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I’m not afraid that I have lost my spark.

I’m afraid that I won’t ever get it back.

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I’m so tired of everything I’m tired I’m everyone it hurts. When will this end

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I wish I wasn’t scared of death… I don’t see a way out of this hell… I’m trying no one sees just how much I have tried. And if my efforts are really not good enough then why am I so exhausted now…?

I want this all to stop

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Made lim jugyeong from true beauty the webtoon! I have her as an avatar for myself!

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The Ugly Superpower

I came across this blog and was hoping to find some relief or support as a fellow ugly girl who also suffers day to day. Many of the posts are very negative which is completely warranted given the experiences relayed. But I wanted to try sharing how I’ve managed to turn being ugly into a superpower in hopes that it might help anyone else feel even a little better.

Hello ugly people. I am an ugly woman…

My hair & lips are thin, my skin scarred, my teeth are crooked, my eyebrows nonexistent and my chin a nightmare.

I had intense dysphoria all through highschool & long after graduation. I would fantasize about being able to slough my skin away, that I’d finally somehow be released from the awful prison I found myself permanently trapped in.

Boys would ask me out on the regular. As a joke. It was a long game of chicken for them, a risky dare made fun with the threat of my possible acceptance hanging over them. I quickly became mute because I couldn’t tell who was being sincere anymore & just stopped engaging entirely.

My bad teeth mad me intensely phobic of eating in any public space. Smiling was right out and I always ‘volunteer’ to take photos because I got emotionally tired of always placing myself on the end of group photos so that I wouldn’t 'ruin’ the whole photo or so that people could crop me out later if they wished.

I didn’t get a 'glow-up’ which broke my heart. I felt like I went straight from shitty puberty to old ugly adult with no good in between.

My skin was bad, because I routinely picked at it due to anxiety & because of my appearance I frequently trapped myself at home; too afraid to go out and be seen.

I basically couldn’t live.

All because I felt so heart-wrenchingly disgusting. The fury I felt over not being able to exist made me want to pull out all my hair & scream. And I realized that that was what bogged me down the most. I wanted to just BE. To just be allowed to exist without feeling anxiety or shame over it.

It took a really long time, but I realized that ugly actually did this for me. Being ugly made me free.

Hear me out.

I realized that I could do whatever I wanted as long as I owned it. Accept that you’re not perfect. Accept it not as a heavy burden upon your shoulders, but rather as if it’s just a gentle fact of life. Water is wet, the sky is blue and you’re not perfect. Oh well!!

I can do whatever I want to my hair. If I’m already ugly it doesn’t matter. I can choose whatever kind of clothes I want to wear because I can’t make myself look worse. I no longer rely on the opinion of others to dictate my sense of self value. What are they going to say that I haven’t already heard or thought about myself?? It becomes pointless white noise. I’m ugly?? What else is new!! You can’t touch me!!!

Why would I value the opinion of someone who thinks nasty things about others simply based on how they look anyways? I don’t. You think I’m going to let some rando boy-man decide my value for me based on whether I get his chub up or not?? Lmfao no???. Goooodbyee!! If you’re ugly no matter what u do, THEN NOTHING MATTERS, U CAN DO ANYTHING GIRL!!!. You’re free. Do whatever you want.

THis is how owning yourself and your 'uglyness’ can make you a kind of bulletproof. You can make yourself untouchable.

This is not to be confused with pessimism. Being ugly has taught me many beautiful things too. Like how fragile the human heart is and how to always treat others with love, respect and empathy regardless of how they appear. Being ugly ensures that no one will ever love me for superficial or shallow reasons. Being ugly means that I can be my true and authentic self with no fear because I’m already the oddball out. And more beautifully, it taught me that my friends love me for earnest, wholesome reasons, like that I make them laugh or because I’m loyal. Being ugly made me able to discern true friendship. And it’s taught me bravery. It’s fucking scary just being yourself. But I’ve lived through shit so now I know how to be brave.

And more importantly I am allowed to just Be. You’re allowed to just Be.

It’s not easy. It takes years of daily affirmation. I still occasionally get anxiety when I leave the house. I still have to remind myself that I’m entitled to be in public spaces. Picking clothes is still painful at times but also more fun at times now too. And I still cannot control how people act & I can’t change beauty based favoritism in society. It’s shitty, but if someone judges me based on how I appear that’s on them not me, it’s their loss, I move on, because I am untouchable.

Anywyas, sorry this was so long, all my love to the ugly people reading this, go be your funky, authentic, ugly self with your whole heart; the worlds your oyster and you’re the weird misshapen pearl.

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recontextualizing fry and leela as an annoying but earnest twitch streamer and his inexplicably hot and intimidating girlfriend

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WOAH where can i play as the raven avatar?

I had to port her into vrchat myself there used to be a teen titans avatar world but it got deleted:(

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Futurama actually did a really great episode that serves as criticism for the ‘cure-all’ effect that so many authors/writers like to use.

The episode starts with Leela going to a reunion at her old orphanage. She remembers how everyone used to pick on her because of her eye. It turns out that everyone’s still picking on her, even though she’s a successful captain and they’re all bums. One of the guys who used to pick on her when she was younger is the only one to stand up for her. The guy tells her that he’s a surgeon and can give her two eyes. Leela excitedly accepts the offer, saying that it’s her one chance to finally be normal. Fry is against the surgery and tells her that she’s already beautiful the way she is. Leela has the surgery anyway and soon dates the surgeon. The surgeon keeps reminding her that she is completely normal. When things get serious, the two decide to adopt a child. Leela’s heart goes out to a girl with an ear on her forehead. Yet the surgeon dismisses this and says that there are plenty of normal children that they can choose from. Leela’s insistent and then this conversation happens:

Adlai: Oh, alright. If you really want that one, I can give her an operation to make her acceptable.

Leela: She doesn’t need an operation! She’s fine the way she is!

Adlai: Oh, and I suppose you were fine the way you were?

Leela: Damn right I was!

Fry: Yay!

Leela: Shut up, Fry. Now look, Adlai. I’m proud to be different. And I just wished I’d realized that when I was her age.

She then has the surgeon put her eye back the way it was.

And this is so important to me!

So many abled authors, even great ones like J.K. Rowling, think that they’re doing something good when they say that the disabilities in their world would be cured. It’s so refreshing to actually see a show that points out that the character don’t have to be cured - that they’re fine the way they are!

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“I’m afraid, but that doesn’t mean I can’t fight back.”

— Raven, Teen Titans Episode “Fear Itself”

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Do you have an OF? If so, would definitely love to see some pics of you giving a blowjob and maybe you getting your tight butthole stretched out with a big fat cock. Just something like that. Like getting your face covered in jizz or getting creampied. At least a blowjob would be great to see. Anal would be the best to see the though. Make it a gangbang though so all your holes can get pounded.

Bruh where on my blog gives you the impression I got an OF? Sit your ass down and go to pornhub. It’s free fucker.

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🌸NO FACE 🪙🎭

I found this stunning art and turned it into gif, so it become more cuter 🥰

With fully respect to the owner 🙏❤️