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“you notice everything” yeah babe I was traumatised as a child

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sorry i overreacted i had no idea everything would be fine

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“I hope you fall in love with someone who never lets you fall asleep thinking you’re unwanted.”

— Unknown

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㋡🥀

peaceful..

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I hate that the stock response for "I'm lonely/I feel undervalued by my loved ones/I want a romantic partner" is "well do you value YOURSELF? You need to learn to enjoy being alone!" as if lonely people aren't very intimately familiar with being alone. Self esteem and love are important but they're not substitutes for companionship or friendship or romance and pretending that loneliness is a personal failure that can be fixed by self-improvement feels not only delusional but pretty cruel

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I just want to hold them, to bake their favorite things, to make them feel safe and protected.

I just want to be someone they could rely.

I wish they'd trust me to put everything in my hands, like I do with them.

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the thing about bpd is that you experience trauma/heart break and the emotional intensity that comes along with it never dwindles or goes away. you revisit it 10 years later and it still feels the exact same. it's like you heal but your heart never forgets

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Not me heavily relating to Wanda Maximoff 🤡🤦‍♀️💃

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when you have bpd and you don’t open up to those around you/keep things to yourself, you’re accused of pushing them away. so you try to open up more, tell them how you’re truly feeling, but because it’s so intense, you’re accused of manipulating them. can’t win

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if you’re burned out tell me that instead of just ignoring me bc nothing triggers my bpd like randomly being ghosted

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when will people realise that i dont want to be alone, i don’t enjoy being alone but everyone always leaves no matter what i say or do

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I am waiting for the day when I am happy that I did not die when I wanted to. I wait for the moment when all the pain makes sense and all the scars have been worth it

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having bpd and needing constant reassurance but not asking for reassurance because ur scared of being abandoned but constantly thinking ur being abandoned bc ur not being reassured overall. i feel annoying. i drive myself insane in my head but i won’t ever ask because i feel like i’ll push everyone away, so i don’t say anything, but i still push them away anyway

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“There are times when I am convinced I am unfit for any human relationship.”

— Franz Kafka, Letters To Felice

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“Date someone who gives you chills just by the way they look into your eyes.”

— Unknown