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Colin shrugged, smiling softly. "It's find. I guess I can understand." He mumbled. Though, he wasn't sure he actually did understand. He wasn't sure how spending years doing what you loved with who you loved left you with no nice or happy memories. Though, everyone's different. "Good. I don't know how I'd cope without my best friend slash secret boyfriend." He grinned, closing his eyes for a moment. "Hm. Fine. But when I'm like, fifty." He chuckled, nodding slowly. "I really am not. And good, mine." He beamed.

Colin shook his head, humming softly. "It's fine. You should take it as a compliment that I care about you enough to sob over your death." He mumbled, ruffling his hair gently.

Colin grinned as Bradley started laughing. "Sh. No laugh. I'd let you take all the money." He smiled. "Yes, you will. And if anyone tried to bully me or harass me, I'd just yell for you and they'd go running because they know how fucking badass you are." He chuckled softly, leaning into the touch, humming softly. "An adorable Irish angel cupcake?" He raised an eyebrow. "Those things exist?" He grinned. He nodded slowly and let out a small moan. He looked at Bradley and giggled, sniffing. He shrugged a little. "It's not fine, I upset you. I don't like you being upset, baby." He mumbled, stroking his hair gently.

Save Tonight || Brolin

Bradley smiled. “Yeah, I’m sorry.” He shrugged, taking a deep breath. He sighed softly. “I’d never ever leave you, ever.” He smiled, rubbing their noses together. He sighed. “Because I want to touch your dick.” He pouted. “You are! And yes! Your amazing king.” He grinned, kissing him back.

“I know! But you imagined that I was dying in your arms and I’m still sorry.” He mumbled, kissing him softly, sighing softly. 

Bradley started laughing. “Yes, life insurance.” He grinned, biting his lip. “I’ll have to protect you with my life.” He winked, stroking his cheek. “Well, actually, you’re my little adorable Irish angel cupcake.” He smiled softly, kissing his nose. He grinned. “You can moan, if you want. I like it when you moan.” He mumbled, grinning at him. He sighed softly as Colin spoke. “Never mind, it’s fine, I know you didn’t know.”He said, smiling softly. He nuzzled Colin’s chest and just sighed. “No, I wanted to see it so sh.” He smiled.

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Colin shook his head quickly, looking at Bradley. He wasn't even pissed off at all, he was just a little offended at what he had said. it wasn't that much of a big deal, really. "I didn't say anything. You haven't pissed me off. It's okay." He mumbled, smiling softly. "Don't leave me."  He shrugged. "How is you not touching my penis not fair?" He raised an eyebrow. "I am not!" He argued back. "Ah, yes. My amazing king." He grinned, pecking his lips softly.

He shook his head. "Stop apologizing for things that weren't your fault." He mumbled, kissing his top of his head. "You didn't force me into crying so there is no need to be sorry."

Colin smiled softly. "It's true. Stunts can kill, I should've gotten life insurance when I started doing Merlin." He smiled softly. "Aw, you're so cute." He chuckled, poking his cheek gently. He bit down herd on his lip to stop himself from moaning as he rubbed his crotch. Colin winced and started to rub soothing circles on his back gently, taking a deep breath. "I'm still so sorry. I never should've let you watch it. I'm so sorry. I never mean to upset you." He mumbled, relaxing a little as Bradley cuddled up to him even tighter, he looked at him and shook his head. "No, don't be. It's my fault. I never should've brought it with me."

Save Tonight || Brolin

Bradley frowned as he noticed Colin’s facial expressions change. “Sorry. My fault. I’ll just go and crawl into my hole because that way I can’t piss you off or offend you in any way.” He gulped. “But that’s not fair.” He pouted. “You are good at singing though!” He sniffed, biting his lip. “Yes! I’m a good king, you know it.” He grinned, rubbing their noses together.

“Oh, yeah.” He mumbled, looking at his feet. “I’m still sorry, though.” He mumbled, taking a deep breath. 

