myfaveocskissing

[myfaveocskissing]

I am of the firm belief that there is a Crane Wives song for every single emotion.

Are you in the mood for a song about being trapped in an abusive relationship where your partner keeps making you feel as if no one else loves you like they (Tell you) do?

Try Nobody, by the Crane Wives.

You need a song about how you've not taken the opportunities offered to you because you're so scared of what could happen, and you know you need to get up and try and go but there's always the "what if" holding you back?

How about Safe Ship, Harbored by the Crane Wives, or Keep You Safe, by the Crane Wives?

You need a song about how religion has helped create a narrative of men being superior to women and that you had to grow up protecting your own self from men, and now you're finally able to relax and watch the little girls grow up shielded and stronger for it but you still chose to leave the abusive men, the horrible men in your life and live "in the darkness" because it finally makes you feel safe?

Ribs, by the Crane Wives.

How about literally having NO HANDLE on your life and feeling utterly useless because it seems like everyone has it together but you literally have no idea what to do? And you feel as if you were cheated in your adult/elder life because you were told "It would just work it?"

Hard Sell, by the Crane Wives

A SONG ABOUT HOW ABUSIVE PEOPLE LEAVE A HUGE IMPACT ON YOUR LIFE AND YOU CAN'T GET RID OF THE SCARS THEY LEAVE????

Pretty Little Things, by the Crane Wives

A SONG ABOUT BEING LEFT BEHIND CONSTANTLY AND TRYING TO BE MORE LIKEABLE BUT STILL BEING SO FUCKING LONELY ALL THE FUCKING TIME?????

Here I Am, by the Crane Wives

A SONG ABOUT HOW CAPITALISM IS LITERALLY DESTROYING OUR LIVES????

The Hand That Feeds, by the Crane Wives

So anyways I just think the Crane Wives are neat. There are SO MANY songs from them there's a reason they're my number one on Spotify.

[myfaveocskissing]

I think it's so so so important that Jimmy never fucking processes what he did to Anya. It never registers as a sin that he has to atone for. As far as he's concerned, it's in his nature.

When Curly says "I know you struggled back on Earth", he was alluding to having vile tendency for sexual violence. But when Jimmy throws the "how did you put it? My 'struggle of a life'?", he not only misquotes him unfavourably, but he misunderstands him altogether. He thinks Curly looks down on him for his station in life when in fact he gives him far too much grace for being a rapist.

In his psychotic episodes, the one themed after Anya was the most abstract and indirect. We know who that represents, but does Jimmy? Or has he trapped his misdeeds under layers and layers of denial to the point where when he's losing his mind and fighting real-life parallels of his victims, she... doesn't even register.

As human.

And that's how he views her. The only thing that troubles him about her is how her womb carries evidence of his crimes.

Even in the end, it was never about the women he hurt along the way.

When the worst people show a sliver of remorse, we often find that it's not enough. They didn't dig deep enough. They still justify some behavior.

And isn't that just Jimmy in a nutshell.

Curly: "I hope it hurts, Jimmy?"