moonlightslife

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Brooo why is it soooo fucking hard for a man to act like a fucking man immmm done w this bs like ong I'm not even kidding ike yes babyyyy GURLLLLLLLL you want some lipgloss I'll fucking apply it for you. WHERE ARE THOSE FUCKING DAYS WHERE MENS USED TO FIGHT FOR A WOMEN MEN USED TO ACT LIKE MEN ONGGG NOW ITS JUST WOMAN BEING THE MAN IN A RELATIONSHIP

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I'm shit scared to eat

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I had 5 sips of juice and 2 spoons of rice IM ON SUGAR DIET AND I HAD 5 SIPS OF JUICE and I'm feeling so guilty rn wanna throw up but it won't do anything but bring other new disorders so imma stay active workout and do cardio and burn em all yeyeyeyyeyeyeye BUT HONESTLY ITS SO FUCKING TIRING AND COMPLICATED I WANNA STARVE MYSELF HONESTLY ughhhhhhhhhh life is so hard

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Me core

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I want them soooo badddd like I'm not even kidding

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I feel so down these past 2 days

Everything's getting into my head and fucking my head

I've deactivated my socials except Tumblr lmao ofc no one knows who I am here IM ANONYMOUS HERE it's better to stay this way so I can rant about shits without worrying.

It's actually very peacefullllll and lonely tho ngl but i need a break so badd it's okay to take a breakkkk

I'm kind of isolating myself this weekend and yea I'm just kicking my boredom wth Tumblr,Wattpad and YouTube and music OBVIOUSLY

Anyways take care y'all, stay healthy BYEEEEEE HAPPY WEEKEND<3

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the rape and murder of the doctor at r.g. kar medical college is horrific, but the trinamool congress's response is not an aberration, we have seen it again and again; as recently as the beginning of this year, when the women of sandeshkhali revealed that they had survived months of systematic coercion and rape, and as far back as two-thousand-twelve, when mamata bannerjee called suzette jordan a liar for accusing her rapists of, well, rape.

the tmc has always protected the rapists in its ranks. last night they they were found attempting to destroy all evidence of the atrocity and silence protests. the police actively aided and abetted this. this is not strange either. what is strange is that the identities of the perpetrators are, in fact, an open secret. that the accused is a scapegoat with a sketchy past, is also an open secret. the fact that the victim was brutally raped and murdered because she uncovered information about certain illicit activities at the medical college is widely known.

and yet, the political parties and media houses are spinning it as a matter of morality, and a question of women's safety (this part is valid, but a bit too narrow), in a country where there are no laws to prosecute the rape and sexual assault of transwomen, nor marital rape. the bjp is mobilizing reactionary feminism in hopes of creating a power vacuum into which they can insert themselves (notably, this failed in sandeshkhali). everyone is still pretending that the atrocity was a case of anomalous sexual violence, when it was, in reality, routine sexual violence to keep affairs at r.g. kar medical college running smoothly.

and who knows how many more rape-and-murder cases have taken place since ninth august, incidents that didn't warrant quite as much media and public attention? the citizens of kolkata didn't take to the streets in such great numbers during the sandeshkhali incident either. it's just a small village, rather unimportant, not a place that produces the food we eat in the city. idk what to say. trash nation, trash state. trash city. fuck this shit.

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I'm ashamed to be a citizen of india

Cant decide if I feel disgusted or fearful for women in this country

A doctor was working a 36 hour shift at her hospital in Kolkata. She was resting in the seminar hall when she was raped and murdered. Her body was found naked, her legs at a right angle. It us impossible to have legs like this without breaking the hip girdle. She was bleeding all over with several injuries. Her glasses were crushed and her eyes bleeding. Semen found inside her body shows that it was a gang rape.

Her parents were called, they were told it was a suicide. They weren't allowed to see her for 3 hours. The principal of the college resigned immediately. He was appointed was principal in another neighboring hospital. The room beside the seminar hall was suddenly being renovated till students put a stop to it.

A doctor was working to save lives. This is what she gets. A woman was raped and killed in her workplace. Where are we supposed to feel safe?

Students are protesting and still no action is being taken.

