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[myheartwantstowrite]

A bad night

In all of Sonic’s years living on Earth, he never expected to get close to humans by a rant on his favorite baseball field. However, after a crazy adventure with that Dr. Eggman (as he likes to call him), he found a house on his favorite humans of all time: Donut Lord and Pretzel Lady.

And so there he was, on the Wachowski’s attic with a race car bed and a mental breakdown at 3 am.

He was just 15 so no one could blame him for feeling so confused, but damn- he never had this kind of stuff when he was alone. Sure, he felt like he wanted a real friend for once instead of a turtle, but now that he wasn’t lonely, well… he felt like he didn’t deserve anything that his new life has given him.

Even if he just had saved the world.

But it’s also his fault the world was in danger in the first place.

Ugh, stupid teenager thoughts…

He changed his position a thousand times, but he wasn’t able to sleep in any way. A lot of thoughts and images were going on his brain, none of them making sense at all. Was he a creep for stalking people for over ten years? Did he just waste his whole life watching random people in town instead of making a move? Could things have been smoother if he just introduced himself first? Was he a jerk for demanding help to Donut Lord?

…

Was he just a burden? Maybe Tom and Maddie just took him in as a sign of pity. Maybe they didn’t mean it when they said they wanted him there. Maybe all those times they have shared around the house don’t mean anything at all to them…

Maybe he just should go.

…

He suddenly felt tears threatening to come out of his eyes, and his body was shaking with more intensity than what he could control on his own. Was it fear?

Probably.

“Oh no oh no oh no oh no” He whispered while panicking, trying his best to keep composture. Tom and Maddie didn’t need this right now- he was old enough to take care of this. He isn’t a crybaby! Why would he randomly cry on the house he always wanted to be a part in and now he is but he doesn’t feel like he deserves it at all?

…

“Ah fuck” His words trembled, repeating a curse he knows so well thanks to the movie Speed, his personal favorite. He wished he could just be stuck as a cool character saying swear words and driving nice cars, but unfortunately, he has feelings. Fucked up, teenager feelings, and tears finally rolling down his cheeks.

He hugged himself and started to hush as a desperate move to calm down, but it definitely wasn’t working. He has always been his only source of comfort until now, why couldn’t he do that anymore?

“Okay, Sonic, calm down” He started to mutter while sobbing, but it was just getting worse. He was trying so hard to keep his shit together, yet he seemed to fail more each time he tried. He hasn’t talked about his feelings to anyone, and he kind of wanted Tom or Maddie to show up and ask him how he was and talk to him and hug him and-

Without noticing, he started to sob louder every second. He tried to keep it down, don’t get him wrong, but he just couldn’t. He needed someone right now…

And so someone arrived.

“Sonic?” Maddie showed up at his door, her voice clearly stating that she was asleep a minute ago. “Are you alright?”

“I, y-yeah!” He quickly cleaned his tears, although new ones continued to show up. “I’m absolutely fine! D-don’t worry about me!”

“…Sonic” She looked straight at him, obviously not believing a word he said.

“D-don’t worry! I’m d-definitely pouring some t-tears now but is just that! N-nothing to worry about, haha!”

“…”

She went ahead and sat next to him, her eyes showing nothing but concern. Sonic tried his best to not look at her at all and just pray for the night to be over…

It didn’t work.

Once his eyes met hers, his tears were practically unstoppable. It didn’t make any sense that he was crying so hard, yet he was.

“Do you want to talk about it?”

“I… I-”

“It’s okay if you don’t want to, and it’s also okay to cry”

“…is… is it really okay to cry?”

Maddie looked at him amazed, but it quickly came to her mind he’d been alone for years. He had no parental figure to guide him, nor anyone to talk to about his feelings. He had to learn things himself and keep his mouth shut to the rest of the world.

It had been definitely hard for him.

“It is okay to cry” She gently touched his arm, which made him flinch a little. “We can’t be strong all the time, you know? Tom also cries, and I do, too. I understand you may be feeling overwhelmed about all these changes”

“I-is that so?” He weakly smiled and cleaned his face as well as he could. “T-then this isn’t that m-much of an issue, right?! I s-should be good in a matter of seconds!”

“…Sonic-”

“Y-yeah! I will be good just as long as I, oof, h-have some time to go back to my  little old self!”

“Sonic, dear-”

“I, I just need some good night's sleep! Yeah, that’s definitely what I need, haha…! This will be alright and totally forgotten in the morning!”

“…are you sure you will be fine?”

“Y-yeah! Just been having stu- silly thoughts, that’s all!”

“…” Maddie let out a short sigh, before offering a small smile to Sonic. “If you need anything, don’t hesitate in calling us. I know you don’t want to talk about it right now, but whenever you feel like it… please don’t keep it to yourself, ok dear?”

