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Hnay tyi cuxng k ngur ddc, nhuwng tui k dams goji cho banj

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I was shy when you typed vk ck in game and now you're just typing non sense

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There's been emptiness. We could barely say a word when we're together. Most of our calls are just 2 people staring blankly at each other and 6 minutes later we started a game. Or a quest to search the other's skin. I do feel loved and relieved in this relationship, but what do couples talk about when they talk about couples?

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A million places in the world but there is no place for her to hide.

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12.11.2023

They are coming back. This time I promise to keep them, cause they are precious

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Are we meant to be?

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April 2023

Hey,

the relationship's been up and down. i don't know what hold me back but I am here, still.

From July, I've been busy with work. Like in August, I taught that class which me me nervous every Tuesday afternoon. A few months later, I taught the same class on every Sunday morning. Was worth it. I realized maybe I should stop teaching people.

In September, I met people whom I have had feelings with, and are still in touch. Years later I'd probably not be able to recall them from their names, but now, Thinh, and Tu Quynh. I hope they won't disappear from my life, like all the others.

Currently I'm watching Insterstella. sad. as. hell.

The dad went missing on his mission of saving the Earth. left his daughter alone. It's like adding salt to a wound cause Hieu has been missing. where have you been and where are you now?

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Third person

Well it appears to me that there is a third person who he talked to about a year ago. This year, on the first day of July, he sent a message to that person. 

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Superficial

Is every and any relationship just as superficial as mine? I don’t feel like I’m connected with this person, though we’ve done a few personal and secret stuff. They do know me and the social side of me, but never have we ever had deep talks like those I used to have with Lucas about life or the fiction, as well as those with the contribution of the first virtual friend from Mobile Legends. 

Things we talk are mostly about daily lives and activities. We do argue about the people on the streets. And that person surfed their phone while they were with me.

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2.7.22

wow i wrote a lot and it’s all gone. nice internet.

so basically anh Manh checked my profile tonight. I actually felt like missing Tuc. A few more people knew my relationship status. 

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Is it my problem?

I’m pretty sure people forgot me already. But I keep checking on them. They were online at around 2h30 am last Saturday. But why do I care?

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A month after

So that was a breakup. Not until a month after did I realize that was a relationship. Not until a month after did I feel like losing something I liked.

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Binh Bong Bot and The Beatles

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23/1/2022

I have a nice day. And there was dirty talk, yeah.

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20/1/2022

I think it’s time I disappear.

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7/1/2022

Dạo này cứ muốn nghe nhạc của Lorde. Và sáng nay dậy sớm. Hứa kh đi Cokernut nữa vì mất đi cái vắng vẻ yên tĩnh hồi năm ngoái rồi.

Hết học kì rồi sao Mai chưa sửa xong thesis?

Also, people keep asking if I am okay. Do they think I could just tell them and get better?

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6/1/2022

I made 2 phone calls and a small chat with Hoang Ling yesterday, which were considered achievements for me these days.

Today I woke up at 11pm, not my goal. However, I went to the dentist for the appointment of a month ago. 

I drove Ut to his extra sessions’ class. And I had no appetite.