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monarch-apostate · 22 days ago

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Satanic Panic, The False Memory Foundation’s Shaky Origins, and Why You Should Believe RAMCOA Survivors

(TW: mentions of RAMCOA, False Memory Foundation, child torture & death, cults, trafficking)

Pretty disappointed to see a fairly popular and well known blog on tumblr is encouraging the idea that RAMCOA doesn’t exist. Just came across this post and was pretty bummed to see the comments too.

For those that agree with them (most of my followers won’t but who knows who will stumble across this), please know that RAMCOA has been going on for much longer than the Satanic Panic. The Satanic Panic was fabricated in an effort to discredit RAMCOA survivors. It was supported by the False Memory Foundation, which was created by a man (and his wife) trying to prove his daughter’s repressed memories of trauma involving him did not really happen. [Explained further in the third article further down in this post]

For the record, false memory/planting false memories has been disproven, it’s not possible to fully plant false memories in patients. Some memories can be altered to an extent because memories can be disjointed and influence from others can cause memories to shift slightly, which is why it’s not encouraged for trauma patients to share exact detailed memories with each other. For example, if two trauma patients were abused by their father and had a similar situation happen and patient A spoke about their experience in detail, if both fathers wore glasses and patient A describes their father to have black rimmed glasses, patient B’s memory might shift to believe that their father also had black rimmed glasses, even though his glasses were gold rimmed. However, it’s not possible to fully plant memories that do not exist in a patient’s memory. The “base memory” so to speak has to be there in order for any alterations to occur, and those alterations that are possible are often rather minuscule, such as glasses or whether or not their abuser had facial hair or not, or the color of the person’s eyes. Not an entire scene of RA. [Again, explained well by the third article below.]

Repressed memory has been proven to exist. (Though it’s more accurately called dissociated memories by clinicians) It can even exist in people who have traumas that happen in adulthood. Pieces of a traumatic event may go missing in a patient’s working memory, and they may not retrieve it until they are ready to process the memory and all the emotions and information that comes with it. However, it still exists stored in the brain, just in a different area than working memory. It’s why triggers to the traumatic event (that the patient may not even realize are triggers until they occur) can cause flashbacks and memory resurfacing during said flashbacks.

Some sources explaining the False Memory Foundation and the harm they’ve caused: [a good overview of a woman who was major in the development of the idea of repressed memory being a myth, by a researcher of child psychiatry], [while this is a psychology today article, I think this explains well how misused the idea of FMS - false memory syndrome - is.] [A comprehensive article explaining the roots of the FMF and how the studies used to “prove” false memory are terrible and easily debunked, with several assertions from professionals in the field.] I want to add that while the FMF has dissolved and rightfully so, the British False Memory Society is still alive and well, as well as the Satanic Temple’s Grey Faction, and both groups still cite False Memory Syndrome as being real and claim that RAMCOA survivors have false memories of their abuse.

However, before Satanic Panic happened, people were starting to actually believe in the existence of RAMCOA and the concept of DID was brought into the mainstream. A survivor on tiktok has a very good video on this situation. And that scared people, especially the abusers themselves who didn’t want to get caught. That’s when the False Memory Foundation stepped in on the heels of Satanic Panic and literally rewrote the textbooks therapists learned from, and basically taught everyone that repressed memory doesn’t exist. Any therapists that spoke about their patients’ experiences with RAMCOA were sued. Therapists stopped wanting to treat RAMCOA patients for fear of being sued and/or losing their license or being told they planted these memories in their patients’ heads and possibly losing their licenses. It led to generations of old therapists not treating RAMCOA patients and generations of new therapists learning it doesn’t exist.

But it does exist. To outright deny that child torture cannot exist is absurd. 1-2% of reported child abuse falls under the definition of child torture. [source, TW: photos of children with serious injuries from torture included on page 7 of this document] For the record, my abuse was never and has never been reported, and most survivors—RAMCOA and non-RAMCOA, whose trauma falls under the definition of torture—never reported or plan to report.