Happy independence day ig

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Independence day???IDTS we women still haven't gotten our independence yet this independence day?whyy?? independence for a men to rape, assult, harras women's and girls. 78th year of us being scared to even exist IS IT CURSE IF BEING BORN AS A WOMEN??? why is it always women's having restrictions to do this and do that to dress modestly to not go out after 6 pm to sit properly, not letting women's go out cus of the danger out there waiting for them WHY IS IT NOT MEN let them wear blind fold let them not step out of their house let them wear a blind fold so they couldn't see us and feel tempted and can keep it in their pants???could all mens do that??? THAT'S HOW US WOMEN FEEL WHEN Y'ALL MAKE RESTRICTIONS honestly idek wtf the mr busy prime minister and everyone's doing who we voted for the better future ??? plucking hair while all off these are going??? Is that why people voted for y'all ?? The bare y'all could do is hang the rapist but they're all blind deaf mute until this happens to one of their dear ones HAHAHAHAH NO how could it happen when you have that secured body guards and all which us normal citizens don't have ?? I'm so ashamed to be called as a citizen of india.

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:(

Idk how much more my heart can take

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The food which once was my everything my emotional support my best friend my therapy to forget About bs even as a small kid the name food alone brings smile on my face which no one can bring. Used to eat food and forget about everything JUST FOOD. as a small kid I used to not like food and my mom used to take me out show the moon to me and feed me telling moon wants you to have your food so it'll always be w you and hahahahah I'm pissed at myself at how i used to not like to eat omg I used to hate biriyani THE SMELL irks me And eventually after joining kindergarten I started liking to eat and which biriyani I used to hate became my favourite, every occasion my family gets me a lottt of snacks and food ahahahha i could say i was a spoiled brat, whenever mum was pissed at me the minute i eat food every anger in me cools down when there's a misconvenience in a day FOOD if anything FOOD FOOD BECAME MY EMOTIONAL SUPPORT and when I entered my middle school I was kind of body shamed cus i was chubby but when I think about it now I used to be so skinny in my middle class it all started w my cousins calling me fat and complaining that I eat a lot i used to not care and live my life and but eventually all the insults hit me and I started working out and started being on diet when I was in my 7 grade and I stopped after couple of weeks cus I lost like sumn pounds in couple of weeks hahahahaha thinking about it now i should have never stopped WHO WOULDVE THOUGH MY BEST FRIEND(food)COULD BE MY ENEMY. Hahahaha i would have had a perfect healthy body I would have felt worthy of myself i wouldn't have felt weird going out i wouldn't be comparing myself to every one I see i wouldn't be feeling guilty I wouldn't be punishing myself i wouldn't be looking at my friends having what ever they're eating and then me just sitting seeing them eat and control myself to not feel tempted i wouldn't be crying and having mental break down everyday i wouldn't be felt left out, I used to feel unworthy of being or hanging out w my friend cus they're goddess and I'd bring Shame to them hanging out w someone like me, people would have approached me talked to me without judging me.

I could have worn sleeveless, bodycon, shorts skirts etc hahahaha one mistake now I have to count calories in everything I see, restrictions, strict diet, fasting, water diet, calories burn, vomiting If I had a lot of food cus the guilt would kill me alive, hahahah my friends, they don't care about calories everyday is a cheat day for them and that makes me more depressed cus why can't I have that life, used to feel so ugly that i couldn't even bare looking at myself in the mirror feel like killing myself but all I do was and still will do is just motivate myself saying at the end it's worth it you'll love yourself just keep fighting. LIFE IS BRUTAL, ONCE YOU START YOU CAN NEVER STOP:)

I'm so sorry im not at all promoting this behaviour I just wanted to rant this here cus I was having a severe mental breakdown today and I did and please anyone reading this do not ever try or go through this severe torture and yes I should have controlled myself but i couldn't it's my fault but yes I started this and idts I can ever stop this and i beleive in myself that I can do this and achieve my goal PLS DO NOT PROMOTE THIS BEHAVIOUR:)

Thank youuu<3

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I created this acc to say i feel super lonely and today was just very much to take in for me and i hate today HOPE Y'ALL HAVE A GOOD DAY<3