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I love thinking about that scene when mu qing and feng xin are like "dude is that the red thread of destiny? On your finger?"

And xie lian is like "pf noooooo it's a special device that allows us to know where the other is and it will never break except if one of us dies- oh...oh I guess it is"

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Clone Week Prompt List

Prompt day 1 will be Sunday, May 11.

Happy creating!

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do people not understand that the point of legalizing sex work is regulating sex work. so that sex workers can like, be legally protected if they experience violence and such violence can be prevented by putting legal guard rails in place. instead of our current system that leaves sex workers with no recourse or protection

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rb to tell prev they're being so brave right now and pat their head a little please

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trans women belong in women’s spaces. women’s spaces are made better by the presence of trans women.

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Sherwood Forest Zine Library in Austin, Texas, United States hosts an online collection of free zines. The virtual zine library is arranged alphabetically—providing readers with PDF scans of zines, which have agreed to being digitised—also includes sections on Black issues, policing and protest zines.

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[the post]

Image description: the novel illustration of the Land of the Tender scene, with Xie Lian tying his hair onto soldier Hong-er's finger. His shirt is partway off, and in the background, the flower demons are laughing. On this scene is pasted this Tumblr post: "#fuck or die / content warning: #major character death"

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:)

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rb to tell prev they're being so brave right now and pat their head a little please

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Wu Ming ring-doll

It would be kinda hard to come up with a new Wu Ming every week lol

Do I have to? No

Do I want to? Heck yeah I do

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I had a vision.

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People who think Hua Cheng hates everyone and everything that isn’t Xie Lian truly just misunderstand that the thing he fell in love with first is Xie Lians kindness and how he devotes himself to the common people who are below his station.

Xie Lian cares for the common people that his thing. Hua Cheng doesn’t even try to make that his responsibility because frankly that’s a lot and no matter how good he would be at it he could never be Xie Lian. That’s why he doesn’t try to be nice or patient because he knows it would only be a facade when with Xie Lian it would be genuine and he won’t do Xie Lian the disservice of pretending. And yes as far and he’s conceded his God shouldn’t humble himself like this but does over and over again because he is most importantly a kind person.

Hua Cheng could not love Xie Lian the way he does or worship him as he does if he didn’t give a fuck about people. He may think no one in the world deserves Xie Lians care but that’s because he has seen the truly terrifying self destructive lengths Xie Lian is willing to go to and he doesn’t think anyone is worth Xie Lian suffering like that including himself.

He understands fundamentally that Xie Lians cares so much about everyone and Hua Cheng understands that and literally says "If your dream is to save the common people, then my dream is only you"?

That is not him saying hey I only care about you and fuck everyone else they don’t matter.

This is him saying if you want to make the world better and care for people then you should because you’re the best person at it. No one could do it like you can. But as someone who has received that kindness I will be here to be sure you are treated well and treasured just as well as you treated that tiny orphan you let eat from your shrine.

He is saying I will be there to pull you together and give you the affection and love and consideration I saw you lose time and time again because people see you as a God and a Prince and a Miracle Worker and I understand that you are just a man trying his hardest to make the world a better place and that is what I adore.

If you are willing to devote yourself to humanity I am willing to devote myself to you meaning that I will be a part of that dream. I will by help you by helping people.

I created a city that tries to keep dangerous ghostly objects like my lantern fall into children’s hands. This city will become a home for you and a place full of ghosts, regular spirits of the common people just living their afterlives because I understand you would never want to be alone without people to help forever. So I will look after them because you would want them looked after. I will help the farmers in Puqi village and the Gods who I hate because you are doing that so that is what I will do.

The common people will always be cared for in Hua Cheng ideal world because that is a world that Xie Lian wants and he wouldn’t be Xie Lian if he didn’t want that which Hua Cheng understands and understands that his kindness and compassion is why he became so devoted to Xie Lian in the first place.

So no he doesn’t hate everyone and everything, he doesn’t want Xie Lian to be locked in alone with him where no one can bother them forever and ever because he knows Xie Lian would be fucking miserable and feel so guilty for not being there and feeling like it’s his responsibility to be there for people all the time.

He may resent that and grumble because he like Xie Lian is still a regular person with flaws which include wanting to disappear to a quiet place in the world and love his husband forever but he is under no illusions of that happening because there are people to care for and he will help his God do that and give him everything including himself to make that happen.

Also we never find out what he’s like without Xie Lian because he is the POV character. Like he clearly doesn’t hate people he just doesn’t think anyone is as wonderful as Xie Lian so why spend time with them when Xie Lian is in the room. He is genuinely mad and bitchy at anyone but Xie Lian talking to him because they are distracting him from Xie Lian or annoying Xie Lian so he has to snap at them because Xie Lian is clearly the best person in any giving room so why would he waste his time on anyone else. If Xie Lian wants to talk to people that’s his business Hua Cheng will be right beside him listening and waiting till he’s needed.

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Hualian opening their own cake bakery with Xie Lian doing the cooking and Hua Cheng writing wishes on and signing the cakes

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“Hozier is a lesbian” “Hozier is a man written by a woman” “Hozier is like if a man was raised by lesbian mothers” “Hozier is like if a man was a woman” quick give me one reason why a man can’t be soft and gentle and poetic and in love without sounding like a terf or a misogynist

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kinda fucked how a full-blown mental breakdown/ugly sobbing crying episode is supposed be like, all good for your soul and whatever but it always comes with insane headache/congestion shit. like yeah i scream-exorcised a rotting part of myself but at what cost.

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anxious-avoidant blogging style

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"therapy" and its just hua cheng nuzzling into the space between his husbands neck and shoulder.

"therapy" and its just xie lian being embraced by the strong arms of his husband.

"therapy" and its just mu qing gliding his fingers across feng xin's defined muscles.

"therapy" and its just feng xin looking at mu qing in the sunlight.

"therapy" and its just shi qingxuan brushing his fingers through he xuan's hair.

"therapy" and its just he xuan having privacy and silence while with shi qingxuan.

"therapy" and its just mei nianqing and jun wu fighting which results in physical love.