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The Thread that I'm Afraid to Tweet Ended up in my Blog

WARNİNG! WARNİNG! This is a thread. (Wala lang. Try ko lang) Yung sure na sure kana sa kanila. Yung tipong tatanungin ka, yes agad agad tapos kapag sila tinanong, open pa pala sa ibang possibilities. Yung akala mo parehas kayo pero ikaw lang pala yung ganun. Hahaha nakakatawa na nakakaawa ka Shaen. Akala mo kasi ganun ka ka-special. Akala mo kasi ok lahat hanggang dulo. Akala mo siguro someone would really tolerate your dramas 'til the end. Sinarado mo kasi yung isip and puso mo sa reality. Oo nga noh, nag-eexist nga pala yung salitang UNCERTAINTY. My gosh, nawala sa vocabulary ko yun nung nainlove ako sa kanya eh. Kasi suddenly you found that person na sobrang nag-click kayo without you trying so hard. kaya yung puso mo sigurado na sa kanya. Suddenly parang pati isip mo ganun na din. Kaya sinarado mo na yung possibilities na baka nga hindi kayo mag-end up together. Kasi siya yung gusto mo makasama hanggang huli. You don't see yourself loving someone else but siya lang eh. Ganun. Alam mo sa sarili mo na siya yung gusto mo kaya walang space para mag-isip about sa ibang possibilities maliban lang sa future mo together with him. Yung secured na secured yung feelings mo. Parang sa sobrang love na nafifeel mo pati ikaw hindi makahinga. Then ayun, biruan and tanungan which lead with you hurting your own feelings. Kasi nag-expect ka eh. Nag-expect ka na yung isasagot is the same sa isasagot mo kapag sayo tinanong yung question na yun. Pero hahaha nagulat ka eh. Kasi hindi pala. "Kaya naman" so ibig sabihin kaya for now pero dadating din yung araw na susuko din yun sa akin. Yung puso ko na sobrang secured biglang kumawala. Parang pinalaya niya na yung nararamdaman ko kasi hindi naman pala.Parang bigla akong nagising eh. Hoy, gising. Wag mong ibigay muna lahat ng pagmamahal kasi baka mamaya pati yung para sa sarili mo maubos din. Phasing lang. Phasing lang muna tayo. Ikaw din maging open ka sa mga possibilities para hindi ka ganun masaktan. Ang importante mahalin mo siya ngayon. Yung tama lang. Wag nating papaikutin yung mundo natin sa iisang tao lang kasi lagi nating mararamdaman na tayo yung mas nagmamahal. Madali tayong mapapagod kapag ganun. Pero paano kaya yun? Hindi ko naman maco-control yung feelings ko. Paano ba? :(

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PAPA'S FINAL STRUT How do we say goodbye to someone we love? How can we continue in life when the source of our existence is now gone? These are some of the questions that filled my head upon hearing what happened to Papa. At first I don't want to believe it. I think most of us felt the same way. I don't want to hear and accept the fact that he already left us. A lot of you may be hurting of course you lost a colleague, a former teacher, a brother, an uncle, cousin, batchmate and a friend but nothing compares to losing a father. We've been heartbroken so many times before but this one is different. The wound's too deep and the excrutiating pain add fuels to it. What makes it worst is it happens every single morning. Personal greetings, posts and comments on social media from relatives and friends somehow gives us comfort during this rough time. Everyday we receive and hear stories of how people remembers him and it makes us proud as his children to know that he is loved and his life became a blessing to those around him. You know his story from childhood days until he was married but let me share you something unknown to some of you. Papa is good at almost everything but if there is something wherein he excels bhest, that is being a father. He was our hero, greatest protector, bestfriend and first love. He could have lived a different life back then, away from the hardships and stress of being a parent but because he loves us, he solely took the responsibility of raising his 5 children and for that, we'll always be grateful. We can never outlove him. He knew our souls and loved each one of us for who we are. He knew our hearts and strengths and did not compare. We are this way because of Papa. He showed us his love the best way he knew how and we always got the best of what he had to offer. Papa has taught us so many things. He taught us the importance of family thay we should love each other, always. He taught us perseverance that if you want something in life, you gotta fight for it. Papa would always tell us to know our worth. We should fight for what is right and what we deserve. He really set the standard for what a father's love and responsibility should be. The things we're going to miss begins with the simple phone calls from him checking how was our day going. We're gonna miss the man who always had our backs no matter what. He's our #1 fan. We could tell him anything under the sun. Papa was very proud of us and his grandchildern. He was a cool kind of father. The life of the party. Papa was all about making memories. He put so much effort into showing people how to have a good time. He loved it and he was loved for it. We're gonna miss his stories, his smile, the sound of his voice, and the way he laugh but what we're gonna miss the most is seeing him dancing. The way he sways to the beat and the pride we felt knowing his delighted, that instant connection. Only then we can relax and enjoy the moment. Do all children feel this way about their fathers? Over the years people have always complemented Papa on the fact that we all turned put so well. We may have pretty unconventional upbringing but the reason behind us being raised well is because his love for us was so strong that he would have laid his life on the line for us without any questions. I know a lot of parents feeling the same way about their kids. I just don't know how many kids really know it. We did. When you have a love like Papa's love, would you ask for more? It had me thinking that we should not be in distress because of what happened instead, we should celebrate because Papa has lived a wonderful life. Papa, thank you for your unconditional love, thank you for all your sacrifices Thank you for sharing the dance floor of your life with us. The music is now slowly fading but you don't have to worry, you made us strong. We'll ger through this. There's no goodbyes Pa, because you'll always be in our hearts and people will see you through the values you had instilled in us. Life may not be the party we hoped for, but while we're here, we should dance and that's what you did. Until we meet again Pa, We love you

