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Current WIP of my favourite boys
#astarion#bg3 astarion#astarion ancunin#bg3 oc#bg3 tav#art wip#bg3#astarion fanart#just relezed this is basically the uppies pose and i totally should have used that for reference instead of making my own life harder :')
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Watched arcane....it's already giving me brain worms...
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So Comicon was so chaotic! 😂 I literally only managed to get Neil's autograph because the lines got all messed up due to organising issues. I was hoping to get Jens but the signal was terrible so my contactless didn't work and I had to book it to get cash so I missed my chance. Oh well, all the more reason to go to the next one! For Neil I was in line for a good few hours. Then they cut the line off and told everyone to leave! Some people had been waiting all day and had priority passes and were super upset. Apparently someone went to Neil directly and he offered to stay past closing to get to everyone which he 100% had no obligation to do. When I did get to see him I was so nervous I was shaking purely out of social anxiety and he took the time out of his day to reassure me and was extremely professional about everything. I gave him my fan art in an envelope and told him it's fine to open it in private as everything seemed really chaotic to me and I was one of the last people. He even gave me a hug which was super sweet. He took the time to individually speak to each person, shaking their hands and talking to them even though he was well past work time. I respect him even more as a professional than I did before.
And absolutely no hate to the con staff, they were just doing as management asked and it must have been a rotten job being the person who had to send people home after they waited for hours.
I think they just booked way to many guests with packed schedules so the sighning/photos/pannels are really short windows to try and fit people in. and only had pay on the day, so there was no cap on the amount of people queuing.
I did however make friends in line and we formed a coven so that was cool 😂😂 I was so exhausted I slept till past dinner today
And so, here is Shadowhearts awkward prom picture face. I was literally so nervous it was all I could do to look at the camera 😂
#bg3#neil newbon#voice acting#comicon#Hes way taller than i thought he was#When im nervous i get a bit of a lazy eye#no i wont explain
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Had an absolute blast on this commission for tumblr.com/takaani 💞💞 love these tow together it was so fun to draw!! 😄
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Got a 6 hour travel tonight for comicon tomorrow but I'm excited! :) I intend to do fan art for more VAs but the ADHD wasn't in alignment so I only got some done for Neil Newbon 😂
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Spawn fans: arguing with Ascended fans.
Ascended fans: arguing with Spawn fans.
Me, a true Astarion Enjoyer:
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❤️ Uppies ❤️ Finished my silly little fan art for Neil Newbon of his muscle mommy BG3 character Bow`ee and her favourite blood sucker☺️
#bg3 astarion#astarion#bg3#astarion ancunin#astarion fanart#neil newbon#im cringe and ok with that#bowee#no big neil
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Getting to meet Neil Newbon soon so im working on fan art of Astarion and his BG3 character 🥰
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I love them <3
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I'm a little bit obsessed with my Tav and will be drawing art of him for the foreseeable future tbh
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Patch 7 dialogue spoiler and a light TW- I definitely need to do more art of these two because they are perfect narrative foils 😭
Karlach- Astarion are you alright? You look lost in thought
Astarion- hmm?, yes I was just thinking about that heart of yours. There are times I would have liked everyone who put thier hands on me to burst into flames...
Karlach- .... I'd trade you if I could...
The one who's touch starved hurts everyone who tries to get close to her and the one who's touch averse feels like he's powerless to say no. Both want what the other has but don't understand the cost. At their core what both of them suffer with is lonelyness and a history that took the right to choose away from them :(
Honestly this is why I love their romance path so much. They have a lot to offer each other.
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Just a little something for fun 😌 really sketchy so she's a little all over the place but it was nice not to think to hard
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I know you generally work fast but I'm curious on how long on average it takes for you to get out a page of ThUG? I haven't had the opportunity to read it yet (it looks SO good) but I'm making the assumption a page is the size of an average print comic style versus webtoon scroll episode length format. Also curious on what short cuts you might take to get them out faster/more efficiently. I'm currently planning a comic in a similar format and am trying to plan my process ahead.
Thank you!
I don't do whole pages in one go (I do all the thumbnails then all the lineart then all the colour) so it's hard to tell exactly how long but maybe around 3-6h per page? Which makes a chapter (25-30 ish pages) take around 150 ish hours. I definitely prefer this to the webtoon format for a number of reasons, one of which being the satisfaction you get seeing a bunch of panels come together versus having to scroll through them separately.
