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My lunch today ❤️. 163 cal first thing I’ve eaten today besides coffee

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I did so well today until now ugh I hate myself I walked/ran 6 miles and danced for like an hour and ate 350 cal now bingeing I was at -1650 cal now idk I hate myself I’ll just walk and rn tommorow and dance longer

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So I messed up today and ate fast food ughhhh butttt I danced for like 8 hours I need to eat less ugh

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college

I hate my life rn and its stupid i just feel so alone. Everyone keeps pressuring me to go to college but i know already that i will fail even if i try. I barely passed high school becuase of my learning disabilities and I tried so hard. I'm tired of feeling stupid college will just make me feel that all over again. Everytime I explain why i dont want to go to college people say oh well i knew someone with a disabilty that went to college and passed and im like cool good for them but im tired of trying i've been trying my whole life. every teacher ive ever had told me i cant pass in college my own family even. I dont have the drive to. I know it sounds like excuses but i just dont want to set myself up for failure. I'm trying to be realistic, not everyone can do everything. Not everyone can go and do well in college and why waste the time, energy and money if you know youll fail. dont say oh well you didnt try so you wouldn't know ok maybe not but like i said i barely passed high school i only passed cause one teacher felt bad for me. I have felt stupid my whole life and people constantly bringing up school is making me want to die, because I feel like im not trying which yeah im not but I already have. I barely made it through high school alive.

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I can’t seem to figure out how to make a bio buttt here’s my info

SW:166 lbs

CW:160 lbs

GW: 100 lbs

Any suggestions on meals and workouts would be appreciated! (I have a broken finger)

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Could’ve done better but it’s a start tommorow I’ll walk 6 miles then

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I just wanna be pretty like this….

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God I feel so worthless… I’ve been eating normal portions like 1000 calories a day and I feel like shit I’m the same weight as before 164 and I want to be 100. I have health issues and now it should be easier for me not to eat because I’m on a diet but it’s so hardddd… I can’t exercise as much as I want anymore. So far I’ve done good today tho I only ate some Frosted Flakes with raspberries and one little chocolate it’s my cheat day before I start again where the only junk food I can have is popcorn…. I just want to be skinny again. My boyfriend cant find out tho cause he will be mad and leave me

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Reminder to myself things are more fun when you’re skinny

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Been a while I feel honestly terrible because I keep messing up my goal weight by eating all the time but I finally started today! Ate only 843 calories so I’ll log what I ate today…

Breakfast: apple juice 1 serving 120 calories

Snack: chocolate chip cookie small 68 calories

Lunch:

1 oz chicken 40 calories

1/8 cup rice 30 calories

Oatmeal Zbar 150 calories

Dinner: 1 1/2 cup salad mixed greens 50 calories

Pizza slice 365 calories (went out to eat with family they wanted pizza I feel really bad:()

Desert: 1 peppermint 20 calories

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Why do I feel bad for eating 400 calories when last few days I ate nothing

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Im so proud of myself I ate only 462 calories and i worked for 9 hours and burned 1226 calories!!! And drank a gallon of water.

Favorite food today: 2 strawberries chopped