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Another day without you. No text messages, no calls nor emails. I don’t know what to feel. These are the days that I’ve been doubting almost everything and asking myself a lot of question even I could not answer. Am I too demanding? Am I asking for too much? What happened? Everything seems so different and I miss the way we were before back when we couldn’t last a day without talking and  telling each other how our days went.

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Three Wishes (on Wattpad) https://my.w.tt/GNYEqPUoLN Nakita ko lang yung sinulat kong tula years ago habang nangangalungkat ako. July 08,2014 12:32pm - 12:54pm. Exact date and time nung sinulat ko siya.

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Sulat ni Lois Lane para kay Superman

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Lovesong

08/13/2017       9:46pm- 9:52pm

Inuulit -ulit kong pakinggan yung lovesong na ‘to ngayon kasi gusto kong  maramdaman ulit na mahal kita.Mahal kita tapos. Period. Hindi yung mahal kita pero nasasaktan ako. Gusto kong maramdaman na mahal kita at dalawa tayo dito, hindi yung ako lang mag-isa. Inuulit -ulit kong patutugin yung kanta kasi nagma-mind over matter ako. Gusto kong i-absorb yung message ng kanta para mabago ng isip ko yung nararamdaman ko na hindi naman ako priority. Option lang siguro.

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Because of you, I am a firm believer of second chances, destiny, and fate 

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"After all, if there is a heaven, we will find each other again, for there is no heaven without you". - Ira Levinson

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An Open Letter to the Man who has Gone Weak

To my first love

To the one that God has given authority over me.

