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September 23, 2014

It's been about a month since the last entry. Not much has really happened to her. Her exes started hitting up her best friend for her. Or at least that's what they said. Her best friend confessed about a week after liking her ex. How should she have reacted? How would anyone else react in this situation? Why did her best friend even begin talking to her exes? What were they really talking about.. She was pissed after being the last party to find out. The ex and best friend didn't know the other person liked them. Yes you read that correctly. They were in a mutual like. Which made it even worse. How can she react to this without either coming off as Jealous or a bitch? Her choice? She didn't care. The best friend had 2 options. 1. She can continue to talk to her ex and stop talking to her or 2. Talk to her and stop talking to her ex. That was the only thing she could say. In all honestly she didn't want to lose another person over a boy but there are certain rules of exes you just can't break. One of them being don't date your best friends ex or else you will also become an ex. It's a rule she made up. She has more too. Most don't really matter though. She didn't yell. How would she? She felt terrible doing this but if she didn't she would continue to feel terrible and when her ex breaks her friends heart she won't be able to do anything. She had to do this. The best friend cried all night wondering what she did wrong. That makes no sense to her. How does she not know? And of course the best friend brought up past relationships with another friend. "Didn't she go out with your ex too?" "She already lost a lot of my friend ship when she went behind my back and dated the boy I liked. She went out with him when he was trying to 'help' me. He was only 'helping you'. Don't get ahead of yourself" "Oh yeah...." I love her too much to let her go. She is one of my most important friends. One of my only really. How could she do this to me...out of everybody him...and she knows he is my ex. I hate him even more now. I'm starting to detest her and friends at all. This is a lesson. Soon enough everyone will turn on you no matter what. No matter if they are your best friend. It doesn't matter. They will stab you directly in the back and pull your heart out. I'm trying to keep everyone safe. That's all. Nobody understand.

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August 20, 2014

How should i start her story? She doesn't want to tell me but i think its because she doesn't know how to start it. Pretending to know without really knowing can cause a lot of things to go wrong. Lets begin it were she is currently at. At the beginning of high school. She starts tomorrow but its just an orientation. She told everyone it was her first day. She really should stop leaving out the important details. Right now she is watching youtube videos about her dream place. Her goal of this year to go to her dream place. She says it will change her. I wonder what she means though. What is she trying to change about herself? She seems fine. She says she is fine. But maybe she isn't. I don't know much about her and she says she doesn't know much about herself either. I wonder why she wants to change. She doesn't want to tell me why but i think its because she doesn't know why. She just wants to change. I want to help her though. I hope she lets me help her. I want to reveal more about her past but i don't think she will allow it. Of course, she is fine with just her current story being shared but she doesn't want me to share anything about her past just like anybody else. Even if I did share her past, who would be here to listen to it? Maybe thats why she doesn't want me to share it. Because nobody would listen to it anyways. But who is this girl. Where is she from? Why does she suddenly want to share her current story with everyone? She doesn't know the answer fully either. She said that it might help her change. Well she has changed a lot. I know nothing about this girl yet i seem to be the only one who knows everything about her. I hope she has a good day tomorrow. I want people to notice her without her having to stand out. I want her to reach her goal of living in her dream place. What do you think? Should i help her or leave her as is? Maybe it was fate to end up helping her. Maybe she will be the one to make me the happiest in the world. I mean, she should be. After all, I am that girl.

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