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Video Angel

painted mixed media sculpture - 7½"x 6¼"x 2½" - 1978

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“a lonely figure talks to himself softly” by David Lynch

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I was with someone I loved, with you. I was cold, and the snow glistened. You know how the snow glistens at night when the moon shines. It was as though I was not on earth.

Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

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ghosts are real and they’re everywhere. in old photographs tucked safely in a box under your bed. in the walls of your childhood home waiting for you to come back. they live in old text messages and emails. forever frozen in time. they haunt your old best friends neighborhood. flickering in the street lamps. occasionally, on very rare summer afternoons; when the sun shines through the kitchen window in a certain way and all of the sudden you get this feeling in your stomach of melancholia; that is a haunting. a possession. those are ghosts trying to find comfort in the present because the past they once lived in no longer exists.

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Velimir Khlebnikov, from "To You All" in Collected Poems and Selected Writings

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the thing with having a politicized identity is that your existence is a protest. you protest by staying alive. you have to stay alive.

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Any tips for not falling into permanent despair?

I suppose remembering that there is no greater act of defiance that living a full life

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you have to learn. get a library card. collect and read and store as many physical books as possible. stay educated on your history. talk to queer elders, as few as there are. talk to them about their lives. build local communities. build a garden. consume art, like, actually. consume and talk and discuss it with others. the curtains are not just blue. consume culture. cook different foods. invite people over for dinner. talk. love. have opinions on art. you have to have art. you have to have kindness. you have to learn. you have to stay alive.

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vintage postcard from unknown photographer

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Why did Nietzsche call the rational part of the mind "apollyonic"? I get why the irrational part would "Dionyssian", since Dionysus was associated with madness, but why did he bring Apollo into this

Apollo is the god of music and art.

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sometimes you find a song that changes your life and go to the artist’s profile to see that they released one album 25 years ago before disappearing forever

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i am 2007 Pete Wentz and this blog is my livejournal

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standing shirtless in the bathroom doorway eating a slice of pizza watching my girlfriend take a bath and my cat is circling my feet in the apartment that i live in because i didn’t kill myself at 14 this is so awesome

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stumbled upon your blog and im in bellingham too ❤️🤝

omg hi!!!!

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