Growing up with you as a father is a wonderful journey. Actually you were not there most of the times.Your time was consumed at your office and if not, it’s with your friends during Friday nights. Saturdays are my time with my playmates, that’s why we seldom had a time to talk about what happened in each other’s day. You're with us but why is it that you never attended any school activities back when I was in grade school. You were so busy working. Working so hard just to provide what we need. I know it's not easy raising up 5 children alone. If I only knew what to do to help you before, I had already volunteered just to lessen your burden. Your heart was broken. You're full of so much hatred, regrets, and sadness. How come the woman you choose to love left you alone with 5 children to feed and to raise. You would always tell me that I have the resemblance of my mother. The way I look,act, and speak reminds you of her. Every time you would tell us stories about her, I can see how much you hated her that's why I don't want to be like her. The problem is whenever there are gatherings with family relatives, your friends, and other people that knows the both of you, they never failed to notice and tell me that I look like my mother. I would always deny it. I would insist that it is you I look alike even though it is very obvious. I think that's the reason why I grew up hating myself. I grew up thinking that I am less loved because I am the only one among us who looks like our mother. You remember her just by looking at me and I know you don't want that. Who does want to be reminded of something or someone that caused you so much pain right? "You're so much like your mother" "That's  how she acts, don't be like that" "You're being like your mother, avoid that" Those were some of the statements I would always hear from you. It makes me feel that something is wrong with me and being like my mother would make you love me less that's why I kept secrets from you. I remember dancing in the bathroom because I don't want you to see me and tell me that I dance like her. I grew up trying my best to be good at everything to make you proud. In that way, you will notice me as who I am, your daughter, not just a child who reminds you of someone. Every parents dream is for their children to have a good quality education, graduate and be successful in the life they wish to pursue. Despite of making me feel that  I was take for granted, you were still my superhero, the reason why I want to achieve my dreams. I want to honor you for all the hardwork and sacrifices you've done for us but circumstances would never make it easy for me. My brothers and sisters failed you. They never make it.They choose different paths and build their own families. Your world was shattered. Again and again. You've given chances but all of it was wasted. You were so disappointed and for the nth time, your heart was broken by the people you love. Here I am, I still have that dream. The dream that you had for me. The dream that we built together. I still want to make it all come true. It never changed but how can I achieve that if you've already given up? You were so hurt that it made you become so weak. You're now afraid to take risks. Maybe you've given so many chances that there's nothing left for me. You would always think that I will be like them. I will also fail you. Disappoint and hurt you. But I am not like my mother. I was raised by a brave man. Nothing will stop me to be the best person that I can be. I did everything to prove that to you. I gave my best but the superhero that I came to know was nowhere to be found. You're filled with so much depression and frustrations that it changed you. They had taken away my father. They had taken away my strength and inspiration. You became so selfish. You're always thinking about how much you've sacrificed. That you gave up your dreams and ambitions because of us and what you had in return were all disappointments. I know that you're in pain. I can see it in every sleepless nights that you spent just laying on your bed. I can hear it in your silence. I can feel it in your cold response. I want you to know that the world is not yours to carry alone. You're not the only one who was hurt. You're not the only one who feels so much sorrow. There is someone out there who thinks of you and is very pained to watch you falling into pieces. She wants to make you smile,laugh and see things the way it was before. Beautiful. She wants you to bring back the superhero that she used to look up to. She needs him badly. She needs someone who'll encourage her to do great things, to do what is impossible and to reach for the stars. Can you please help her? She'll be waiting for her superhero to come and save her.

 - your little girl

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You should trust them even if they come hand in hand with pain or suffering.

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Things may not work the way I want it to be. I will always choose to trust you because I know you always have the best plan.

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Baka kasi Pwedeng Madaan sa Bagong Hairstyle. (on Wattpad) http://my.w.tt/UiNb/Nz2RjsMnwu Nagtataka talaga ako, kung bakit kapag nagpapagupit sinasabi may break -up daw na pinagdadaanan Sa tuwing heartbroken, isa ang buhok sa mga napagdidiskitahan at nadamdamay.Gumawa ako ng short story para sa mga taong nagsasabi ng "baka kasi madaan sa bagong hairstyle"

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The agony of waiting.

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'Cause true love has a habit of coming back. 😻💞🎡

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Don’t let others give the definition and image on how perfect you are.

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When was the last time someone told you that you’re beautiful and how amazing you are? Amazing in a way that you’re one of the reason they have a smile on their face every time they wake up in the morning and the last thought they had before they sleep at night. You make them experience and feel things that no dictionary could ever define. You’re a sight that they would never get tired looking at. Did someone ever asked you what makes you happy ? Because seeing you smile and knowing that you’re happy keeps them going no matter how hard the day was and during the better days,even if everything seems to be perfect they’ll tell you that perfect is being with you. Do you know someone who loves you more than you love yourself? Someone who’ll tell you that you don’t have to be perfect because they love everything about you. The things that makes you stand out and the things that makes you feel you’re the least.Everything. Just EVERYTHING about you. Sometimes you love people too much that there is nothing left for yourself.You tend to forget to appreciate that only person that will never leave you and won’t expect too much from you.YOU.You’re getting used to be called average when in fact you’re one of a kind.You give too much of yourself that you failed to take things that you deserve.You deserve to be loved,kept,treasured and appreciated.You deserve to be with people who will see you as a precious jewel when everyone thinks you’re just a simple rough and jagged rock. 

                                                                                   -mpist

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When the love that you feel in your heart is bigger than the mistakes that were commited, it’s alright to give another chance

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