Even if you find the mind control aspect to be far-fetched, ritual abuse most certainly does exist. I’ve seen videos on the surface web on fucking tiktok of all places of child torture and ritual abuse. Organized abuse such as sex trafficking and labor trafficking does exist. Two out of those three things in the acronym are well documented to exist. And for the record, ritual abuse and cult abuse even in adults can cause extreme mind and identity alteration, upwards to the point of nearly being mind control. Look up OSDD-2 in the DSM-V. Look up just about any cult survivors testimonies and hear how they talk about how they nearly became a different person within their cult, how the cult uses torture and mind altering drugs to get their initiates to commit terrible acts of violence to each other. Now imagine if that same stuff were happening to a child whose mind is significantly easier to mold and change. Even if the child RAMCOA survivor does not develop DID, it can cause extreme conditioned responses in which the child (or now grown adult or teen) will still do the responses even now because as a child they were threatened with torture or death if they didn’t do it.

Mind control is essentially an extreme form of conditioning, and with the plethoras of research on DID and how it functions, it’s not even a difficult concept to grasp that a cult member might learn how to split new alters in a child via torture and then manipulate those alters to do what they want individually. Anyone who knows fuck all about DID knows that alters can be triggered out via positive and negative triggers. All mind control programming is, is creating a specific trigger for a specific alter and then when that child is exposed to that trigger, that alter comes out and does the task it was taught to do—usually via torture, manipulation, and threats of harm to the child or those the child loves. It’s not a difficult concept to grasp, and with how long TBMC (torture based mind control) programmers have had to perfect their work, it’s no surprise that they’ve learned how to make alters do extremely complex tasks or hold onto specific functions, always at the ready for their specific trigger.

RAMCOA research doesn’t exist in mainstream spaces because it’s nearly impossible to be taken seriously because of people who claim it doesn’t exist when it’s not even a complex topic to understand. They just don’t want to accept that it exists. The concept is terrifying, harrowing, and at some times almost absurd—and that combination makes it easier for people to put their blinders up and decide it doesn’t exist. [Edited to add: On top of this, what little research is done on it is steeped in conspiracy theories that often have roots in antisemitism. While I’ve asserted that Miller’s deprogramming books are good reads for RAMCOA survivors, she does often sound conspiratorial, and quotes Svali, a known antisemite. While I don’t think RAMCOA is exclusively related to the Illuminati stuff she often talks about, Miller’s work cannot be completely discounted because of her beliefs of where the abuse originated. Where it originates matters much less than the fact that it happens. However, not from dark, underground, secret societies—but from normal places like churches, children’s own homes (yes, RAMCOA can be done by a single parent to a single child, it just may look different than say, a trafficking ring), trafficking rings, militaristic groups, political cults, etc. I wanted to put the above put there because I know someone is going to come at me and try to say the researchers who talk about it were conspiracy theorists. Yeah, they were. Maybe they were the only ones willing to talk openly about it because of the fact they’re conspiracy theorists? I don’t know. However, I think it should also be noted that just because the researchers sucked doesn’t mean the information taken from them isn’t useful when you weed out the conspiracy stuff. For example, a LOT of modern understanding of medicine was taken from Nazi and Japanese experiments during WWII. Arguably some of the worst doctors on earth. Do we discount everything we learned because they were horrible, evil, people? No. While those who studied RAMCOA went about it in shit ways, that doesn’t discount the information learned completely. Likewise, much of modern psych understanding came from roots that included incredibly unethical experiments that would never be allowed today. Do we throw out all of that info too? No, we don’t. I’m not saying that we shouldn’t hold these people accountable, I’m saying we cannot throw out all discussion of RAMCOA because the doctors who talked about it were shitty people.]

