cute and I liked it. Then in the library when I met up with (B), he told me to hold still and I was like "Well why?" and he told me there was a bug in my hair. For those of you that don't know and you probably don't since no one really knows me in person, I have a MAJOR bug phobia and I will freeze and panic. Like I should probably marry an exterminator. 😵 But he didn't wanna just grab it because he was scared he would pull out my hair or whatever and I was like leaning in closer saying "please just get it! I don't care, just please" and he knocked it down with my pencil and it went to the lower part of my hair and then he just flicked it off and stomped it on the floor. Then, he had an appointment at 2 with our teacher and it was 1:57 and he was helping me with my online quiz (no it's not cheating!!! 😇😇😇) and I guess he wanted me to walk with him or rather him walk with me because I kept telling him he was gonna be late and he kept saying he wasn't so I don't know lol So then later after he had his appointment, there was this bug and he wanted to swat it down and I literally said "You should just be an exterminator and we can get married without any commitment and you can kill all the bugs around our house" and he was like "oh an extermination free of charge is what you're saying. Well then if I get hurt, you have to resuscitate me free of charge" and i said "I will surely" and we both laughed, but I imagined it would be soooo great if we got married. i would be so happy! 😄😄😄😄💖💖💖💖💖 I love him so much! But yea. Thursday is our last day to see each other and I'm so sad and he was like, there's still email maybe. Maybe? How bout surely? I'm gonna send him a thousand emails if I can! Woooo! Lol I'm still in love 💗

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Recurring Dreams

So I cannot stress how many times I have had so many recurring dreams about the same thing and the same person. I have not thought about this person in so long until now and I don't know why. Is this person thinking about me, does he know I still exist and why is he coming back into play now? I haven't had any special feelings for him in a long time, so why now? I feel frustrated and confused and sad and depressed because now I'm thinking that I probably don't like (B) and it's just an escape route from who I've probably always loved and cared about, but I do like (B) enough to know that I still want to see him so much, it's crazy. I also don't wanna say I don't like (B) anymore because I know my friend (S) secretly likes him and I kind of don't wanna give him up to her. It's like the same storyline as last time. I don't know what to do.

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So Cute ^3^

So this is an update on what went down between (B) and I from last time. (B) likes to play games. When I say games, I mean strategic games such as Tic-Tac-Toe, Connect Four, and Chess. He shows a lot of his goofy side and sometimes I wonder if it's all because of me. He keeps teasing me in little cute ways. He finally knows how to spell my first name. One of the recent things I remember that happened yesterday was he went ahead of me and my friend because he was done and he was in a hurry and I was in a hurry too and I thought he didn't wait, but he saw me walking to the stairs at the last minute and held the door open for me til I passed through. He always holds the door open for me and maybe if you, who's reading this, thinks oh that's just kindness. Well he doesn't hold open doors for anyone else basically. It's just me and he'll wait there til I show up. He's sweet and nice, but shy. He's very introverted and keeps to himself, but I love him and I wanna keep seeing him.

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Going Smoothly

So today went smoothly. He responded to email, said he was gonna be late, got to school @11. Met up in the library, went to the writing center to finish storyboarding our essays. Also he just came back from the eye doctor, so at the end of our session his head was hurting and he tried to put on the fake sunglasses you get when you go to the eye doctor. So (B) had a headache and he was stumbling up the stairs. I thought it was cute lol he was also trying to hold it since it never stays on long without support and he was also trying to hold open the door for me like usual. I went through and looked back and he was about to run into the door and I was like maybe I should be the one to hold the door open for you this time and he was like yeaaaaa. And then what really made me awwwwh was when he called his mom and he talked to her in his native European tongue and I am attracted now and again. If I wasn't before I am now. Ohhhh my gosh, his way of speaking just melts my heart and I love it. He still keeps to himself though, but its like he's opening up to me little by little and I like it when he smiles and laughs because he's always so serious. Why so serious dude? Gosh lol but I love him and he doesn't even know it yet.

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Emails

I really wish emails could have that thing like on facebook messenger where it let's you know if your recipient saw it or not. That would save me a lot of trouble rather than looking back and forth on my email to see if he's replied or not. (B) said he would try to be there before my 1:00 class but if he's not, he basically said maybe spring break would be a good option I guess for us to meet in the library to work on our essays together. I just wanna be able to see him and make more plans with him. We knew each other since middle school, but we were always in opposite crowds and hanged with different people so we never had our eyes meet. Now that I know what he's like, I feel like our time is limited and there's hardly much I can do once the semester ends. I can try to be email buds with him over summer, but idk if that'll happen consistently. Right now, I'm anxious, but patiently waiting on his next response and I hope he does get there in time.

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Middle Names, Dates, and More

So today all started with me going to the library this morning. I had also planned to confess today and tell him how I really feel, but my confidence dropped when I saw he wasn't there early as I was in the library. So I waited near my math classroom which was also (B)'s classroom before my period with a different teacher. I saw him and he saw me. We nodded our heads "sup" then he came back out of the classroom and we talked about our English class until he went back to class. Then I met him outside his class as he was packing up and he noticed me and kind of smiled and nodded again and we talked and talked and talked til my class started. Afterwards as usual, I meet him in the Library with the rest of our group. He often helps me with our English work. Then as were making our way out of the Library, he asked me on a date....okay a little exaggeration there, but he asked if I was free tomorrow and I automatically said yes. He told me I should go to the writing center for help and what not, I asked him if he was gonna be there and he said maybe, but we also agreed to meet at 10ish and we gave each other our email addresses and so I hope he emails me lol I probably will email him as well. Also, we talking about names and he thought my name ended with an "I" instead of a "Y". I also told him my middle name and how my mom didn't know it was a greek goddess and how she just knew "Athens" and found it in the baby book and he said "you're lucky you have a cute ass middle name though" and I was like "Awwwh" lol and in class we talked about tomorrow as well and such and omg I can't wait!

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I NEED ADVICE QUICK!!!

So what does it mean if the guy you like always waits to walk beside you and opens the door for you? For example I'll be the last one behind and (B) would wait for me to catch up and we'd be arm and arm next to each other (not holding arms). Also if we come across a door, my 2 friends would go first and then he'd go but he'd wait and hold the door open for me. Aaaaawwwwwh lol Am I just blowing it out of proportion or....? Also this one chick (K) would flirt with him and he hasn't noticed but I have and she told him to wait and save her a seat outside cause that's where we were having class and he didn't...he waited for me and walked with me...TAKE THAT!!! LOL I like him and I just don't know what to do and we sometimes finish each others sentences and and and ...HELP???

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An Old Flame

There was always this guy I had always linked myself with up until 2 years ago. Now it seems we've drifted apart and all I can think about are these memories that were left behind. I miss him. Guy S. Lol I still remember that he called on my birthday last year like the last 30 minutes of night left, I wanted to do the same on his birthday, but I got shy since we haven't talked in forever, and I wasn't really so sure of his number anymore. He was one of my best guy friends that I could always turn to, but now I can't. I miss him a lot. Lol