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“This is not a goodbye, my darling, this is a thank you. Thank you for coming into my life and giving me joy, thank you for loving me and receiving my love in return. Thank you for the memories I will cherish forever. But most of all, thank you for showing me that there will come a time when I can eventually let you go.”

— Nicholas Sparks // Message in a Bottle

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“Sometimes your heart needs more time to accept what your head already knows.”

— Unknown

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“I’m not totally mad at you. I’m just sad. You’re all locked up in that little world of yours, and when I try knocking on the door, you just sort of look up for a second and go right back inside.”

— Haruki Murakami

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I was crying tonight

Pretty hard thinking all the reasons why?

Why you had to?

After a long time

I looked up in the mirror

Only to find

That this hurt is so deep

That my nose also started to bleed

Now im just staring looking at the ceiling

Thinking of the reasons why?

Why you had to do me so bad.

This is all so sad.

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Am I just some dead leaf floating with the flow of the water?

Am I red? Am I brown? Or am I still the green.

Did I fall with wind gushing or did I just gave up?

Did somebody pluck me and threw me or the tree just decided to not care?

This journey I am set on, is it mine or is it the river’s?

Am I going to keep on asking these questions hoping to get an answer?

Or I’ll just follow the tide and hope that I will survive?

Even if I don’t, my dearest, I hope that you know.. that .. I tried.

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It’s been years, I’m just tryna let go

I’m broken cause I’ve always known

I don’t know how I ended up here

But I was just better alone

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I can fill my life with meaningless sex, but I can’t even get a handful of genuine love.

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How just one line changes the entire perspective of the actual song it was.

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Sitting in the backseat of the car, with my best friend and her parents, I kept on looking outside wondering about the history of New Delhi. Exiting the busy city, through a newly constructed tunnel, I imagined driving a vintage car through a much greener city and British people. And then later, as the old bollywood songs kept on playing, I wondered what a chaos it must have been when the countries were divided. I wondered about my great great great grandfather or my ancestors, where were they? No.. who were they? What did they do? What was their life like? Ugh! I wish i was born in a Royal family or something. At least, I would have been able to about the history. Common people.. don’t get much. In this generation, I guess the rush and struggle is more alive.

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“Your absolute best won’t be good enough for the wrong person. At your worst, you’ll still be worth it to the right person. Remember that.”

— Unknown

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Your lips are sweet like honey, mine cigarettes

Your eyes a shade of brown, mine dark like coal

You've got a smile that can light up the whole city,

Similar to mine; makes me look pretty

Unable to express our love properly,

We are haunted by thoughts of being lonely, again

How will I ever make you understand?

That you've got a warm heart like mine

We both have been struck by a lesson called life

However, in this reckless world, we both found peace.

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[marlboronights-m]

Don't know where you are.. not sure what you're doing.. but I know the love that you've got.. for me is everlasting.