I wish I could decide it doesn’t exist. I have permanent scarring that proves what happened did happen. I have doctor’s visits that prove I am disabled because of the traumas I went through. I have a DID specialist who didn’t even know programming to our extent even existed before our parts started telling her what they went through and she heard it from our own mouth. She had to learn how to deprogram us on the fly because she’d never done so before. So fuck off with your “oh, RAMCOA patients only have RAMCOA because they’ve been influenced by their therapist to believe they do” bullshit.

I relive my traumas in flashbacks and nightmares daily. There have been periods in my healing process where I couldn’t leave the house without someone with me for months. I couldn’t hold a job for nearly a year. I didn’t know any of this happened to me until I was in my 20s. I thought my memory was just bad and the only parts of my childhood I remembered were little blips of good things, usually involving my parent that was not involved with the cult or memories with friends at school or when I was hanging out with my sports teammates. Living with this stuff is hell. You think I want to live with this stuff? If I could permanently erase it all from my memory forever I would. But I can’t. I don’t have that luxury.

It happened. And I’m not the only child it happened to, both in the area of my country I live in and in areas all over my country and the world. This is not an isolated phenomenon. It is more common than anyone tends to realize (though still rarer than most DID cases, thank fuck). I was lucky to survive. I survived because they wanted me to. I saw a lot of children, teens, and adults who were not as “lucky” as I was. If you won’t respect survivors and their stories, at least respect the ones who didn’t survive. They didn’t deserve their final moments to be so full of pain. All of the children in these groups deserved to be loved and cared for and treated with softness and compassion. So do adult survivors like me and many others.

If I could end on one thing, it would be to urge the doubters to have some fucking compassion and empathy for people who have been through things they cannot even begin to understand. My past feels like a nightmare I will never be able to escape. I cannot erase it. I can only try to heal from it. So heal I will do, and in the process I will continue to speak the truth of my experience as safely as I can.

You want proof it’s real? Survivors are your proof.

WE are the proof.

[Edit: changed some wording for clarification + added a section after rereading a couple hours later]

[Edit 2: I realized I said my abuse has never been reported, I meant my RAMCOA related abuse. Want to make that clear. I reported sexual abuse done by my church to CPS and nothing came of it. CPS actually wrongfully claimed that since they had no reports existing of that church harming kids they wouldn’t pursue it since it happened so long ago, when a cursory google search of said location shows they’ve been reported multiple times and all reports were dropped. Why, I’m not sure.]

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monarch-apostate · 22 days ago

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people on the left are too afraid of looking like conspiracy theorists. never underestimate the evil the us government is capable of.

#Politics #Mk Ultra #Project Monarch #Food for thought #for the record I personally am left leaning

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monarch-apostate · 27 days ago

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MK Ultra Greek Programing in DIDMCSRA Systems

There are a wide variety of people who use trauma based mind control and programming to meet their desired purposes, from lone wolf predators to cults to governments to the world-wide geopolitical network of Controllers, often called the Illuminati. Each of these have different specialty needs, but they also have overlapping needs. So they have found that the best way to have a customizable system for all of them is to have a basic set of foundational agreements between them. This is where the Greek programming system comes into play.

It works much the same way the public education system works: children start with the basics, and then as they age and develop, they settle into their specialities/skills/talents/advanced training. But there are also different outcomes for different people. Everything from dropping out, to barely graduating, to going to vocational school, to going all the way through graduate school. Because of this, not all intentionally designed systems will have all of the same number of types of programing, nor the same distribution of how many of each type. Some groups of abusers/programmers add in other programming types that are not listed below, but usually these custom-designed groups are directly linked to or started the same way as one of these basic groups. Think of it as a cookbook, and these are the most common basic ingredients (like flour, eggs, milk, sugar, etc). They can be combined in many unique ways to make countless dishes.

Programmed alters are usually given a backstory (a basic personal history and identity, for example “I am a Princess who lives in the Castle”) which includes basic drives/objectives (for example “I must learn how to become a Queen and I must obtain the love of a King/Prince”) and basic skills and beliefs about those skills based on their core programming (for example “To be a good Princess, I must obey those who have Authority over me [My King/My Queen/The Court], I must learn how to be sexually desirable/good, and I must be able to have children to continue The Kingdom.” - which would be based upon Beta programming).

