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I hopeless?

In just a little while I’ll finish school, but I absolutely don’t know what to do. I have apathy, hysteria and a total lack of understanding of what should I do in life? I’m grateful to my parents, who gave birth to me, raised me and gave me many good and expensive things (not just clothes), which more than half of my friends didn’t have in their entire lives. I'm really glad that I got my parents. And I really don’t want to let them down. I really want to repay them, but I have no idea who to be. What I once wanted to be, my dad forbade me, and now he suddenly gave me the right to choose, but my “ding” has already passed. I'm completely lost, I'm devastated, I can't sleep at night ‘cause I imagine my future and I'm afraid that I'll work as a cashier in a supermarket all my life (I have nothing against it, but I don't want life to turn out this way), so... I hopeless?

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Am I a bítch? Or is everything okay?

I constantly come across this situation. I'm starting to be friends with some quiet person (meek). I’m an extrovert, so I’ve other friends besides her. And in the end, it becomes uncomfortable for me that, for example, I go for a walk with my friends, and she is alone. And so I bring her to MY COMPANY OF FRIENDS, and after I learn, that she turns out to be Still waters run deep, and slowly begins to alienate my friends from me. Over the past 3 y’s I’ve this *2, and now is the moment for the 3rd time. (I had a two-hour hysteria. I don’t have the energy to write much about it, but I promise I’ll be back with more on this topic in a few days). In general, it was important for me to cast a line.

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I feel lousy…

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I’m moon

Today I thought about education. I want to live well, I want to wear branded things, I don’t want to think about the price when in the future I choose between an expensive bag for myself and good shoes for my children (and naturally, like all mothers, I will engage in self-sacrifice), I want to repay my parents for everything what they did for me. And I live in these dreams, but I can’t study. It still seems to me that I study so poorly because I don’t have a Mac, then a phone, then a mood, then a full moon, etc. I really hate this trait of mine, but naturally I chalk it up to the fact that according to my date of birth, the planet is the Moon, and that’s why I’m so fickle. I have always had excellent student syndrome, but now I have different circumstances, and no matter how I erase it, everything is in vain. In general, the result is I am the Moon! And you?

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I hate myself and my kg/lbs

Hi everyone guys. I'm in my senior year, and for my prom I really want to lose weight and get in shape. Once upon a time, when I was in a camp on vacation, I constantly ate instant noodles and within 2 weeks I gained weight, my thighs increased in volume, folds appeared on my stomach, and I couldn’t fit into my jeans, which I could barely wear 2 weeks ago. But then I thought that everything would pass. Now I don’t weigh very little, but not very much either. I hate my body, but I'm too lazy to work. I put everything off until later, and I think that if I lose a little weight and go to bed, I’ll wake up as a slender beauty. These thoughts depress me, but I hate myself for it!!!

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I want my blog to become a haven for those who want to be listened to, who want to be heard, but not judged. This place is here on the Internet, in the age of anonymity!⬛️

Hi all. I'm Marry Ri, I'm almost 19 and I'm confused. I don’t look feminine like all my peers, I don’t know how to walk in heels, I don’t know how to laugh beautifully and restrainedly. I've never had a boyfriend, I don't really like my body, and I'm lazy. But I blame everything on the fact that my planet is the Moon, this explains my inconstancy. My whole life is an illusion. The picture of a decent student, the pretense of a good friend, and the fiction of my family. I consider myself a strong and straightforward person, but this is the truth that I cannot tell anyone.

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04:10 a.m ( sleepless Sunday night)