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geeze it's been a while since I used this side blog, there are a lot of things that changed. in me, in my life, in my environment --

for starters, im now living w/ my gf. we're renting, still, but it feels so nice to have our own place.

i have an official ADHD diagnosis; I am changing my meds tho cause the first one thay gave me was doing shit but it felt good. like, really good.

after a year (while she was in a relationship) I came back to having sex with my crush (never alone of course). It only happened once, but I don't think I'll ever been happier. She drives me crazy.

I discovered I'm a sadist. Like, big time. And that's part of the reason my crush drives me crazy, cause she's such a masochist it makes something inside of me want to just destroy her agakhajhaks

Sex toys are still my primary source of serotonin, and I had my eyes set on a magic want that's on sale on my fave website, i just know I'll give in and buy it. Tbh, sex in general is my primary source of serotonin.

I still haven't came back to writing. It's a work in progress, but knowing me it's still a good sign that I didn't loose hope completely. I'm still fighting, that has to count as progress.

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I gotta say, so much queer intra-community horseshit dropped off my shoulders when I decided to adopt a firm policy that everyone is the expert in their own identity, the single most knowledgeable person about what it's like to live life in their own skin, and that if someone describes their experience in ways I find contradictory or paradoxical I should do them the courtesy of presuming that they are striving to express something very specific and nuanced, rather than leaping to the conclusion that they're just dumb and using words wrong.

Sure, there are some combinations of identity terms that I look at and go "hmm, I don't get how that works." I'm still a human being. But there's a big difference between not getting how something works versus insisting that it doesn't.

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confess your love for me via paypal

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Not diagnosing a child doesn't mean they won't notice they're different. It just means that instead of thinking "I'm struggling because I have autism/adhd/anxiety/depression/schizophrenia", they will just conclude that they are struggling because they are stupid, weak, annoying, unlovable, etc.

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physically i’m here but mentally i’m floating face down in a river

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today might be the day I finally buy a canine dildo to fulfill my furry fantasy to the fullest.

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aren’t you tired of being gender conforming? don’t you just want to be sexy?

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quarantine feels kinda like that area between christmas and new years where i have no idea what day of the week it is, or if i’m supposed to be going to work. AM and PM blend together. i’ve taken four naps in 10 hours. leftovers are my primary foodsource. got that weird sunday anxiety except it’s every day for the next 2 weeks

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Jellyfish

*refresh the page if not in sync*

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lately ive been thinking about becoming a camgirl (camboy? camperson?? camjellyfish????) but i know it wont happen because im still shy and my gf will never let me.

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Breaking news you old but that’s okay

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This is earth shattering, I can’t believe there are people, who don’t think in sentences??? What the fuck is an abstract non-verbal thot? Y’all hoes think in Pictionary???? What the fuck

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Heaven Gaia spring 2020 rtw