The most common programming categories are Alpha, Gamma, Beta, Delta, Omega, and Theta. These basic categories will be found in almost every trauma based mind control system if their abusers/programmers had enough time (and early enough access in terms of age of the body) to begin basic training. Some survivors are lucky enough to be removed from their abusers before this can be completed, but sadly most are not removed in time because one or more of their immediate family is involved in their abuse/training. These categories are both core/base programming (meaning there will be at least one alter of each type present in the system), and can be a specialty skill (meaning a system was designed to have a high population of this type of alter). Many alters will even have programming from more than one of these categories at the same time (such as a Beta Delta).

ALPHA: Base/Foundation programming, general dissociation skills, blank slates with amnesia barriers, and information attainment, storage, and recall.

GAMMA: Misinformation, obfuscation, denial, confusion, and deflection of outsiders, along with maintenance of internal communication systems, information and asset protection.

BETA: Sexual task performance, sexual and emotional bonding to influence or serve others, performance of drug administration or compromising situations in order to blackmail targets.

DELTA: Weapon skills used for physically protecting assets, targets, or information, including the use of lethal force (either as assassination, self-defense, or body guard type situations). Interrogation tolerance and administration, fugue/automatic task performance (i.e., don’t think, don’t feel, just do this one scripted task until complete or dead), and other soldier-like training (“To Serve and Protect at any Cost”)

OMEGA: Training and preparation to be able to commit suicide on demand, to be a willing sacrifice for a ritual or religious demand, or to suicide due to failing an assignment (seen as a form of protecting the secrets or information contained inside, and protecting or servicing the Family/Cult/Organization which owns them). They have a strong need to honor Family/Religious Bonds (“Death Before Dishonor”) and fear being killed and disgraced if they are seen as traitors (i.e., losing status, losing immortality, losing the protection/membership of the Family/Cult/Organization, and losing the rewards they have been promised in Heaven/Eternal Life/Afterlife).

THETA: Training in religious, esoteric, occult, magic, Dark Arts, and energy work. These alters have very complex belief systems, may have psychic abilities, and often have special powers inside the internal world (such as to program, heal, or remove memories from other alters). Their religious beliefs are often at complete odds with others inside the body who tend to be more traditional/organized religion based such as Christian or Catholic and who may attend regular church services in the outside world.

There are two components of Theta, one of which would be part of the core/base programming, the other is more like Beta or Delta where it is a specific job assignment/skill. The core part of Theta is the system components/structures that maintain the whole internal system, controlling such things as which memories alters are allowed to keep and which ones are put into storage, what data that is allowed to be “known” or must be “hidden” and by what people, if damaged/“killed” alters are to be healed or sent to storage, when new programming scripts are to be triggered inside, and even what outsiders are allowed to access which inside alters (called “access”). Alpha is like the operating system installed on a computer (like Windows or Mac), but Theta is the actual machinery that responds to the operating system and executes it’s commands (the actual computer equipment). Beta, Delta, and Theta are also specific programs/skills, like specific computer applications, which can be added to the operating system (such as Word and Excel). Theta alters are often put in positions of power over others, either as leaders or in a skilled professions that have the ability to interact with the Theta core programming of other alters and the Theta system itself.

Trees, Healers, Programmers, Doctors, Court/Council members, and Undertakers are all common types of alters who are trained to work as Thetas. They fix/repair, control/program, manipulate/enforce/punish, and keep other alters working in line with their own jobs/demands/programming. And they will often tell you that they connect or communicate to others like them “through Theta.” This may appear like a psychic ability, telepathy, long-distance non-verbal communication, or other non-tangible connections between alters (like invisible threads that keep them connected, like Wi-Fi enabled devices being able to communicate on the same network). These Thetas may have also been trained or experimented on to try to develop psychic abilities outside their inner world, such as ESP, Remote Viewing, and Psychic Manipulation.