Bradley laughed. “No, sh, please.” He shifted slightly. “Yes, you’re my little innocent Irish leprechaun.” He grinned, rubbing his crotch before giggling loudly. Bradley sniffed, taking a deep breath as Colin laid beside him. “You didn’t know.. It’s okay, baby.” He mumbled, taking a deep breath. He cuddled up to Colin and sighed softly. He felt bad for making Colin feel awkward, he could tell that Colin was feeling awkward because he was tense. He took a deep breath and cuddled up to him even tighter. “I’m so sorry.” He mumbled, looking up at him.

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Colin nodded slowly, feeling slightly offended at what Bradley had said. No nice memories? Not even from the whole five years that the whole cast and crew had known each other? Whatever, he wasn't going to let it bother him or ruin his mood. "I guess so." He said, staring at the wall. "Nearly, but didn't." He smiled. "And never will."  He shrugged. "You do! You and Angel go 'he's really good at singing' and then everyone decides to believe you both." He chuckled softly. He nodded once. "Well, that's good. Because you're my king, not hers. Stupid weird girl who talks and sings with animals."

"Yeah," He confirmed. "Hey, don't be sorry." He said, smiling slightly. "It's called acting. You have to imagine those things sometimes, especially if it's an emotional scene."

Colin couldn't help but smile a little as he played with his hands. "Yes, I try so much that I actually nearly kill myself." He sniffed. "Especially when doing stunts." He chuckled softly. "Yes, I'm completely innocent. I'm just a little innocent Irish unicorn." He whined as Bradley poked his crotch again. "Arse." He muttered, grinning. He sniffed and opened the bedroom door slowly, walking inside and nodding slowly. "I'm sorry. I didn't know. I'm sorry for always making you upset." He mumbled, laying on the bed next to him, wrapping his arms around him gently. He always felt awkward at these moments. He never really knew what to do or how to comfort someone who was crying or was sad. 

Save Tonight || Brolin

Bradley sighed. “There is no nice memories.” He sniffed, tears filling his eyes. “There was when we kissed, but..yeah.” He sniffed, keeping his eyes fixed on the floor. “Well I nearly have.” He said, nodding his head as he spoke. “I do not give fans false hope!” He frowned. “You’re a brilliant singer.” He mumbled, biting his lip. “No, she wasn’t as good as you and she was the worst, actually, in stead of getting the job done she just flirted with me, which was actually very annoying.”

“Really?” He asked, tears threatening to spill out of his eyes. “I’m sorry.” He frowned. “I’m just..I..Sorry.” He gulped, looking down.

He smiled and played with Colin’s hands. “You try more than your absolute best.” he said, smiling widely. “Yes, good. I like my Colin innocent.” He teased, winking at him, poking his crotch again. He took a deep breath, burying his head in the pillow as he sobbed louder, before trying to calm himself down. “I..I’m sorry for always crying..It’s just..one of my friends overdosed and.. I..I just don’t want to imagine you doing the exact same as her and..yeah.. Can you come in and give me a hug? Please..” He sniffed, tears beginning to roll down his cheeks again.

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Colin raised an eyebrow. "Why not? It's easy. Just busy yourself or just think of a nice memory." He sniffed, shrugging. He giggled, smiling softly. "You haven't actually touched it yet." He laughed slightly. "I am not, I don't get why you guys say that. You just give the fans false hopes." He said, sniffing. "Yes, I know. Thank you so much Bradley James," He grinned, poking his cheek gently. He frowned at that a little. "Was she a better servant than me? I bet you only liked her because she had boobs. Isn't that right, Arthur?" He said, trying to keep the frown on his face, but failing and smiling a little.

He nudged him gently. "Don't be ashamed. Crying is an okay thing." He smiled softly, thinking for a moment at the question. "They were completely real. I just sort of imagined it was actually you dying in my arms and it all just came out." He frowned slightly.

