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Here, enjoy this meme, you five people out there who will get it

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Have you ever thought about losing your brother?

me vs. making webweaves on dying and family. really this was just an excuse to think about killing flies.

Killing Flies, Michael Dickman | Separation, W.S. Merwin | Eurydice, Ocean Vuong | It, Stephen King | Winnie-the-Pooh, A.A Milne | Fading Kitten Syndrome, ROAR | Quote via. Maurice Sendak | A Meeting, Wendell Berry | Anguish, August Friedrich Schenck | West Wind I, Mary Oliver | Planet of Love, Richard Siken | Quote via. C.C, Aurel | Oats We Sow, Gregory and the Hawk | The Living to the Dead, Käthe Kollwitz | Quote via Fortesa Latifi | Antigonick, Anne Carson | Killing Flies, Michael Dickman (cont.)

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So after stalling watching kdramas (mainly because I've been busy watching animes and reading book novels on the side), I have finally completed watching Welcome to Samdalri.

As people kept comparing this k-drama to another k-drama with somewhat a similar premise (both happened in Jeju), I urge you not to. For me though, Welcome To Samdalri is a healing drama. If you feel burn out, exhausted or restless, I think this is a perfect k-drama for that. Also, though it felt like it is promoted as a romance comedy or melodrama romance, I think it also showcases love, not just in the romantic sense, but also in friendships, family and community.

So, if you are still reading this part of this post, just warning you that there might be spoilers ahead.

What really piqued my interest about this k-drama is that both protagonists are almost on their 40s and it's rarely that we see romantic leads in this age group. Also, because the story itself does not solely focus on their romance but also their individuality as their characters.

For Shin Hye Sun's Cho Sam Dal, she is such a complex character (probably why I see a lot of people criticizing her character). The reason that I said this was because initially, they've showed Sam Dal as ambitious, wanting to be a successful photographer in the mainland (or as a Dragon rising from the small stream). I think this is why some people misunderstood her character as it might come off as somehow haughty or proud. Then, comes the fake news of her abuse of power and downfall leading her to retreat back her hometown.

When she came back, we then see her playful banter with Ji Chang Wook's Cho Yong Pil and though they were exes, you could see that they were once friends, childhood friends to be exact. Everyone in their community tried to separate them from each other as it might be awkward considering they were ex lovers but the funny thing was somehow, those two kept on meeting each other (maybe because they are neighbors, i dunno). But I think you could see that Cho Yong Pil is still smitten with Cho Sam Dal. Also that, even amidst the rumors of abuse of power, Chi Yong Pil believes Cho Sam Dal could never have done that because he vouchers for her character, because he knows her so well.

But what made me say that Cho Sam Dal is a complex character was shown around episode 5 and 6. From here, there was this question about Cho Sam Dal about what was the reason for her to return to her hometown if she was innocent. What made her go home. We then see her confronting her assistant who claimed about Sam Dal's abuse of power and that all of it was a lie and even Sam Dal know it but Sam Dal can't stop thinking that maybe she have abused her assistant without knowing that she was abusing her. We then see that though proud (in a sense that Sam Dal really knew she is a talented photographer) and ambitious, Sam Dal is kindhearted (which Yong Pil vouched for) and perhaps someone who easily succumbs to guilt, if people blamed her for something even though she is innocent, she might blame herself also.

This was also shown when it was revealed that the reason Sam Dal broke up with Yong Pil was because she finds herself faulty as to Yong Pil's relationship with his father Sang Tae. Still, I see people commenting that that was not enough reason to break up with someone but I guess they never know that Sam Dal really loved Yong Pil to the point she was willing to love him from afar if it means Yong Pil and his father would live together. (I think this was similar in how people questioned Orpheus love for Eurydice when Orpheus looked back to see Eurydice behind him as they exited the underworld).

Also, I really loved the fact that Sam Dal urge Yong Pil to pursue his dreams l, and makes him realize he mighy regret it if he didn't puruse it and says that Yong Pil have always supported him, why can't she do it for him.

Anyways, that's all that I could retain from my original thoughts about this kdrama. Also, that, this kdrama shows that even if we fail even when we're older or when we were supposed to be successful, you always have the time to do better, just relax and breathe.

