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THINSPO is EVERYWHERE in life- that is the problem

the reason anorexia is THE MOST DIFFICULT ADDICTION TO RECOVER FROM is because the fundamental fear: gaining weight has negative connotations within society.

if you are a heroin addict, there are no societal norms which portray a narrative where getting clean is somehow a failure. it is nothing but an achievement.

for anorexics however, the weight we need to re-gain in order to survive is something demonised by both ourselves and culture.

recovering from anorexia is a MASSIVE ACHIEVEMENT. progress is not linear because there will always be a diet culture surrounding life.

Anorexia has the highest mortality rate of any psychiatric disorder, from medical complications associated with the illness as well as suicide.  

for all those trying to get better, I'm so proud of you, and for all those still in a dark place I promise you that you don't have to live like this.

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People need to make more ACTUAL girlboss accounts on this app im sick of people acting like being extremely unhappy and alone is somehow edgy and feminine. Can we make feminine mean independence and not taking shit from men.

The downtrodden, broken and exploited woman is not an aesthetic we should be aspiring to, it’s creating a narrative where we accept abuse because it somehow it’s tragic beauty.

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Me when my “close friend” abandoned me when I was drunk to get walked home by some random guy she had just met

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Pinterest creates, inspires you to do something new.

Tumblr inspires you to destroy yourself

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People need to stop ruining Lana Del Rey’s image with their pro-abuse bs.

That’s not what Lana is about. She is one of my favourite artists but seeing cringe 13 year olds constantly use her as a muse to be “edgy” “broken” a “martyr” pls stop. Her music is so good and telling people I am a Lana Stan is becoming embarassing because so many of these Lana accounts have become intertwined with pro-Ana, pro-addiction, and other weird die-hard skins-aesthetics.

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People who have THINSPO accounts should be charged with 3rd degree murder if one of their followers dies.

if you actively come to this platform every single day and post content encouraging young girls to starve themselves you are essentially a murderer.

The other day I saw a post of someone aestheticising eating 240 calories a day??

In the Warsaw slums during WW2 the NAZIS only fed the Jews 300 calories a day to starve them to death- around 100,000 Jews died between 1940-41 from starvation and diseases related to malnutrition.

This person is trying to make 240 calories a LIFESTYLE. This is not dainty, cute coquette and a testament of how much admirable self restraint you have.

You are encouraging a lifestyle that LEADS TO DEATH. You CANNOT eat 240 calories a day, you will DIE. It is not “feminine” and “dainty” to look like a war experiment patient. You look ill. you NEED HELP.

SECONDLY, the reason the people running these accounts deserve to be punished is that mental illness is NOT AN EXCUSE for encouraging other people to harm themselves. If you told someone to kill themselves and then they did, you can face up to 14 years in prison.

So how is encouraging them to starve any different?

I was an anorexic for a very long time because I became brainwashed by these accounts. Everything becomes a competition, I would scroll for hours seeing how much people were eating and trying to do less. This resulted in me dropping to 70% of my body weight and being told I would have 6 weeks to live if I continued.

My heart was so weak the doctors were scared when we began re-feeding I would have a heart attack. They told my parents the condition is called “re feeding syndrome” a phrase coined after WW2 when many of the death camp survivors died from simply eating food again. Their body could not handle the sudden introduction of sugars and fibres.

Many anorexics DIE because they have been following diets aestheticised on the internet that are similar to NAZI STARVATION RATIONS.

Secondly, saying “oh this is my diary account” “this account is so I can vent” “ I struggle with anorexia as well” is NOT AN EXCUSE for encouraging and giving people TIPS on how to KILL THEMSELVES.

people use these accounts to establish their superiority over others. the subtext of their 'tips' on how to starve is them telling you they are thinner, healthier and have better self control then you. there is a shaming element implicit throughout. even when disguised as some sort of twisted help, there is a criticism of all those who don't have the self control to follow their DEATH DIET. thinspo quickly turns into 'fatspo' of using pictures of women who don't look like they are about to drop dead as 'motivation to starve'. it is disgusting.

these accounts create hierarchies to place anorexics above people who can actually enjoy life. there is a superiority complex despite the fact every 1 in 5 anorexia deaths is a result of suicide. Without treatment, up to 20 percent of all eating disorder cases result in DEATH. they want to romanticise THE HELL they are living in and drag everyone down with them.

I know exactly how they feel because i had the same condition, and i'm still struggling with it. and i used to think i was better than people who ate normally. but they weren't the ones who couldn't sleep because they were so hungry, who couldn't walk in a straight line because their legs were so weak, whose hair was falling out from malnutrition. but most importantly, i didn't come online, even in the depths of my violent eating disorder and continue this cycle of hatred.

no matter how bad anorexia gets, it is not an excuse to come online and ENCOURAGE other people to die.

You’re NOT YOLANDA HADID, you’re not an older-sister figure trying to help other “girlies” out with your romanticised and twisted vision of beauty.

You have more in common with the NAZIS than with Kendall Jenner or Lily-rose Depp or any of the other models you have clutched to from a Pinterest board.

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what they DON'T tell you about THINSPO: 

(from a former anorexic)

1- being extremely thin is NOT PRETTY. its not attractive. you're not coquette, you're not Lana del Rey core with a cigarette, you're a skeleton with eye bags who can't hang out with their friends because they don't have the energy. you stop having time for hobbies, you don't have the energy to pursue your dreams, you STOP BECOMING A REAL HUMAN BEING.

2- hair grows all over your body to keep you warm because you loose so much fat.

3- your brain begins to shrink.

4- your hair begins to fall out

5- your teeth begin to decay.

6- people don't want to look at you, seeing how thin you are makes them uncomfortable, it makes them want to look away because you are an embodiment of obsession, of someone who can't exist in the real world. they know you're the type of person to judge what they eat and that makes them uncomfortable.

7- thinspo looks down on bulimics. bulimics aren't the ones dying with a low survival rate. how are you trying to establish a superiority complex over people who can live longer than you?? we're all mentally ill nobody is better than anyone else.

8- starvation will not give you your dream body. you will have a sunken face, hollow cheek bones with massive disgusting eyes that protrude from your face. you won't look good in outfits because you can't fill them out.

9- people stop trusting you. you have to deceive the people who love you the most. 'yes I'm eating' whilst you lie and lie and lie.

10- once you are an inpatient you loose all autonomy over your life. no phones, no days out, you can't go to the bathroom by yourself you can't do anything you want because nobody believes you should be trusted with control

11- you miss important things. birthdays, nights out, stuff all your other friends can do.