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monarch-apostate · 1 month ago

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to all the victims of csa who have never told anyone. to all the victims of csa who don't remember, clearly or at all. to all the victims of csa who struggle with understanding if it was "bad enough". to all the victims of child on child sa. to all the victims of csa who are still repulsed to sex or even to all physical touch. to all the victims of csa who don't wish to "overcome" their repulsion to sex or physical touch. to all the victims of csa who freeze, who dissociate, who cry and rage easily. i love you i love you i love you. they don't know you. you know you. trust yourself. trust your body. you decide what to do with what happened. you decide how you feel. keep going

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monarch-apostate · 1 month ago

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the host trying to "turn off" the rest of us will never NOT be funny. why don't ya try putting your brain in some rice next, see if that fixes the issue?

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monarch-apostate · 4 months ago

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Wow we're reading more into this situation and it honestly makes us so sad. UWO was the voice of MK Ultra info on Tumblr for many years which made them going after others so disturbing to us but this is a whole new low. From our system we're so sorry you went through this.

If you flip the first letter of UWO upside down what do you get? nwo. Its bold. The same user who told me nwo is "known to groom" also said he is a "big smoke screen".

What nwo did to Svali was unacceptable as well. Its no wonder he calls me a stalker, they're projecting about how the last woman he doxxed he literally cyber stalked after she rubbed him the wrong way when they "briefly" encountered each other in person, and then doxxed her, called her a liar liar pants on fire, picked apart her stories, and talked about her "body count".

The information being available through "research" (stalking) does not excuse the doxxing. It was malicious and so petty. He could have made all of the same critiques of their material and the same point about the supposed danger her digital activity/ foot print put other survivors at CARE in (Because Oz cares about survivors and that's why he's a bully and doxxes them) without actually publishing her info. He could have given his thoughts about svali misleading or lying to people without "exposing" her info. He should have pointed out that it's available to find without reposting it, that was completely unnecessary.

He seems jealous the way he mentions the attention svali got online, and he's probably projecting calling her a fraud as well. Potentially using her to boost his own platform.

He felt the need to comment that Donald Marshall "has some mental health issues" to dismiss him, because Oz is a mental health advocate.

I tend to have pretty radical views on the nature of consciousness and reality, and the way our world views mental health and the human psyche. The Greek word psyche originally translates to both consciousness/mind and spirit/soul. I think there is a lot of connections to be made and insights to gain, information to be gathered in these things and in the way they present. Larger stories unfolding waiting to be paid attention. There is no room for such alternative thought around Oz.

Oz picked apart Katy/Dylan groves, completely dismissing their experiences which has other external corroboration (csam/ra ring in central texas). Once again seemingly ignoring the tendency for ramcoa survivors to give imperfect information for one reason (or in one way) or another, that Oz themself has written about. He's almost communicating an expectation for survivor's to share perfectly "accurate" information within their own personal experiences, and share it in such a way that meets his own standards. Which goes against basically everything he presents himself to stand for. The actions speak louder.

I won't deny nwo's valuable contributions, and I won't let him use those to skirt accountability. Not everyone with a trauma history behaves the way he does, he can make contributions without being an abuser and shutting others down.

An internet warrior that holds his anonymity as his most valuable asset while ripping that same protection away from others. He's written about how important it is for a survivor who wants to remain active online speaking about their experience and knowledge to stay at least somewhat anonymous. He shows you himself he's not some sympathetic sick puppy who doesn't know any better or is trying their best, he's thought through and calculating. Don't excuse the idiocy and maliciousness as CPTSD or DID, its pure ego. He knows better, he likely gets sick pleasure out of feeling like some machiavellian puppet master pulling the whool over someone's eyes. Save your sympathy for the people he hurts and communities he poisons.

