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looove

𝐢 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮, 𝐢’𝐦 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲

pairing(s): anakin skywalker x fem!reader

summary: you’re leaving so anakin doesn’t break the code for you but he doesn’t want you to go?

warning(s): angst, angst and unedited work

“i was thinking we’d sneak off and see the beautiful sights and i-“ he rambles with excitement thinking bout all the things they’d do together but there’s a silence coming from the girl that he finally notices.

she’s picking at her bottom lip avoiding his gaze.

“y/n?” he asked a small smile on his face “you don’t seem as excited as i am.” she looked up at him “oh, i’m sorry.” she forced a small chuckle but there was a hint of something anakin couldn’t recognize “anakin… can i talk to you?” her tone scared him, he couldn’t lie. it wasn’t often she looked as nervous as she did now.

“of course.” he nodded taking a seat beside her. she takes a breath trying to gather her words, she doesn’t wanna say it but she must so she blurts it out quickly “i’m leaving.”

it makes him freeze, his eyebrows furrow as the words sink in. “where?” he laughs, she must be joking but the teary look in her eyes tells him she’s not. “i don’t understand.”

“obi-wan is taking me home.” his eyes linger on her. he had knew of her dreams to travel to her home planet, she grew up as a young slave with the dream of being home where she belonged but this was journey he thought they’d make together.

he thought he had more time with her.

“i’m going with you.” he states like it’s an obvious fact but the girl frowned “anakin.”

“no.” he shakes his head when he realizes what she’s about to say. “you’re not just leaving!” he stands up angrily “you can’t just leave what about… what about padme? huh? what will she think?” he uses his friend as a ploy to get the girl to stay.

she looks down “she knows.” she breathed out looking up at him “she thinks i should go.” anakin shook his head, his hands balling up into fists, his nails digging into his palms. “what about- what about-“ he stuttered trying to come up with a reason.

“what about me?” he asked looking at her and her heart breaks at the sight, she takes a breath standing up brushing her hair over her shoulder. she takes a step towards him. “anakin. you know i care about you deeply. we are family-“

“you know that is not how i see you.” anakin stands tall looking down at the girl. most people wouldn’t know how to take what he said but she knew what it was.

a love confession.

“that is why i must go.” she whispered placing her hand on his chest “attachments amongst the jedis are forbid-“ he cuts her off before she can finish “i don’t care.” he shakes his head taking a step towards her, they are inches apart “all i care about is you.” she lets out a sniffle beginning to cry at his words.

she wished things were easier but she couldn’t let him give up everything for her.

“there’s not a line that i wouldn’t cross for you” his voice breaks into a whimper but his words were sincere. she could tell, his soft eyes boring into hers almost begging her as his hand brushes hair away from her face caressing her cheek, her eyes fluttered closed as his thumb brushed over a tear spilling from her eye.

she sighed placing her hand over his, brushing over his knuckles. “you cannot give your life up for me, anakin.”

“what do i have to do to make you stay?” he asked searching her eyes for an answer that he knew deep down she’d never give it. she was leaving. “i love you” she whispered for the first time.

he opened his mouth to return the confession but he was shushed as she brushed her fingers against his plush lips. “don’t say it.” she said her eyes lingering on his lips “i know already.” she promised with a smile tears staining her cheeks.

it was a bittersweet moment. it was the three words he often longed to hear but she wouldn’t let him act on it.

she dropped her hand taking her hand in his and she held it for a moment savoring it. “goodbye anakin.”

“stay.” he tried tears forming in his eyes as he held tightly as she tried to pull her hand out of his. “stay please. this all means nothing without you.” he pulled her close, his forehead pressed against hers as she shut her eyes to hide from his. she’d stay for him, she knew she would.

a broken sob escaped her lips as she shook her head “please anakin.”

“stay.” he repeated the words like a mantra, his lips brushed against hers but she took a step back away from him and it felt like someone was ripping his heart out.

“i’m sorry, my love” her eyes finally meet his for the last time but he doesn’t reply giving a curt nod as he holds back tears. he knows all his fighting will be for nothing.

she isn’t going to stay.

even for him.

she turns away from him, she walks fast and quick knowing if she stood there any longer she’d stay with him.

he stands there watching as his love leave him, forever.

or maybe what was supposed to be forever.

a/n: mila don’t end on a cliff hanger challenge?! i hope you guyz liked this i was thinking a part two but only if u guys are interested. lmk what u think 💗💗💗

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hello !! i have been missing tumblr ( not the fans or the triplets LMFAO) but i miss the people and just the fact i could post and do whatever !! it's so fun, it's so cutesy, it's so cool, i loved having a blog, i'll do like a multifandom typa of thing maybe, i'm not sure ! i also loved being away from here so ! i won't be active a lot

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don’t leave omg :(

i'm sorry bae :((( but i can't keep up with that, it's so frustrating honestly, but i love every single one if you guys and i'm so so so happy and grateful for all of the friends i made through the fandom. such sweet angels.