In terms of speed, my entire process is pretty optimised for it, both in comics and outside. I stick to an A5 format and downsize it further (I tend to work with pages at 1000px width and 300dpi) to keep myself from overworking details. If an eye closeup feels tiring to get right or loses proportion, my resolution is too high
I also use textured brushes and leave the lineart more like a clean sketch, which allows me to not only skip straight from thumbnails to it but also to skip work on backgrounds, objects and figures at a certain distance
The main point of comic work is to convey emotions, movement, etc, not to draw everything accurate all the time, and that's probably the biggest lesson I've learned over the past years. You want your art to evolve in a way that means even without a lot of shading/linework/detail the scene gets properly conveyed, imo
Aside from that, I skip work on SFX and just. Write the sounds down or sketch motion lines as basic as they get. That's a stylistic choice but it works for me. And I have a workspace + automated actions + keyboard shortcuts that are all sort of optimised to make me move as little as possible between tasks and screens etc
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⭐ Gods favourite princess ⭐ Another ref sheet for future projects ☺️
Wanted to capture that kinda smug but sweet bratty energy
#bg3#shadowheart#shadowheart bg3#shadowheart fanart#shadowheart baldurs gate 3#bg3 shart#shadowheart art#gods favourite princess#art wip#wip#yes the crown is all over the place because perspective exists and i hate it so lets just pretend its fine
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:*Trigger Warning for Abuse:** An analysis of the nuanced depiction of abuse dynamics in *Baldur's Gate 3*. Please skip if you’re uncomfortable with this topic or you hate long rants <3
**Cazador at the Head of the Table, and His Forced Family, with Astarion as the Scapegoat**
Cazador is one of the best-written abusers in fiction, and Astarion is one of the best depictions of a non perfect survivor. Showcasing how abusers systematically break down their victims in a way that is thoughtful and non-voyeuristic, and how this may effect the victim after.
Astarion often receives criticism for his behavior. Much if it valid. I don’t seek to excuse his actions or speak about him as if he were a real person, But to break down this amazingly written narrative and how his experiences shape his character and a depiction of a non perfect victim. It's great to see actions having consequences in the story and being the driving force in chatecter development and I think it was handled very respectfully
One of the most compelling aspects of Astarion's story is the depiction of the "scapegoat" abuse tactic. Where a caregiver selects one child as the primary target of ridicule and abuse. Astarion says, "He took a special pleasure in my pain. He said my screams sounded sweetest." Often, the scapegoat is the child who most reminds the abuser of themselves when they were most vulnerable, or has similarities to the abuser of the parent or even someone they witnessed being abused when they were a child. The abuser uses this child to demonstrate the consequences of disobedience, and as a way of bonding the other children against the scapegoat, often by forcing the other children to engage in abuse themselves. The parent will inflict the trauma they were exposed to when they were most vulnerable on their child in a twisted way to re-gain their own power and autonomy buy projecting it onto someone elses. Acting out scenarios where they felt weak but now they are the one with all the power.
Cazador's tactics of infantilization are particularly gut-wrenching. He calls Astarion a "stupid little boy" and forces him to call him "father," undermining his belief in his ability to make adult decisions on his own while simultaneously also forcing him into adult work and physical abuse. A way to break down his self esteem and take away his autonomy. This adds another level to Cazador's twisted, intimate abuse.
It's evident when you ask if Astarion called Cazador "master" in the bedroom, and he reacts negatively. It is also implied in the dialogue, "One final thrust... and I'll be rid of you..." as Astarion stands over Cazador, ready to stab him with a phalic symbol and Cazador in a submissive position.
In a Shadowheart playthrough, we see how Astarion seeks someone to follow because he doesn’t know how to think for himself. Auntie Ethel remarks that he misses his chains, and he admits he doesn't know how to make his own decisions. In Astarion's dream, you learn one of Cazador's rules is that Astarion must stay by his side unless told otherwise. We also see that Cazador regularly dined with Astarion, serving him putrid rats. He says "I have spent two centuries with You, and that should be punishment enough," which is quite an intimate insult. In non of these are the other spawn mentioned. He also mentions his sarcasm and jokes, something you wouldn't really think Cazador would permit. This suggesting an intense, twisted co-dependency. A lot of time spent alone together. As what? His child? His slave? His lover? It's sickening. Cazador seemed to want to fill every potential key roll in Astarions life. This is actually pretty common in adults relationships.
