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So when Neil Josten wants to keep a binder full of news clippings and pictures as a shrine to Kevin Day in a way to hold on to a good but tainted memory of his childhood and a life he can never have, no one complains. But when I, Riko Moriyama-

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arcane writers literally went oh you thought that was the jayvik divorce? ha, dumb bitch. here is the actual one

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I think, Andreil™️ chose the cats based on how ugly they were in a shelter. I can see Andrew walking into that place and pointing at the cat that makes everyone go what the actual fuck is that. And Neil just rolled with that.

One of them has to be black, have bold spots, chipped ear, always pukes randomly after eating too much dust in her hiding spot + the other one is orange, old, half blind, sheds like crazy and is very vocal. Both of them absolutely despise Kevin and unconditionally love chewing houseplants.

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22/10/24

oh, you practice? what? kissing boys?

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God knew that I would be unstoppable if I understood geometry, so he gave me brain that cannot remember literally anything math related to say its life🎉

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when i show up to the homoeroctic codepedent friendships competition but my opponent is kevin day

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I know, that is not very dark-academia of me to mop around, and I am aware that I am privileged enough to get an education, but I am sleeping 5 hours per night and study around 13 hours per day. I can feel my brain melting.

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just for the record I really, really tried to follow the idea that "if the foxes could survive a year against literally the mafia and still study in college, i can keep studying too" but the truth is no, i can not. big thanks to all for the game for the encouragement tho. it helped. for two weeks, but it helped. im not made for this degree thank you so much, i will enter to my cave and re-read all for the game again.

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Pros of re-reading your own fic

a good time;

Has exactly the tropes you like and the characterization you want to read;

Gratification: yes you did finish a thing and yes you did do good;

just a very fun time all around.

Cons of re-reading your own fic:

Is that another TYpO

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i am sorry in advance for the person i will become the day we get new kevin day content

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The problem with liking aftg an insane amount is that the first time you read the books Andrew in the end can be seen has a hard guy with some soft spots, but then you read the extra content, and all the insanely well written character analysis, and then you read it again, and again, and again, you see the heartbreaking reality that Andrew is an extremely soft man who had to act hard to survive.

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tumblr notifs: Mutual™ has liked your post

me: *clicks on the button to see which post* I must know which of my humble offerings have pleased my dearest.

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Neil could really have been a very suave criminal mastermind if he'd chosen to be. I'm rereading the kings men and the whole thing is basically just Neil gently manipulating people to do what he wants them to, and figuring out how to put anyone who won't come around to his way of thinking (Aaron) under pressure so that they just do what he wants. He wouldn't need to be as violent as his father, the guy just knows how to read people and figure out what they want, and what they can't afford to lose. He'd have them eating out of his hand if he wanted to do anything more than play stickball have boyfriend.

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That interview is gonna be crazy huh

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teachers who yell at the class bc a lot of people did badly on an assignment/test are insane. Like in general being openly mad at ur students instead of taking a moment to calm down is super irresponsible, and if only one student did poorly it still wouldn’t be okay. but if a majority of the class is doing badly that either means you’re not properly communicating the material or there’s something else going on impacting a lot of students and u should probably reflect a bit before flying off the handle at 15 year olds who are legally not allowed to leave

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Fanfics where the plot is "Andrew has a crush on Neil" but it's completely from Neil's oblivious pov make me feel like a fucking wizard detective. All Neil's Hyper Observant Recounts of Andrew's body language and tonal inflections (ie, the lack therof) are like neon signs blaring "HE LIKES YOUR STUPID FACE AND YOUR ATTITUDE PROBLEM!!! LET HIM SUCK YOUR DICK!!!"

The fic will be all "Andrew went still" or "Andrew [does something slowly and deliberately]" and I'll be like

"Gay Panic Identified"

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Nooo Neil don’t convince Andrew to go to Nicky’s parent’s house for dinner noooo