miscellanousregret

[miscellanousregret]

Is it my fault?

Is it my fault that things don't go as planned?

I've been following your rules the best that I can

I've never strayed too far

didn't pursue my own dream

Your rules and your dreams were all that I know

I'm not too smart nor am I strong

Yet I followed them all with barely no wrongs

And yet I saw some things that I want to see

I didn't know how to pursue

Cuz I know only you

You disliked what I liked and yet tried to support

But one wrong and you're all red and burning

I don't know what I should do now.

I'm trying the best that I can

But things had gone askew

I don't know who I am

Is it my fault I can't fulfill your dream?

Is it my fault life seems to have other plans?

Is it my fault that I seem to rely only you?

You who gave me the sun

Yet burned me to ashes

You who gave me the sea

Yet drown me in my sorrows

I'm not sure anymore

So please tell me what you think

Is it my fault that I'm like this?

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# Goodbye My Friend

We met a person whom we thought would make this duo a trio.

Fun-loving and beautiful. She matched with you in every way I couldn't.

You both likes dresses. I like jeans. You both wear high heels. I wear sneakers. You both like shopping. I like gaming.

Yet, I thought to myslef: “We are a wonderful as we are”

And as time grew a distance was made. I didn't think much of it as you still gave me that smile I know so much.

You spent more time with the other girl than with me, your best friend.

Soon, words were spread.

Words that slandered you.

Words that hurt you.

Words you thought I said.

Lies were spread and you believed them.

I wanted to explain myself. I wanted to tell you that it wasn't me.

But you didn't even give me a chance.

Without a glance my way, you shoved me off and left with her.

Leaving me to fend for myself.

It hurts.

It hurts that you hated me. It hurts that you wished for me to never exist.

And it hurts that you kept in touch with the person who truly slandered you. The person who backstabs you.

I wish I could protect you from her, but my heart is too broken to see straight.

I wish I could help you. But I feel so numb from the pain you made.

Now, there is nothing more for me to wish than to see you leave and never come back.

After endless night of tears and heartbreak. I want nothing to do with you.

Even if one day, you realized what you did. I won't be there to wait for you.

I gave my whole heart to you. And you threw it away without a glance.

Never again will I trust you.

Never again will I give myself so easily.

Its time for us to end.

Its time for me to say...

Goodbye, My friend.

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Goodbye my friend

Part I

All I have ever known was you. My best friend since the beginning of time.

We laughed; we fought, we played; we cried.

All those times, I figured we would always be together. That you know me just as much as I know you.

But then tragedy stroke...

A sentence I spoke without a thought, never made with ill intentions.

You didn't even ask for my side of the story. You believed on someone else. You left me up instead of talking to me. You insulted me, when I tried to explain.

The burning pain in my heart resided inside. Tears flow down like waterfalls.

I am a mess.

I thought of you with all my heart. I loved and cherished you. I think about the memories we made and wished it was all a nightmare.

But reality is often cruel.