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people like that who are definitely mad about my statement is one of the reasons i decided to not be on the fandom. those "fans" are so annoying and literally can see anyone else don't agree w their actions

why’d you delete the post lmfao?! stand on ur ground hun!!!

first of all, i don't have to prove anything for you, who's using a anonymous mode lmao, second of all, i can delete and remove anything i want ! this is my account, not yours. if you don't like it, go away. why wasting your time to talk shit? jeez

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why’d you delete the post lmfao?! stand on ur ground hun!!!

first of all, i don't have to prove anything for you, who's using a anonymous mode lmao, second of all, i can delete and remove anything i want ! this is my account, not yours. if you don't like it, go away. why wasting your time to talk shit? jeez

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hello so i came here only to tell you all that i will desactive or delete my account. can't and won't defend the triplets anymore, it's exhausting tbh. they don't listen to the people who pay their bills, i don't care about who they choose to hang out, they always decide to go out and be friends with the most weird people ever, and this tells a lot about them. they had their peak and now it's over, that's fine. also, everything they do or say makes me wanna throw up, it's gross. either way, that's all i had to say, i had wrote another one of this lil speech but i didn't liked how i had worded so i made this one now.

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Am I the only one that wants the Sturniolo triplets and Kalogeras to stay separate?? I don't want a collab.. (I LOVE THE SISTERS ALSO!)

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tbh i think nerd!matt explaining fortnite terms, items.. guns.. ect to me would fix me

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⠀⠀⠀ˑ   𓈒 𐔌  ㅤnerd.ᐟmatt  ×  nerd.ᐟreader   ͡꒱ ۫⠀

⎯⎯⠀⠀⠀your honour i love them !!! theyre so cutesy !!! also someone tell me if the layout is cute or not....... gdjdh yay :3

YOU'D BEEN SAT BESIDE MATT as he played fortnite for a while now, maybe an hour or so. you didn't exactly want to bother him, so you'd been quiet for the most part. when matt plays fortnite, he takes it seriously, when he loses? yeah, he needs a little time to cool down after before he says things he's pretty sure he'll regret. his tongue idly flicks at the gum in his mouth, jaw working occasionally on it as he sits at the desk, meanwhile, his fingers deftly work at the mouse. your eyes linger on the veins on his hand a moment before you catch yourself, knowing he almost has a sixth sense for those sort of things.

eventually, he notices your silence. pushing back his headphones, he glances at you over his shoulder and gives you a soft smile. even though he was focusing on his game, he always preferred hearing your voice. "you're quiet, babe," he murmurs, multitasking glancing at you and also playing the game. you always wonder how he does it, but well, that's matt for you. "you okay?" his brow furrows a minute, biting his bottom lip before his head tilts to the side a little bit. at that, a soft smile plays on your lips, and you nod.

"yeah, yeah, just watchin' you," all you'd been doing was scrolling your phone, watching him. you were pretty content to be completely honest, but of course, you did want his attention. "m'not distractin' you, am i?" you say after a second, placing your phone down into your lap so you can focus your attention on him.

"distracting me?" matt scoffs, a quiet chuckle slipping past his lips. "in all respect, you're not exactly doin' anythin' to distract me," he teases softly, and his smile grows when he sees the way you roll your eyes. a warmth runs through him at the sight—god, he falls more and more in love with you each day, he's sure of it. "c'mere," he says, "missin' you." his voice goes a little quieter there, a tad bit needy in parts.

"needy," you retort, a giggle escaping you, but all the while, you get up and make your way over to him. his eyes rake over you, lingering at different parts of you. damn it, he loves the dorky little graphic tee that you're wearing, it suits you so damn well. "y'too far away," he's quiet for a minute, "if i asked you to sit on my lap would that be crazy?"

"might have to ask my lawyer," there's a playfully reluctant tone in your voice, and matt gasps, his mouth falling open with a little indignant noise. that in itself makes you giggle, and you peck a quick kiss to his forehead before planting yourself into his lap. matt leans back, letting you settle in his lap before he moves forward again to press his chest up against your back. shifting his weight beneath you, a soft sigh slips past his lips. "comfy?" he asks, head tilting to the side.

glancing back at him, you agree, "comfy," and he hums, resting his chin against your shoulder so he can look at the screen once more. wrapping his arms around you, he gets back to playing the game, humming occasionally. "gonna actually crash out if some kid starts campin' again," he scoffs, eyes rolling as he plays. your brows furrow a moment, a tad bit of confusion filling your gaze. "campin'?"

