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How does one make friends at 20 years old? Like genuinely I miss having online friends and interacting with communities and being in discord servers and staying up till 5 am playing Minecraft with ppl and now I have like a handful of friends who don’t share any similar interests ts to me

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Senpai says you’re welcome

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Starting to protect my piece slowly but surely, breaking it all down little by little. I've kept all my truths to myself for others, not anymore. I'm blunt. I'm rash. I protect myself. If I smell even a gram of disrespect, I'll call it out. I can do what you do better for myself anyways.

I'll show a wannabe what a alternative babe really is.

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Ellen Schreiber On Her Website For Vampire Kisses Inspiration

In the summer of 1998, I wrote Vampire Kisses. It was published in Belgium in 2000 (YAY!) and the fabulous Katherine Tegen of HarperCollins bought it in 2001 to be published in the fall of 2003.

The idea for Vampire Kisses came to me in three ways...

1. A character. 2. An image. 3. An obsession.

THE CHARACTER

In the late 90s, Id read an adult novel that I thought was kind of bland except for a very minor character--a rebellious teen girl. I thought if the book was about her, it would be interesting. That thought must have stuck with me--the idea that Id like to write about a character I thought would be interesting to read about. Beyond being rebellious I wanted to make my character confident, feisty, headstrong, fearless, and an outsider. And of course, shed have a sense of humor. And instead of her being the sidekick, the friend, or even worse--the antagonist--shed be the heroine!

THE IMAGE

At the time I was living in a four family apartment building which had a view of a small playground. It was the beginning of a hot and sizzling summer and I saw two goth girls standing on swings and swinging. The contrast of their black outfits, make-up, and hair against the rays of the blazing sun really caught my eye. At the time, I thought one day I might write a poem and call it Dark Angels.

THE OBSESSION

The character and image merged into my head and I couldnt get it out. I was ready to write. Once I married my character with the goth image, I decided she would be obsessed with something--and then it popped in my head--vampires!

THE ROMANTIC VAMPIRE

When I wrote Vampire Kisses all the vampires I was familiar with were bloody, violent, and negative.

I wanted to write about and explore the romantic vampire, without the gore. I liked the idea that a guy could be in love with a girl for all eternity and wanted to write about that kind of strong internal and eternal drive and relationship. My vampire would be rebellious too--in his own way--not the typical violent vampire--but the thirsty for love kind. And of course, hed be hot, hot, hot!

So the hot and sexy vampire that Raven would fall for wasnt going to be malevolent. He was looking for true love and a relationship he could sink his teeth into. That set him apart from other vampires in his world, and like Raven, hed be an outsider, too.

RAVEN

That was how Raven was born. Back in that summer of 1998 when everyone was out getting a tan and jumping in the pool, I was holed up in my apartment with my computer that faced a bare white wall. I began writing and creating the kind of character I wanted to read about-- a headstrong girl, who was fearless, feisty, and confident. I decided shed live in a conservative environment and dress differently than those around her. And to her it wouldnt matter. She wasnt about to conform--because that was who she was.

ALEXANDER

When I wrote Vampire Kisses I imagined Alexander as a young Johnny Depp. Hello! Need I say more?

Again, he wasnt going to be the typical vampire--he was going to be searching for a girl who he could love for eternity. Wed see him from Ravens perspective, hed be sexy, dreamy, and of course, mysterious.

TREVOR

I started with his appearance. He was based on a guy Id met while waiting for a plane at the airport. He had blond hair and piercing green eyes. I used him for the physical attributes of Trevor. Trevor was intended to be a character that offered romantic tension for Raven in the beginning of the novel. However, when I write I just sit down and put fingers to key board and Trevor began showing up in every scene! He was originally intended to be a small part, but he just kept showing up and driving Raven--and me-- crazy. Ultimately, by the time I finished the book, he had became a major character in the novel and now the series.

AUNT LIBBY

Aunt Libby is a combo of my Aunt Esther and my long time friend in Chicago. Everyone should have an Aunt Esther! Shes really loving and kind and always into talking about my love life. My friend, Andrea, is a totally hippie-girl, but much more successful in the arts than Aunt Libby. I think shes Jim Morrison reincarnated.