"I'm sorry." He said, nuzzling his cheek softly before pressing a soft kiss to it. "Thank you. I do try my absolute best." He chuckled softly, shrugging. He frowned slightly, but nodded in understanding. "Luckily, I won't take drugs then. Or smoke ever again. It was just for the movie." He mumbled. "Everyone experiments when they're a teen. I experimented with drugs like, once. They aren't that cool, just gave me a massive paranoia." He sighed softly. Colin felt his heart drop as Bradley rushed upstairs, guilt immediately hitting him once again. He really hoped this would be the last time it did. Well done, Colin. How many more times are you planning on upsetting him? He thought to himself as he headed upstairs after him, knocking on his bedroom door gently. "Bradley? I'm sorry." He frowned.

Save Tonight || Brolin

Bradley sniffed. “I can’t though.” He sniffed. “Oh. That’s mean I like touching your penis!” He screeched, giggling loudly. “No, you’re a fantastic singer.” He sighed. “And blame me for everyone asking you to sing. I was the one who suggested asking you to sing.” He said, giggling loudly. “Well, myself and Cinderella had a small thing when she was my servant for a while, then she moved on to find her ‘Prince Charming’.” He frowned at the memory.

Bradley looked down, almost ashamed. “Okay, I cried a lot, mainly after I ‘died’ and you were crying.” He shrugged. “Were those tears real, like in the show when you cried?” He asked, taking a deep breath.

“Yes. You should apologize.” He frowned. “You’re a good actor in this though.” He smiled. He nodded quickly. “Yeah, if you took drugs I’d like ignore you forever. I admit, I’ve smoked once or twice, but that was when I was eighteen.” He shrugged. “Just thinking of it now makes me want to vomit.” He frowned. As it got to the overdose scene, Bradley looked at Colin. He stood up and rushed upstairs, shutting himself into his room as he began sobbing loudly. He climbed into bed and continued sobbing, burying his head in underneath the pillows. 

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Colin nodded once. "I know it is," He mumbled, shrugging. "Just try not to even think tonight." He smiled softly. He rolled his eyes fondly as Bradley giggled and assumed that he had a boner already. "No, I'm just hiding it so you can'y touch it." He said, smiling gently. "I am not. You and Angel tell such wicked lies about me. Like, everyone I meet now just wants me to sing. I sing in this, actually." He said, gesturing to the movie. "How do you know of Cinderella, Arthur? Did you date her until her prince came along?" He smiled softly.

Shrugging his shoulders, Colin sniffed. "Anytime." He mumbled, looking back at him, tilting his head to the side a little as he spoke. "Yes, I cried. A lot." He mumbled. "Luckily my mum doesn't do that, I hardly ever see her." He smiled sadly but shrugged it off. "Come off it, James. You cried a river." He chuckled softly. 

Colin ran a hand through his own hair gently, sighing softly, nodding. "I know. I'm sorry for getting beaten up in the movie." He mumbled. He smiled slightly as he saw the small smile on his face, the guilt slowly starting to fade. "Plus, I have you here to keep me clean, right? I bet that if I ever took drugs then you'd just be completely disappointed in me. I don't think I could live through that." He chuckled softly and nodded, wrapping his arms back around Bradley as he cuddled back up to him. He looked back at the screen and winced as he noticed that the overdose scene was coming up. "I think me and you deserve all of the awards." He mumbled, nodding once.

Save Tonight || Brolin

Bradley just sighed. “Trust me, laying awake and just thinking of things is one of the worst things to have, ever.” He mumbled, looking down at his feet. He giggled loudly as Colin put a pillow over his crotch. “You’ve got a boner already?” He asked, giggling loudly. “You are, trust me.” He paused and looked at him, sighing softly. “Yes, there is, Merlin. Ever heard of Cinderella?” He asked, raising an eyebrow. “She had a wonderful voice.”

In response, Bradley just sighed softly. “Thank you.” He paused, looking at him, smiling softly. “You know in the finale, did you cry?” He asked, biting down on his lip. “Did you watch it?” He asked. “Mum forced me to. She kept complimenting your acting.” Hr sighed softly. “And I do admit, I shed a tear.”