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The four horsemen of genders

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Totally unrelated but might be similar, I have been thinking about this post when I finished watching Kiki's Delivery Service. I know they're teenagers and really really young but I can't help but think how Tombo seemed to fancy or love flying that when he saw Kiki flying, he was so enamored by her. And I kept thinking how Kaz love magic and how Tombo love flying and that somehow both of them had been enamored by someone who embodied their ideal fascination and I can't help but think is this kind of a love manifestation.

thinking about how, as a child, kaz’s favorite trick seemed to be watching something disappear, and then he grew up and fell in love with a girl who could vanish into thin air, and how we’re told that when he looks at inej, he feels like a boy again and believes that there’s still magic in the world. imagine loving magic all your life, and then discovering that magic loved you too.

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Is there a word that’s a mix between angry and sad

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I've seen a lot of people say how hilarious it is that the Crows feel like they can trust Kaz with their wildest secrets because he's probably seen an done worse, and I fully agree...which is such an extra L for the guy Kaz dropped off the building lmao

It's like...

Nina: "I've falsely accused my crush of being a slaver"

Kaz, wiping the blood off his gloves after he literally just ripped a man's eye out: "Haha nice."

Jesper: "I have so many debts that my father might lose the farm"

Kaz: "I beat a man to death with his own bone once."

Wylan: "I can't read :("

Kaz: "Then?? Hire someone who can?? I can't walk properly, was I NOT supposed to get a cane I can bust peoples' kneecaps with??"

Inej: "I KILLED someone!"

Kaz: "LOL, tell me about it. Wait why are you crying."

Random asshole: "There's a girl in the Menagerie that will do anything for me because she'll die if I tell on her"

Kaz: "What the fuck is wrong with you"

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This is just a random post, totally unrelated to fandoms and political stances that I sometimes share in this app but I just want to vent out something.

I just turned 25 this month and the more I stay on living in my current state, the more I realize that it's not laziness but rather restlessness, particularly of the future that has been stopping me lately from living. I've been feeling stagnant for the past few years, even before the pandemic and I think it's because of two reasons. One, that I always felt like I'm going to die early and would not reached my adulthood and second is because whilst living, I spend all my energy on survival mode.

There were a lot of difficult things that have happened for the past years for me, and I felt bad that I get to complain and vent out these frustrations while others are still suffering.

I'm scared of myself that one day, when I'm much, much older, I'll have that idea to finally end myself (just like how Virginia Woolf did) or that I'll go Plath's style.

I don't think I want to live. Every small win that I had for the past years feels like it doesn't amount to something. And I felt like I have been doing this all wrong. And even if I start from scratch, I might have it wrong again. I just really feel like that a lot. I can't be strong anymore.

I just feel utterly hopeless lately. I felt like this is where I'll be, forever. Stagnant, unmoving, just here.

I just want good things to happen to me too, is that difficult to wish upon?

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When you just want to eat your cookies but the boy who calls you an investment needs you to get a job done.

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-Kiersten White, The Chaos of Stars

Kristen Bell and William Jackson Harper as Eleanor Shellstrop and Chidi Anagonye in The Good Place (2016-2020), created by Michael Schur

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If you love Eleanor&Chidi (The Good Place) and you want reblog or like,this is the link of my reblog couples :)

thank you!

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"So, take notes, Butcher Biden: The ancestors of the Ireland that you claim to be from disown you. Keep our country out of your mouth. And as for von der Leyen (President of the European Commission), and genocidal Germany with your words and deeds supporting Israel in the ICJ: Not in our name! The people of Europe stand with Palestine and with South Africa."

Clare Daly - Irish Politician and Member of the European Parliament - 16/02/2024

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"So, take notes, Butcher Biden: The ancestors of the Ireland that you claim to be from disown you. Keep our country out of your mouth. And as for von der Leyen (President of the European Commission), and genocidal Germany with your words and deeds supporting Israel in the ICJ: Not in our name! The people of Europe stand with Palestine and with South Africa."

Clare Daly - Irish Politician and Member of the European Parliament - 16/02/2024

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Since it has been so long since I read any book from the PJO universe (including HOO series and TOA), I have a hot take regarding the so long saga of people comparing who is stronger: Percy or Jason.