JAGGER

David Bowie has two different eye colors and I always thought that was cool. And twins always fascinated me--the bond that they must share must be so intense. So I had Jagger and Luna be twins--only one was born a vampire and the other born a mortal.

RUBY WHITE

Way before I wrote VK, I spotted a woman who was dressed head-to-toe in white. She was so striking I guess she stuck in my mind. When Raven got a job at Armstrong Travel, suddenly that lady showed up. She wound up being a great contrast to Raven, who is always in black.

DULLSVILLE

I placed Raven in a small town where it was most likely shed be the only one like her and could really stand out. And in a small town rumors spread quickly.

At the time, I felt like I was living in my own Dullsville. Even though I lived in a city-- I was pining for my own true love. The one that you can truly be yourself with and that you cant stop daydreaming about!

I always get the question... where is Dullsville? Is is based on a real place?

Dullsville is a state of mind. Most of it lies in my imagination, but a few parts are based on places Ive driven past. My mom came from a small town in Illinois and she told me they had events like a spring carnival. So I used that as a setting for the end of VAMPIREVILLE.

My husband and I would go for rides in Ohio--corn fields, barns, and pastures for miles. I used one of those houses for Beckys.

HIPSTERVILLE

Again, a town I created that isnt based upon a real place. Its a mixture of my imagination and streets in Chicago. Some readers ask if its Yellow Springs, Ohio. It isnt but Id love to go there--as it sounds like an awesome place!

As I began writing the novel, I didnt have any idea of plot or other characters. I just sat down and began to write. Trevor was a very minor character--just meant to be a blip on the radar screen. And at that time, I hadnt even thought of Jagger, Luna, and Valentine--or the Coffin Club.

VAMPIRE KISSES was first published in Belgium by Facet in 2000. It was called- De kus van de vampier.

Since my friends and family cant read Dutch, my brother Mark was kind enough to print some up in English. I didnt have an agent (here in the US).

I remember thinking, when I originally began writing Vampire Kisses... I thought maybe I could submit it to Facet, the publisher in Belgium that published Johnny Lightning. I had no idea it would go further than that. Now there are going to be at least eight novels and six volumes of mangas and both are published in other countries.

Im so happy I chose not to get a tan that summer. It pays to stay out of the sun, just like a true vampire!

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Reasons why Vampire Kisses is a better vampire romance novel series than Twilight

1. Alexander Stirling does not try to Gaslight, Gatekeep, Girlboss Raven

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alexander sterling, i hate you

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My dreams are manifesting before my eyes.

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I drew a honeybee kitty 🐝✨

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Nao2748 on ig

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i’ll still use this account every now and then of course, i’ll post my updates and new music and whatnot considering this is the only social media i have. i do love all of you that have been here from the get-go, from before PD, even before inbred. i’ve known a lot of you for a long time and y’all have been supporting me from the jump and i value you all very much. i’ll never delete this account so don’t worry about that. i’ve just suddenly gotten a huge influx of followers out of nowhere and the spam in my comments makes this account almost unusable. i like to engage with people creatively on here and see your thoughts and discussions, not read a slew of mother slay comments forever and ever. call me a bitch, call me annoying, call me cringe, idc it’s just not what i log onto tumblr to read. (and yes, this account is called mothercain. i named it that years ago as ethel cain started as the matriarch in a horror story. it’s not meant to be stan lingo lol.)

i love the internet! i wanna be on the internet in my own way! i garner just as much creative inspiration from tumblr and pinterest and youtube and whatnot as i do from non-internet sources. i’ll always be lurking on this website, i’m simply gonna use this account less. if you somehow find me elsewhere on this website, just don’t go sharing my new username and we can all chit chat. thanks for sticking around and listening to my music.

daughters of cain 4ever. 

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♡ Cinnamon mini apple pies ♡

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wearing brqids for the first time since i got called wednesday n hated it

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No Care - Daughter

Today is going to be a bit hard, but I think I can get through it. Let's hope my boyfriend isn't going to get on my nerves today...

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No Care - Daughter

Today is going to be a bit hard, but I think I can get through it. Let's hope my boyfriend isn't going to get on my nerves today...