"y'know, people who stay in a certain area, jus' waitin' to kill you. campin', like they're settin' up a tent in a place just to shoot at ya," he explains it effortlessly, licking his lips after, not even giving it a second thought. he knows fortnite like the back of his hand, like he knows you. basically—he knows practically everything about it. "oh," you nod, biting your bottom lip before you release it with another nod. "you get it?" matt asks gently, wanting to make sure you understand what he's on about before he continues playing.

he enjoys telling you things about the stuff he likes, sharing his interests. though he knows you're not as into fortnite or gaming as he is, he knows you like learning things from him anyway. "okay, good, you'll be a pro in no time," he muses, placing a gentle kiss on your shoulder before he glances back at the game again. you watch him, seeing how he doesn't have to focus all that much and still be damn goof at the game. it's admirable.

after a few minutes, he realises the warmth that ran through him when he'd explained what camping was. it was simple, shouldn't have meant as much to him as it did, but it did. he's quiet, quiet grunts coming from him as he plays before he's speaking again, voice soft, "y'know what a dub is, baby?" it's hard for him to hide how giddy this makes him, getting to teach you this stuff.

"uh.." immediate thought? like, the english voice overs for animes and stuff, but you're 99% sure that's not what he's talking about right now. "no," you say, once you've considered his words. "mmh, a dub is just a win, i guess. what, uh, about a one pump? in game, of course, uh.. not anythin' else," he knows you don't know this stuff, which makes it a little better for him. eyes lifting to yours, a soft smile plays on his plush lips, followed by a flush on his cheeks when he clears up any misconceptions.

"you're askin' me like m'supposed to know," the words are grumbled as they leave your mouth, but you smile, shaking your head. you're not exactly into video games like he is, he's a video game fiend. you literally have to rip him off his console to get him to sleep or to get him to leave the house. meanwhile, you've got your head buried in a book or eyes glued to your phone screen 'cause of some good fanfiction. you'd get him to read some fanfics with you one day, you're sure of it.

"there's uh," matt sits up, "one sec," he waits until he's shot some guy in the game, so he can focus on explaining to you as he hides out in some corner of the map. "i mean, it got vaulted, but there's a pump shotgun, right?" you nod, not exactly understanding what he means by vaulted, but sure. seemingly, he notices this, and he adds, "vaulted s'like, they're not in the weapon rotation right now. so taken out, like, to balance the loot pool. you followin' so far?" you're a little busy looking at the way the light in his eyes shimmers with every word he speaks, but you mumble a quiet, "uh-huh," in response to show you're listening.

"okay, yeah, so s'called the pump shotgun, so what d'ya think a one pump is?" damn matt and his ability to teach so well. no wonder he tutored people for some extra cash on the side, he was damn good at it.

"one pump?" you ask after a few seconds.

one corner of his lips flits up, into a small smirk. "that's right, yeah, one pump. think about it," matt encouages, leaning his head against your shoulder a little more before he adds on, "you got this. real simple. like.. a type of shot."

"one pump.. uh, takes one shot to kill someone in game? with the.. pump shotgun?" it's a wild guess of yours, you had no clue, a shot in the dark, to say the least. but to your surprise, it's right, and he practically beams. "you're so fuckin' smart," he sighs, a little giggle of his own escaping him. nuzzling his head into the crook of your neck, he gives you a few gentle kisses as a little well done for getting it right. it was simple, sure, but he was so proud of you for getting it right.

"y'sure you haven't played fortnite before? might be even better than i am," matt mutters, and he revels in the way you laugh at his words. "you're laughin', i mean it!" he whines a little, poking you in the side which only causes you to laugh more. "mmh, okay, baby, whatever you say," though your words are a little muffled by the kisses you give him on his cheek, he hears you, and his smile only grows a lot more. "don't 'whatever you say' me.." he grumbles.

the moment is cut short however by him realising that the storm is closing in on him, and he quickly sits up, "oh, shit," he grabs the mouse again, "impromptu lesson on don't stay in the storm or y'die, you payin' attention? great."

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mhm, girl dinner 🫦🫦 that's my baby daddy actually

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Nicholas Chavez with two girls in the final episode of Grotesquerie (need him between my legs)

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he is insane

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need him biblically

SIR????

the first two pictures.

the chest.

the shirt.

the wet messy hair.

the facial hair.

i'm actually gonna burst what the actual FUCK

nicholas alexander chavez the man that you are holy.

doggystyle, cowgirl, pressed against the wall, upside down, in public, on set, missionary, until my back and throat break!!!!!!!! 🗣️

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in da clerb, we all fam (me booping people that i have never otherwise interacted with)

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guys.. would y'all hate me if i changed my username again? 😞😞 i'm seriously thinking in changing it