They are both strong, BUT even I would have to agree that Percy is way more stronger than Jason. But that doesn't mean that if they are given the chance to fight, Jason would lose quickly. I think if they fight to death, Jason would lose but that doesn't mean he won't be able to hurt Percy as much.

Basically, my hot take is that their difference in how they cultivate and practice their skills in fighting. Jason had been trained since he was a toddler. Percy is trained when he was twelve. You'd think that being the first to train, Jason would have higher chance of winning a fight with Percy but that's not the case. I think, one of the key differences with Percy and Jason is that Jason was already strong at a young age, like he surpassed a lot of strong people already which meant there was no much room for improvement while Percy, on the other hand, develop and continuosly improving on his skills. If they had fought like around when they are both 13 or 14, I think Percy would definitely lose, because Jason was already at his maximum strength whereas Percy is strong, sure, but there's a lot more room for improvement.

Also, I also think what makes Percy stronger than Jason is that Percy fights and won't let himself be killed so he can protect his loved ones whereas Jason fights and would die if that meant he could protect his loved ones. Which, coincidentally, led to Jason's death.

Anyway, I might changed my mind here after I actually reread the series. Anyway, this is just an opinion of my own.

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Thank you @jdkarkis and everyone who got me to 10 reblogs!

Thoughts after watching Eternals (and my personal character breakdown of each Eternals member) *contains spoilers

So after days of watching and rewatching ETERNALS, these are thoughts and kinda like a character breakdown of the 10 eternals in the movie

Ajak - so as we all know, Ajak is the leader and thus the prime eternal sent on earth. i liked her character as she is really leading the group and at the same time she is like the den mother of the group. she is like a den mother in a way that she watches over the other eternals but at the same time you can see her leadership on the group as she manages each of their powers (like how Ajak told Phastos during the babylon scene that his invention were too soon, or how she told ikaris during the 1521 part that he doesn't get to say whatever he suggested that time and that he should know his place as she, Ajak, was still a leader). I think, in a way, she chose Sersi to replace her because Sersi loved humanity and would understand and would arrived at the same decision to save humanity from the emergence. All in all, I liked her but I guess I find it a little lacking because she died earlier in the film so there's no further exploration on her personality although she has a great character to begin with.

Gilgamesh - okay, to be honest, i was a little pissed that he died like in the middle of the movie because i thought he'd have more screentime but then again I remember that near to the end scene where the eternals (phastos, thena, makkari) have to fight ikaris and i think gilgamesh was killed earlier because i definitely think that Gilgamesh would match Ikaris strength. I think, personally, Ikaris would lose if he had to fight Gilgamesh. What I like about Gilgamesh was he was strong but there is something about his strength and manliness that didn't feel misogynistic as opposed to most strong males portrayals (see Ikaris but later on that). I also like how he jokes but when you got him to talk seriously (like how he talk to Sersi about her problem talking to Arishem, or when he volunteered to take care of Thena). I also like his relationship with Thena, like they are like an old married couple and sure they just hold hands but I guess because gilgamesh and thena are both fighters, plus if you really think about it, thena is suffering from PTSD (considering she's a soldier that has survived a lot of wars, think of how it damages or breaks someone), I think thena's afraid of intimacy (given that she's used to fighting all the time plus it's like she's always wearing an armor or is ready to fight). If you really think about it, Gilgamesh is husband material to Thena considering that he cooks for her and he took care of her plus he was the only person Thena opened up when she doubts herself if she can still fight again. And that is why I think that Gilgamesh and Thena are romantically involved.

Thena - need i say more on this character. i mean, i think we could all agree that she is really one of the greatest female character as she is portrayed as strong but vulnerable because of what the horrors she must have witnessed and remembered on other planets. like i said earlier, i love her relationship with Gilgamesh I mean come on, the way she smiled as she looks at him when they were eating on the australia dessert or Gilgamesh is the only person that could calm her down or the part where she nudges him when he fell asleep when they were in the amazon. plus i saw this photo on twitter wherein they seemed to cut a scene of thena and gilgamesh who looks like shopping for fabrics, gods i wished they released that scene

Kingo - I loved his sense of humor and how it was incorporated in the film. but it weirded me when he didn't joined the other eternals in fighting against Ikaris, kinda makes you think if he doesn't just want to fight Ikaris or if he wanted Tiamut to live. but i guess it's more on the former as I think that even Ikaris betrayed the other eternals, Kingo still looks up to him as their leader on combat plus he respects Ikaris very much. Although I can't help but think that maybe he's gay or bisexual atleast because of what he commented when he saw Sprite watching Ikaris saying that he likes to watch him too. but i don't know, although i wish he'd have more depth on his character, i find his character lacking something ( i dunno why or what is that). or maybe because he kinda reminds me of a boy/child who's always excited about everything.

