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He always returned out of regret

Will he ever return out of love ?

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“Out of all the people in this world, I can’t imagine myself loving anyone other than you.”

— Unknown

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Yeah, I accept. U are hell important to me. I do wish you were mine. But I can wait for you. I know what you are going through. Maybe not all of it but I understand. It feels so good when I see you trying to be better.

Maybe you never gonna love me back. Maybe it can never be us. But I can never forget you. No wonder how I'm gonna do this funeral to my hopes. How to not smile yet cry remembering those smiles of yours. Those compliments of yours. I have no idea. But I hope I behave maturely when you say a goodbye. I just hope..

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“You don’t love someone because they’re perfect. You love them in spite of the fact that they’re not.”

— Jodi Picoult - My Sister’s Keeper

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I feel so tired. With some people I don't even wanna have a word. Even tho I see them everyday, have to interact coz I am bound to. And there are some who I fear to loose. But I am gonna loose one day and its scary. I hate being on extremes when it comes to attachment. But.. it is what it is. 🌕

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Compliments on your appearance are cool‚ but when someone compliments you as a person, the way your mind works‚ the way you carry yourself‚ your laugh, how peaceful your energy feels, and how genuine your heart is – those are top tier compliments...they just hit different.

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Got the music in you baby tell me why?

You've been locked in here forever and you just can't say goodbye.🤍

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they say that when you care about someone but you can't give them what they want or love them wholly, the kind thing is to let them go. but to let them go in a way that is cold, clinical, and detached is cruel. to make them feel till the very end that you never cared. to leave them feeling unloved and unknown. you may have not cared for them 100% but even if you cared for them 50%, can't you have that reflect in the way you say goodbye? that will be the last memory of you they have. can't that serve as some sort of solace? can't that soften the whole experience? can't that be a little more considerate? but to expect that from someone who refused to put in any effort, that's a joke on me. why am I not laughing but.

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So You say you care

That I gonna be safe

But you don't see the monster eating me alive

Are nowhere but just in me

Created by you menifested for you

Lived in your tangled world and let it out on me

Its okay, Its okay

It isn't that I have no way

This hypnotized moster will one day wake up

And with all senses I will be his master

Only part that you won to get it your way

That all the sense for him to possess

Is hate, hate and desireless hate.

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Isn't it easier sometimes to be rather alone than to give an explanation?

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Words. Sometimes they work magic, heal someone, humiliate someone and even instill courage in someone. But apart from these words are most times nothing but just unknown and beautiful empty boxes, promising but disappointing.

Why promise or say such things that are fairy tales nowhere there?

Why say forever and even stay when all you feel is just obsession without compassion?

Why say sorry just to make things look right when in real they aren't!?

Why put such efforts that can just be sympathised but are just in vain?

Sometimes people do put efforts but not in a right direction even when it seems their intentions aren't so. But just a change of words can make you see who they really are without just sympathizing.💔🥀

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Sometimes it takes a great deal to form the words out of our core that makes sense of what we are and how we feel. And when we try too hard, we often end up describing it the wrong way. But dear, words cannot be taken back too. And it is always heart wrenching and we rather prefer silence then creating the mess of words. And all we sometimes crave for is someone with whom we dare and learn to put it all out. And they take us all in. Where we feel, they understand us that if we are trying to describe ourselves and our feelings through words, even if we mess it up or even if we do struggle, the subtle efforts are all because we feel it worth the try for THAT person! 🤍🌼

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And when we feel a loner..

You are stuck living in the void with a banished immortal. You don’t know why they were banished, but you try your best to make their days less lonesome.