The extent of physical abuse is further revealed when Astarion sees the mad doctor in the House of Healing and remarks, "he's just like Cazador." The narrator says, "If you're late, he will flay you... again," and Astarion states, "Sometimes he would have us submit to torture. Other times he would have us torture ourselves."
So, why does Cazador do all this? Beyond sadistic pleasure and rituals off higher power, I believe it's driven by a fear of abandonment. His goal is to strip Astarion of any autonomy so he would return even if freed. When speaking to Cazador alone, he's convinced Astarion will come back because he cannot think for himself. Cazador wants to be the center of Astarion's life, and truly believes he is. A narcissist needing to see himself reflected in others, he required Astarion by his side to validate his awful existence. If Astarion leaves, Cazador feels he's losing an extension of himself. That Astarion is his and his alone to kill.
I also believe he genuinely wants to play house. That he wants a picture perfect family. We don't know much about Cazador before the game, only that he was from a vampire family. That his niece refused to partake. It's quite clear he felt like he was missing something in his family. We know his master committed acts of cruelty far beyond what he did to his own spawn, impaling him for ten years and draining his friend Infront of him. Surly a year of solitude is like being sent to your bedroom without supper compared to that? By Cazadors logic, he's far kinder than he was ever treated. He's been kinder and more loving than his own family. His children should be grateful that he protected them from what he went through. He believes his children are spoiled and if anything he has been to soft. After all, he gave thim his families birth right far above their station, eternal life. He gave them a family that will never abandon them. What more could they want?
And if course, we as plays see this cycle continues with AA, who says he will be a far kinder master he'd never make his dear lover eat rats. They wouldn't be his child, more a pampered pet. Compared to how Astarion was treated, what more could they want?
And how very true to live that an abuser will preach about how much worse they had things and how lucky their victims are. How soft they must be to complain.
This gives us a clear picture of Astarion at the start: someone with a fragile sense of self, preferring to see others tortured rather than be the one in the chair, and looking for someone to follow. He'll fake a smile to keep them around. While this doesn't excuse his cruelty, it explains it; Astarion is free for less than a day when you meet him. There are no perfect victims, and unlearning brainwashing takes time. Reducing Astarion to "evil" or "good" overlooks the complexity of a character who could become either an abuser or a liberator.
What I appreciate most is that Astarion's past doesn't vanish when Cazador dies; he still carries the scars, but in a positive playthrough, there is hope. Astarion has the chance to do better, starts making his own choices, and sometimes gets it wrong.
Crucially, the abuse is never voyeuristic. It is always shown from the survivor's perspective, focusing on its effects on their lives. It's always clear when a player choice disrespects his growth and autonomy. Cazador and Astarion are never framed to titillate or as a mind of grousome special to the viewer, unlike in shows like *13 Reasons Why* or Ramsey Bolton in *Game of Thrones*. The game handles the topic with a lot of care. Infact the only time we see Cazador in person is when we have the chance to stop him. We never see Astarion subjected to something we can alter in some way.
Also, we do hear of Astarions bravery in trying to defy his master and save people. Unfortunately as in the game and real life, people don't always have a choice. Still, in a good ending Astarion can choose to try and help others who have been hurt and use what he has learned to make real change.
The reasons why Cazador is the way he is are another rant entirely. But while I hate him as a person, I adore him as an antagonist. How can a character be written to be pathetic and terrifying at once?
**TL;DR:** *Baldur's Gate 3* presents a complex, nuanced abuse narrative, executed beautifully. Many people overlook or disregard Astarion as an excellent depiction of survival in my opinion.
#bg3#astarion#bg3 astarion#astarion fanart#astarion ancunin#spawn astarion#cazador szarr#bg3 cazador#rant#tw abuse#writing analysis
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My first ever Astarion commission completed! it's been so long since I've done anything like this so I'm just testing the waters. I'm thankful for the chance and allowing me to post it <3 ☺️
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