Sprite - I applaud the actress who portrayed this because Sprite did seem to be an adult stuck in a child's body. although tbh, i didn't really like her. hopefully to see more to her character on the next film. Also, on the last part when she was made to age or to be human, does she still retains her power or is she just a mere mortal (because when Arishem got the other eternals remaining on earth, she wasn't included).

Phastos - i really liked his character development in the film like at first he doesn't want to associate himself with the humans but it turns out that he'll have a family of his own in the present. plus i like that even though he is more of a thinker, he doesn't back down fighting off Ikaris at the fight scene. like ohmygods, i like how he uses his inventions and tools and how he contained Ikaris. I hope to see more to this character in the future.

Ikaris - I read this tweet or post i think that Ikaris is similar to Homelander (the boys) but i think that's not true and this is why. Ikaris is loyal to Arishem, which is safe to say that he's like how people who joined cults are devoted to their leaders (i know this is a weird comparison but this is the one that i could think of). This meant that whatever Ikaris does, he does it for Arishem, robbing him of his free will. As shown at the last part of the film where he killed himself because he failed the mission that Arishem gave them, we can see how Ikaris feels, like he is indebted to Arishem for existing. But also, you can see his free will being shown bit by bit, like how he felt guilty for murdering ajak, how gilgamesh died for him and when he reluctantly kills sersi. because of too much guilt and feeling as a failure himself to Arishem, he decided to perish like if he couldn't exist for Arishem's, how could he bear existing.

Sersi - to be honest, i find something lacking in her character, i don't know what it is but here's a little breakdown of what i think about her. I think, initially, she never completely moved on from Ikaris but by the end, I guess she and Ikaris had a closure, which finally enabled her to moved on. i honestly don't know where to go from here because her character is an empath and she is powerful, if she knew ho to cultivate her powers just like Phastos did. i think she could be a better character.

And of course I saved my ship for last:

Makkari - i wished she had more screen time. like i loved her character and her chemistry with druig plus the fight scene like Kingo is afraid they'll face off Ikaris but Makkari and Thena wasn't. I wished she had more screen time in a sense that I hope to see her interact with people/humans (although maybe it's how her character was built too, i dunno). also i can't help but think that in the movie, druig translated that makkari can sense vibrations which means that she can sense when someone or something is making noise but by how far? like is it just near her or like even from miles away? i think it's the former because if she knew that druig was alive, she wouldn't feel so emotional at the last part reuniting with him. anyways, hope to see more of her in the next eternals film.

Druig - okay, so i saw this post or tweet i think that says that when druig talks to makkari, even though makkari can understand him, druig constantly signs which is sweet and i mean i druig can hear makkari's thoughts when she's signing language, it's endearing how he looks at her like ohmygods #drukkari ship forever. but anyway, this thought bothered me: if druig can hear everyone's thoughts because of his mind control, does it mean that when the eternals visited him in the amazon, he already knew ikaris had killed ajak? like i feel that druig is taunting ikaris to admit what ikaris had done, like druig is waiting for he right moment to sprang it up to the other eternals. i hope to see more to his character and his relationship to makkari on the next films.

anyways, that's all, if you reach this bottom part reading what's above, thank you and if you have anything you wonder about eternals, why don't we talk about it? huerhuer

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merry christmas

jesus was a palestinian jew

the birthplace of jesus, bethlehem, was raided today

bethlehem cancelled christmas celebrations this year for the first time

lebanon was also bombed today, and has been continuously bombed for the past 79 days

there were jews, muslims, and christians living together in peace in palestine before zionism

there are still christians and churches in palestine, including in gaza, and many churches in gaza have been bombed

many zionists are violent and discriminatory towards christians

about 10,000 children have been killed in gaza since october 7th

free palestine. ceasefire now

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#putting the ‘insane’ in ‘insanely hot’