the boys in west genderland
the wet genderland boys
eat ricearoni right out of the microwave w/
wet duckling waddling a shallow pond
of this exotic country
there are bloody kitchens for boys
to cook and eat banshee meat
(so named for screeched consent)
the culture gap between american boys
and west genderlander boys
is fundamentally dietary
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poetry fails
have you ever seen Max’s face?
not the mask or the skin beneath
or the tissue beneath
not the smiling lips
or the frowning lips
I don’t mean the eyes
or ears or nose, I’m
not talking about the wet
sensing things growing out of
Max’s face
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unfinished sadness
anymore time alive won’t fit
in me
it’s bursting out beneath my hands
part of you wants to reblog and
confess
“sometimes I feel that way too.”
that part won’t win out
the cautious part of you thinks
“man I relate to him”
watches if i live
i’ll name the scars tonight leaves
down my arms
Anonymous
after you
and kiss my bandaged wrists and
say “thanks for nothing.”
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now my eyes are milky
At church. At our
wedding. With my
forethumb the texture
of that coffee stain
on the next photo
says it must be us
getting [what did we get?]
at Panera Bread,
then at home we said
hi to our...
On what date did
my eyes go bad?
It was before you died
after you got old.
There’s no date
every day a half percent worse
until it’s a hundred percent
and I thought
I’m blind.
I still like
photos and cry
at church and love you.
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Places
but restless people are dangerous,
wicked, places
to them are interchangeable
look how I can say
something true
about something real:
There’s a Panera Bread on 57th and Jackson Heights Blvd.
they’ll never understand
how that’s unique.
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The Laughter of Wrists
I ought to lie about my romantic exploits for attention
like when Mary said God got her pregnant.
She must have been lying
because I was
lying, you said
Who would want that kind of attention?
Someone who needs attention so
bad they carve it into their thigh
with a razor then we should give her
some fucking attention, but the truth is
I just want you to stop looking at me
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Long Distance Erosion
you call yourself
a fractured diamond
you sift your shattered bones for any reminiscent sparkle
don’t you think
all those tears
eroded something brilliant from your cheeks?
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Recipe for Sleep
Swaddle body
lay in cot
cool to ~68oF
note; sleep is not the same as rest
count sheep
let imagination wander
feel a little black sheep
asleep on your chest
or is it a little old woman
a night hag slurping breath
through your ribs, feel her cracked lips
respire on your collar
sleep, sleep
are you awake?
try to move
(but you can’t)
someone’s in here
open your eyes
this isn’t even your bedroom
try to sit up
(but you still can’t move)
elevate pulse approx. 10 bpm
moisten flesh in cold sweat
can’t move can’t move can’t move
hold breath
can you hear her?
don’t wake up
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Shouldn’t Say
I am a billion page thesaurus
if you somehow skipped three words
and every entry I look up
is a synonym for confess
I am a billion monkeys at typewriters
who’ve stumbled across all of Shakespeare
except one verse from every play
so when Othello whispers to his wife that
- but no, the line is gone -
the script: words stripped of language
what is left is us
mutes floating in the vacuum of radio silence
blinded when we try to write it down
deaf but for the words they said we shouldn’t say
I love you
I love you
I love you
should I tell you?
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Cursive
a glass castle
in a hail storm
like calligraphy
scrawled on a crumpled napkin
I read you in cursive
but you write yourself in print -
uncurved
or worse
you write yourself nothing
just a ghost in a verse
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Darker Places
I come home to Joy
unconscious on his cell floor
his split lip’s spilling
blood on my new copy of Harry Potter
& The Cursed Child
(technically not his fault
but still)
I study the colors
black skin, grey concrete
blood a color
like my mother lulling me to sleep
unred. I am the color of a mirror
when nothing is reflected
in prison
he and I occupy opposing ends
of an earth tone color wheel
in prison
race is everything
but holy wine has washed the earth
in a brotherless godless backwards
communion darker than the blood wet black
of severed flesh
I am the white of a page of a book
on the floor
I am the color of prison
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Why To Write Bad Poetry
I can say anything except I love you
I am a billion monkeys at typewriters
after chancing across the entire works of Shakespeare
who still somehow manage to evade three words
I am a cloud of moths in a dresser
drunk on the cloth of your skirts
people hate our poetry
because we are youthful and intense
so much so college banned
our brand of anarchic sincerity
but if you strip poetry to its wild essence
what is left is us
suspended in the vacuum of each other’s presence
dressed only in each other’s eyes
deaf but for the words they said we shouldn’t say
I love you
I love you
I love you
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Awful Things
Something we don’t admit
that when we get hit we run to
the mirror with wide joyful eyes we survey
say, “sorry you hit me”
spit me on the sidewalk and left
we’re all about the bang bang diaries
Trigger Warning: that wasn’t sex it was theft
you stole more than every awful thing
under the sun, severe weather
but now we’re hurricanes or human names
grab the super soakers and let the games begin
and I’d love to
not know my name and fly away
I know a dove who
got that tattooed on her wing
us, we’re more like mayflies
scrying for water in dry clay
insect hearts
don’t love just want
insect parts
hunting for themselves in the haystacks
the stuff that you’re made of
is made out of me
you won’t leave
we read each other poetry, cook dinner,
pretend not to see
our eyes going dimmer after every stormy night
after every fight
the stones of our boundaries become withered
it’s not even raining, we’re starting to cry
it just happens
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“but i like myself demonic”
I know more for being old
than for being the devil
well I’m priest of a youth religion
and ever since Sumer it’s been blowing up
a busy epoch for god and devil alike
I am no serpent, he just does my dirty work
your mother hides money beneath her mattress
christ she needs a cigarette
oh, I remember when she quit for you
she never knew, but her parents
she a gun in the top dresser drawer
that Margaret would look towards
when she couldn’t sleep
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Wings Over Albany
And today I traded my Buffalo Wings for angel wings
only to find the dead we say not speak ill of
often speak ill of us
Eden is not a place we were cast out of
but something we cast out of ourselves
God didn’t cast man from the garden
man cast God from the earth
and Eden is what he took with him
when I saw all this, I tried to fly
to Wings over Albany
but clipping my wings
and eating chicken
wouldn’t make me human again
what could?
And today I read the gospel
it said “The Kingdom of God is within you”
at Wings over Albs the cashier told me to go to Hell
I don’t think I can though
I think it’s within me, too
the lines that I drew on the previous page
mirror the border lines separating my warring selves
the angels the men the gods
all at war - who will win, will it be me?
will anything win anything?
what could?
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Prison Recipes - Pizza Griega
Ingredients:
Matzoh
Crushed basil leaves
Butter
Mozzarella
1. Spread butter over matzoh
2. Shred cheese, sprinkle atop
3. Sprinkle leaves
4. Bake
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Pics of me, being pensive.
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