He puts on a guise of being helpful and supportive to gain trust and vulnerability and likely gets egotistical validation from flaunting his arrogance and ability to avoid accountability. Maybe he stays completely anonymous because its more like a weapon for his bullying and grooming. He doesn't want to share his own personal experience, he likes to sit back behind the curtain and pick apart other people.

Then they'll turn around and post about abusive and toxic behaviors, admitting they're sick and have mental health issues as well. To the extremes of eating off the floor and going impatient. Contradictions or something deeper? I'll let you decide. Stay safe.

#-Caleb #UWO #Unwelcome Ozian #Chainless Slaves

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monarch-apostate · 4 months ago

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Tbh I was very avoident of UWO because of the way they attacked Svali Speaks, their disgusting posts about Katy/Dylan Groves, and watching them attack survivors in their mentions. We had a post in our drafts about it we think we may post soon but this situation is new to us.

Unwelcome-ozian is an abuser

Here is a check list of common abuse tactics and Unwelcome ozian's perfect score. Reminder as of writing this the victim is a teenage girl, and was 15 when she began chatting with nwo.

Emotional abuse:

Silent treatment - refusal to communicate.

Gas lighting - playing victim after coercing a teenage girl to tell him more and then ghosting her. He implied he didn't want anything to do with her publicly after privately pushing her to talk to him .

Blame shifting / victim blaming - calling the girl obsessed after he manipulated her and trauma bonded her to them by love bombing and alternating between validating and ignoring her. Ignoring her for weeks and months after asking for updates, and then talking to them for 3 days, promising to read everything, then back to ignoring them despite her pleas to be acknowledged. Then using this trauma to further gas light and harm her by painting her as the aggressor.

Intentionally humiliating a teenage girl - putting her on blast, along with her deep personal traumas and thoughts, intimate details, and identifying information to his follows and the entire internet.

Manipulation:

Calculating - not responding to use the victim's emotional upset against her instead of asking her to stop. Using his followers to dox and humiliate her.

Hypocrisy - wanting others to respect his boundaries while violating other people's boundaries. Wanting others to compasionately consider his condition and mental emotional state while ignoring that of others, or better yet using it to insult and dismiss them.

Excuses - using sympathy for his trauma to avoid responsibility. Avoiding criticism (and growth) by acting as though anyone who takes issues with his behavior are trying to silence him, which is a disgrace to all that is being silenced, and further hypocrisy because he is the one who dismisses and silences so many other survivors.

Threats - saying he will post the (dox) stalkers papers again to another website multiple times after staff removed the content for violating community guidelines. Possibly suggesting he may sue the victim.

Stalking / hoovering - admitting to monitoring the victim's accounts, and saving their posts.

Validation/ supply - the people he is the warmest to are teenage girls who validate and adore him. I say this after speaking to many users. He gets a supply of validation and attention online and likely uses this justify himself and or soothe his extremely low self worth.

Lack of empthy - Cruelty and vengeance in his response. Not caring about the trauma he may have been inflicting or the long term damage to his young victim. Score keeping by looking for payback with a malicious attack on his victims reputation.

Lack of remorse - no accountability or acknowledgement of the pain and damages he inflicts. Instead of changing or growing for the better, this is a pattern continuing to develop and escalate.

Grooming:

Inappropriate boundaries - setting no boundaries on what the teenage girl can say or talk about with him one on one. This intimacy was wildly inappropriate.

Breaking boundaries - pushing her to continue when she wanted to stop.

Inappropriate displays of sexuality - responding to her and encouraging her after she calls him "Daddy", says "I love you", and "another part of me think you could never resist reading what I send you" directly after talking about experiencing sexual feelings. He replied saying he will not reject her

I don't like the pop psychology demonization of NPD, but Unwelcome-ozian himself explained there is a category of abuse specifically classified as 'narcissistic abuse', and this fits his behavior the best. Pedophilic narcissistic abuse.

#Unwelcome Ozian #Svali Speaks #Katy Groves #Dylan Groves #Abuse #Mk Ultra

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