Bradley sniffed, wiping his eyes. “I know, but..but.. it still hurts.” He mumbled, sighing softly. A smile appeared on his face as Colin promised. “Good.” He took a deep breath. “No, sod it, let’s just watch the whole thing.” He mumbled, grinning at him. He cuddled up to Colin, mainly to keep reminding himself that he was still there and not wounded or hurt in any way, thank god. He took a few more deep breaths, trying to calm himself down. He pressed play and began humming to try and block out the fear of Colin being hurt like this in real life. He glanced at Colin and forced a tight lipped smile. He glanced at the screen and winced.

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Colin smiled as he giggled, he ruffled Bradley's hair gently. "I can't help being jealous of something or someone that gets to spend some nights with you at times," He teased, pouting and folding his arms over his chest. "That's fine with me." He mumbled. As Bradley poked his crotch, Colin giggled softly, grabbing a pillow, placing it over his crotch, poking his tongue out at Bradley. "I'm not even that good at singing." He chuckled softly. "You and Angel just say I am. Plus, who's ever heard of a servant who's good at singing, Arthur?"

Nodding at the question, Colin smiled softly. "That's fine. I'll be your personal tissue for when you cry." He said, nodding a little again. He blinked as Bradley said he would be an emotional wreck if he died in this. He felt a pang of guilt but pushed it away. It was sort of fair, Colin had been an emotional wreck after watching the finale when Arthur died. 

As Bradley buried his face in his chest and started to sob, Colin wrapped his arms around him fully, rubbing his back soothingly. "It's just a movie. It's okay." He said softly, looking back at him, his heart dropping as he saw Bradley's face. He gave him a sympathetic look, feeling incredibly bad for putting the movie on. He chuckled softly and nodded. "I promise I won't become a drug addict and end up like that." He said softly, kissing his nose gently. As Bradley got up and asked him if he could get him a drink, Colin shook his head. "No thanks. I'm fine." He smiled softly, grabbing the remote and pausing the movie.

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Bradley just giggled, biting his lip. “I’m sorry for not being able to sleep. Don’t be jealous about my insomnia.” He said, taking a deep breath. “If the film is sad can I cuddle up to you and cry into your chest?” He asked, looking at him with wide eyes before smiling. He poked Colin’s crotch and erupted into giggles. He began humming, biting his lip. “Cooooolin.” He whined. “I miss hearing you sing.” He pouted, looking down. 

When Colin mentioned he might need tissues, Bradley frowned. “Oh. I’ll just… I’ll cry into your chest, if that’s okay?” He smiled, biting his lip. He looked down and watched the titles appear. He sniffed and cuddled up to Colin tightly. “If you die in this I’ll be an emotional wreck.” He mumbled, sighing softly. 

As soon as the first scene where Colin’s character got attacked by the drug dealer version of the Mafia, Bradley buried his face in Colin’s chest, beginning to sob quietly. “I don’t like.” He sniffed, looking up at him with blotchy eyes and tear stained cheeks. “Don’t become a drug addict and end up like this, please.” He pleaded, his eyes wide. He took a few deep breaths and wiped his eyes on his sleeve. He took a deep breath and stood up. “Can I get you a drink?” He asked, tears filling his eyes as he looked at the screen again. 

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Colin smiled widely as he saw Bradley, his heart skipping a beat as it usually did when he saw him. "Hey," He replied, kissing him back softly. "It's fine. You still look good," He said, smiling softly. He wrapped an arm around Bradley gently as he cuddled up to him, humming gently. "It's cool. I like spending time with you. Even if it is just helping you sleep." He smiled, leaning down to kiss the top of his head gently. "If you don't sleep after this then I will seriously start worrying about your state of mental health." He joked, trying to lighten up the conversation for some reason.

Picking his bag up from the floor, Colin pulled away from Bradley slowly. "You'll probably need tissues for this, but you might actually be okay." He shrugged, getting up and putting the DVD into the DVD player. He walked back to the sofa and sat back down, snuggling back up to Bradley and wrapping his arm around his shoulders again.

A few minutes into the movie, Colin reached over to the coffee table, grabbing a handful of popcorn, plopping some into his mouth. He glanced between Bradley and the screen, a small smile on his face. He kept his eyes on the screen now, rubbing his eyes. It didn't really bore him much, he just knew what everyone was going to say something and when they were going to say it. It was the same when watching Merlin after the episodes had been edited. Though, he tried not to watch it much. He always pointed out his own flaws in scenes when he watched things he was in. So that was never really a healthy option. Especially when people assumed he was quite a positive person in real life, so he tried to live up to those assumptions for people, it was easier. 