“…y-yeah. I… I will call you if I need anything… thanks”

“Don’t worry” Her smile widened. “Now try to sleep, okay? If you continue having problems to do so, you can sleep with us if you want to”

“O-of course, t-thanks”

Maddie sighed, her eyes not breaking contact with the blue hedgehog’s until she decides it’s time to finally leave.

Then the only thing left was silence, messier thoughts, and the ghost of her presence.

Even when he thought he was going to be absolutely better after having contact with people, he had lied to himself once again.

He never failed to do that.

His vision became absolutely blurry, negative thoughts filling his brain mercilessly.

He knew life wasn’t bad at all. He knew that it was just a stupid feeling or even just a stupid phase. He knew that his grief wasn’t going to last forever, but all that mattered at the moment was the present.

He was devastated.

He had lied to not only himself but also to the woman he admired the most.

He continued to sob and sob until he passed out by his tiredness, curled in bed holding his pillow as if his life depended on it. And just like that, the night ended in such a bitter way Sonic never imagined having. He didn’t want to be weak, but the brain is so powerful and absolutely cruel to the beholder. He continued to whimper on his sleep, not being able to escape his mind at all.

Sometimes bad nights can’t be fixed.

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So uh, is it bad I’m still not over the Sonic movie? I really like it, and it’s definitely going to be on my heart for a long while. 

I don’t know Movie!Sonic’s age, so I just gave him the age that is canon (and also pretty fitting). 

Anyway, hope you guys like this thing I made and definitely not cried while making it haha

[myheartwantstowrite]

Of Hens and Men.

“Are you sure they’re harmless?”

“Absolutely” She smiled gently at him. “They won’t bite you; mostly because they can’t”

Alex was supposed to help the local farmer, aka his girlfriend, to grab all the eggs in the coop. However, he seemed to be more interested in watching the hens do their thing, even though he was still hesitant about approaching them.

The chickens, as well, seemed to be really curious about this new person that came with their owner.

He felt how she would glance at his direction every so often while she looked for hidden eggs in the hay. He’d normally be embarrassed, but now all his attention was directed to the strange, feathery creatures before him.

After months of hanging out at the beach and at his place, they were finally at the farm Alex oh so claimed that he’d be good at. And now, he couldn’t even stop looking and cooing at the hens.

“You could pick one up” She all out of the sudden said. “They really like being cuddled”

Without receiving any instructions on how to do so, Alex picked one up and quickly got the handle of it. Soon he caught her staring, which made him softly smile at her direction and continue cuddling the adorable chicken he just had in his hands.

He has caught her staring at him multiple times, something he has never minded at all, and her cheeks always seemed to be as red as the tomatoes she grows in the farm after being caught. He thought it was endearing, to say the least.

He soon got to pick up a really gorgeous brown hen, and as soon as he got a good look at her, he decided to ask the name of such a beautiful animal.

“So, what’s the name of this pretty little lady?” He asked the farmer just when she filled the basket with tons of eggs, still caressing the brown feathers of the chicken.

“Oh, that’s…” She soon stopped talking. Was it something he said? Maybe he wasn’t supposed to pick the chickens up like that and- wait, but wouldn’t she tell him something about it?

He went into a short panic attack until she spoke again.

“Uh… Alex”

“Yeah?” He asked, his thoughts getting worse. He was indeed doing something wrong, wasn’t he? Oh Yoba, and he thought farming would be easier and-

He heard her giggle. Was there something he wasn’t catching up? ‘Cause damn, he maybe wasn’t the smartest person in town, but he was sure that he never said anything silly or something like that. Or did he? Yoba, why do you mess up so much with his mind-

“No, uh… Her… Her name is… Alex”

…

WHAT

He stared back at the chicken he was holding, admiring her with confusion, then grinned.

“You named her after me?” He felt how, even if he didn’t want to, the butterflies in his stomach were fluttering. His cute girlfriend named an equally beautiful hen after him? How was he not supposed to smile?

She quickly nodded, obviously anxious about how he’d react.

“Well, she is really pretty, isn’t she?” He teased, adding more to the farmer’s emotional rollercoaster.

“She is” She mumbled. “And really soft”

He felt his body going in automatic mode, approaching her with a huge grin on his face. His cheeks were starting to hurt by smiling so damn much.

And without a word, he kissed her forehead, which made the farmer look at him with a small smile on her face.

Just that little smile made him realize he was so goddamn lucky for having her. He knew at the moment he saw her that he’d end up falling for her, but damn him for not knowing how much.

This was the happiest he’s been ever since his mother… passed away. That little farmer, with her shyness and short height, won his heart in a matter of months.

“Alex might even be my favorite” He heard her whisper.

And Alex was happy to hear that.

Both the chicken and the guy.

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So, uh, srry for the cheesy title xd. 

Anyway, the original fic was made by @yourimaginarycupcake, and they prompted that a version of it (but In Alex’s POV) would be nice to see, so I decided to give it a shot. Useless to say that I loved the original one, so this was quite a pleasure for me to make :)

Hope you like it!

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