moonisalover - Tumblr blog

[moonisalover]

“The spirit of evil is the negation of the life force by fear. Only boldness can deliver us from fear. If the risk is not taken, the meaning of life is violated. “

C.G. Jung, from “Symbols of Transformation”.

[moonisalover]

it’s very funny to me and comforting that after feeling hopeless the whole week i still came back to myself. like, had a breakdown, then brushed my teeth and cleansed my face. i thought this would be the feeling that’s never going to leave and here i am, feeling good again. also the very fact that no matter what, i got me.

[moonisalover]

doing gua sha eating salad with hummus drinking tea floor time doing good

[moonisalover]

basically conclusion of it all was:

- i am human and am allowed to not be perfect.

- i must acknowledge my achievements and learn to forgive myself for my shortcomings

- STOP BLAMING YOURSELF AND MAKING YOURSELF FEEL GUILTY

- learn how to accept where i am and just myself for who i am NOW. i deserve to be seen, loved and valued by MY OWN SELF

- where i am jealous of other people, is where these people have what i want and i must pay attention

- there’s no way i will be perfect at something i just started but that’s just how things are and i should start nonetheless because this is how we grow

- present moment is priceless

[moonisalover]

i think it was important to discover that it all stems from an age old problem of mine of not ever feeling like i was enough, and deserved better treatment from myself and others. won’t go into detail, but i do have a big ass essay where i just talk to myself about this.

just recorded 30 minutes worth of audio video recordings of myself discovering why i was actually crying in the shower

[moonisalover]

just recorded 30 minutes worth of audio video recordings of myself discovering why i was actually crying in the shower

[moonisalover]

[moonisalover]

[moonisalover]

i’m still a girl in my bubble

[moonisalover]

i watched a jane birkin movie and…she’s just such an interesting person. so weird, so simple, so herself. i think it is the ones that are totally unapologetically themselves that we find interesting. she had so many beautiful thoughts that she voiced throughout the film that made me feel like she’s such an overthinker. melancholic at that. but i don’t mean it in a bad way, i think her mind is beautiful. she’s also very funny. seeing her was a reminder to me that i am a person more in touch with intuition than logic, my heart than my head. a beautiful maze inside the mind, a voyage, this movie.

[moonisalover]

me all day today

[moonisalover]

trees speak to me through night and day

through orange and green

i reach sunlight with your fingertips

when i talk to god i imagine i’m having a conversation with you and He is in between us

caught in the broken light between the branches

fallen on your eyes and along the freckles on your face

hiding in the breath you let out when you laugh

[moonisalover]

having a lecture about aristotle be about finding one's own balance on the day of spring equinox is sure something

[moonisalover]

happy spring equinox, don't forget that it is time to keep in balance!

[moonisalover]

question is, what do i want and what i do i tell myself to get closer to it?

[moonisalover]

[moonisalover]

meditation is a good reminder to myself that i am spirit and to be in this state of no body no mind and no time is my favorite state to be in

so whenever i reach it i feel whole because i am in the present