Save Tonight || Brolin

As soon as Bradley received the text from Colin, he climbed out of bed and started grabbed some new clothes, placing them on his bed. He walked into the bathroom, heading into the shower. He sent a reply to Colin, ‘Okay, will do.’ He took a deep breath and began to sing loudly in the shower. After a while, he climbed out of the shower, wrapping a towel around his middle, he quickly brushed his teeth and headed out of the bathroom, into his bedroom to get dressed.

When he was finally dressed, he opened the text from Angel which said something about using contraception, Bradley just rolled his eyes. ‘Shut up, we’re just watching a film.’ He sighed softly as he got another reply saying something inappropriate.

Bradley just scowled, putting his phone to the side. He walked downstairs and placed the door on the latch, shortly after that he headed into the kitchen and put a bowl of popcorn into the microwave. Bradley jumped out of his skin as he heard Colin’s voice. “In the kitchen.” He shouted, opening the microwave as it pinged to let him know that it had finished. He gulped and started humming again, taking the popcorn into the living room, placing it on the coffee table. He sat beside Colin and grinned. “Hi.” He said, kissing him softly. “Sorry if I look rough, I’ve literally just finished getting dressed.” He said, laughing softly. He cuddled up to Colin and sighed happily. “Sorry for inviting you over at such an early time, it’s just, I’ve not been able to sleep for a long time.” He mumbled, looking at him, biting his lip.

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Colin hummed softly as he searched his bedroom to find the DVD, almost falling over himself. He grinned to himself as he found the DVD, putting it into his bag and sending a quick text to Katie. 'Gonna have to cancel. Bradley.' He quickly sent it and headed towards the front door, switching everything off and stepping outside, locking the door before starting to walk. He wasn't even entirely sure how he had gotten the DVD in the first place, though, he knew it was Katie who was behind it, it was one of their inside jokes, which were obviously a regular thing with the whole cast. He rolled his eyes as Katie sent him a text back saying something inappropriate, of course. Typical Katie.

As he got nearer to Bradley's, Colin put his earphones in his ears, smiling to himself as his music started to play. The past few days had certainly changed a lot, in a good way, obviously. He was actually completely happy for once, the cast that knew actually seemed to support him and Bradley. Plus, he had also read some of that fanfiction stuff that Bradley was talking about. It was a little weird, but also quite flattering. He got out his phone and sent a quick text to Bradley, 'Nearly there. Leave the door on the latch?' He sent and shoved the phone back into his pocket.

Walking up the path to his house, Colin pulled his earphones out and shoved them into his pocket. He walked to the front door and opened it, stepping inside and shutting it properly. He toed off his shoes, almost falling over as he did so. He glanced around and made his way into the living room, ruffling his own hair. "Bradley?" He called out, sitting down cross-legged on the sofa, placing his bag down beside him. He didn't have much in it, just the DVD and a change of clothes. He hummed softly to himself as he waited for Bradley, yawning softly.

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Really. I'll bring the DVD round.

Sure, I'll head over now.

Can't sleep.

Really?

Yes. Right now.

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You can see for yourself.

Did you want me over now?

Can't sleep.

Oh, cool. Did you look good smoking?

This is good. 

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It was worth it. It's called suffering for your art, apparently.

Well, you were going to get hugs anyway. 

Can't sleep.

Oh. Poor Colin. 

Yes, hugs.

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Not really. I got a really bad throat infection. 

And did you want me to bring anything?

Can't sleep.

Oh. Is it nice?

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I did. Only for a movie though.

Can't sleep.

Okay.. Do you smoke?!

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But I want to.

Can't sleep.

It doesn’t matter. You don’t have to.

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I want to if it helps you.

Can't sleep.

Yeah.. But, you don’t have to.

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Want me to come back over? Would it help you sleep?

Can't sleep.

Since when you came over..