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Living in a cult is like if hell was filled with flowers, and everyone is gaslighting you into thinking it's heaven.

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This is enormous. Please spread this news.

FOIA is the Freedom of information Act, which allows citizen oversight of government activity. It means you can request to see government records. This is so ubiquitous that all federal employees take yearly training about it. What this means is that DOGE knows they are committing crimes as they decimate the federal workforce and compromise its systems, and so they are now moving to exempt themselves from all FOIA requirements so no one can see what they are doing.

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What the media won't show

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When you were a teenager and you wished to be treated like an adult, it's not because you were stupid or a "know it all". It's because for literally your entire life so far, you not being an adult was used as a justification to abuse you. When that happens, it's only natural to insist that you're an adult as soon as it seems even remotely possible.

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The Groomer Doc - unwelcome-ozian/ UWO/ U.W Ozain is a predator

All the screenshots and posts regarding the grooming allegations against unwelcome-ozian (UWO / U.W. Ozain) in one place. Its a Google doc.

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Also if it hasn't been made clear the system running this account is Leftist and we do not support Right Wing corrupt policies and world views at all!

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Do you know if the teenage girl who Unwelcome Ozian groomed is still alive and still okay and if shes still on tumblr? Im just asking out of care and concern, since Unwelcome Ozian also attempted to groom me when I was a teenager

I'm sorry I am not in contact with that user and am only vaguely familiar with this situation.

I can say however the way Oz speaks about other survivors and many programming elements both sickens and frustrates us to no end. We have alot of disagreements and one big fundamental one is that ALL of our MK trauma will not look the same to survivor to survivor and that is not a valid reason to dismiss someone. They've attacked personal close friends of ours. Also another nitpick we have is that Monarch and MK Ultra are one in the same as far as we are concerned.

I am very sorry for your experiences with them and hope that this blog can be a safe place for you and anyone else who has dealt with Oz over the years as we want to make the space specifically here on Tumblr for Monarch/Mk ultra and trauma survivors in general more safe even if it is just our small voice on this account.

Sorry it took so long to get to this were just now really finding our way back after some troubles.

//Dani & co.

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If you think Christian cult survivors are valid and Satanic cult survivors aren't then you are part of the problem.

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And here’s what makes complex PTSD uniquely miserable in the world of trauma diagnoses: it occurs when someone is exposed to a traumatic event over and over and over again — hundreds, even thousands of times — over the course of years. When you are traumatised that many times, the number of conscious and subconscious triggers bloats, becomes infinite and inexplicable. If you are beaten for hundreds of mistakes, then every mistake becomes dangerous. If dozens of people let you down, all people become untrustworthy. The world itself becomes a threat.

Stephanie Foo, What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma

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It's okay to have made mistakes while in a cult. You're allowed to move past them.

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"we want to protect the kids!!"

— in a way that will also protect them from their parents & guardians right?

"what"

— if a parent or guardian wanted to abuse their child, would what you're trying to do make it harder for them?

"..."

— *pulls out a chart that shows 76% of abused children were victimized by a parent or legal guardian* will what you're advocating for make it easier for the majority child abusers, which is overwhelmingly parents & guardians, to get away with abuse?

"idk what this has to do with anything we just want to restrict children's freedoms more & give parents more control over them. you know. to protect them from adults who want to abuse them"

Every. Single. Time.

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I think a really tragic part of recovery with DID is having a clearer image and memory of your life and really being able to look at some of your experiences in the context to the age and situation and really just see how much that kid was struggling, how heavily that kid was showing signs and also how that kid tried their best and - in doing so - got hurt worse because they didnt have the life experience, development and perspective to do anything better

Theres such a tragedy in seeing the whole picture, not even in a "im triggered" sense, but just in a "its so sad that it had to happen that way, i wish i could go back there and give that child the support I can now"

Theres that deep solemn feeling without the flashback that really just makes it oddly more tragic to look at

It worked out in the end, but man that poor child deserved so much more love, support and attention