melodicmelancholia

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Please check out my newest song!!

It's a song I wrote to myself, but I'm sure anyone who has BPD or anything similar will relate. 🌷✨️

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In the shadows of a love that strayed, a daughter dreams of brighter days. Her heart, a vessel of unspoken pain, yearns to mend what time’s left in vain. Her mother’s words, harsh and severe, etch scars where no tales appear. Yet in her, a flicker persists, dreaming of a bond that truly exists. Amid the darkness of their strained embrace, she searches for a smile, a gentle trace. For within her, she deeply seeks, a love that heals, a bond that speaks.

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Ahoy hoy, idk if this is the best acc to message u in tho

Hi (:

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In the quiet glow of candlelight, a solitary book lies closed and still, its pages whisper tales of distant nights, yet here, no voice, no laughter fills. The bottle stands, a silent sentinel, its contents long untouched, unsipped. A testament to nights of solitude, where dreams and hopes have slowly slipped. The flame flickers, dances with the air, a lonely partner in this silent dance, in its gentle glow, a heart laid bare, yearning for a touch, a fleeting chance.

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and just like that, i'm losing everything all over again.

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fatima aamer bilal, from coffin heart? bury me.

[text id: how did you get so close that i have to dissect you out from under my skin? / memory is a deathbed. remembrance is a grave. the memory of you is a scab that i keep picking so that it scars. a burn, a souvenir, something to claw at that claws back at me. / i refuse to be haunted by something less. / there's a sun-sized ache where your hands used to be. / and now that your place is empty, the blood in my heart pumps around nothing. / nothing. / nothing at all. / senseless circulation. / what am i to live for when i have made my body my casket? / where am i to go from here? / and i always knew longing had another name she wouldn't let me call her by — it's hunger. / my heart grew up to be far more starved than my stomach. / it's the things you learn in your childhood, from the words of your mother, from the hands of your father. / if your teeth do not graze my bones, i do not wish for you to kiss me. / how have i turned gentle love into such devastation? / such greediness? / i carry a coffin for a heart; everything i love must be buried. / plant your garden in the cracks of my skin—mud, gravel, everything. let my blood be water to cater to your needs. / terrible, terrible human, thinks barbarity and love are words of the same meaning. / a mad dog would be a far more gentle lover to the rocks being thrown at him. / and, my dear, i wouldn't ask you to fold me in the pages of your favorite book, just the embedment of fingers between my ribs. / how did you get so close that i have to dissect you out from under my skin? / GET CLOSER.]

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there’s no one else who can make me feel like this. we’ve both always known it would be you, haven’t we? i can run, but i wont get far. we both know who my heart belongs to.

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Oh, my love. You're safe with me now. Who hurt you? Who made you feel unloved, unadored? Let me carve their hearts out for you. Show me your thorns and let me show you hands ready to bleed.

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He ruined everything… there’s nothing left.. he ruined fucking everything…

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I was a shaking, crying mess on my bed last night because I meant nothing to you. You texted me tonight after weeks and I was a woman possessed by love. I laughed at your texts while tears travelled down my face. I came up with witty quips while sobs ran through me.

The highest highs and lowest lows, that’s what you give me.

Love? No.

Perhaps a disease. 

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>>>>>>>>>>>>>>that terrible feeling you have when they are far away from you and unreachable through their phone and you start spiraling

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