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Time for a joke

Pre-t vs 1 year on t

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My sister came to visit us with her family. Her youngest son (3 years) started crying over something and my dad was like "Look, how the best grandfather will handle it". And than he said "*name* you act like a sissy girl". Dad was sure it'll stop crying. Well, I hit my dad on the head and told him not to teach a baby that sexism shit.

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Being trans is like:

- Hmmm, my skin feels wierd. It's a sunburn or dysphoria again?

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I have my wifu on my right hand. Now my friends are joking about masturbation with mu wifu. Tell me who your friend...

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Ok, I was watching evAbridged... And this moment... Well... I named my dildo "Shinji". Don't ask why, I just wrote the name on fake penis and my roommate is literally crying

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Well, life still suck. I'll be kicked out by my dad in a few days and I have no ideas about how to deal with it. I mean, I have nobody to stay with even for a night and my salary (I can't get a better job for many reasons) is not enough for even ranting a room, and money is already very law because I visited a doctor. And I found out that I'll become homeless soon just a few hours ago. Why? 'Cause my dad thinks that my dysphoria is "just a tool of a spoiled bitchy girl to manipulate him". WTF? Somebody, anybody, please, I need some advice. What should I do?

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hey

i’m a new mod here. my name’s junius (juni) and i use he/him pronouns!! also my blog is at transgenderstiles

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also re: femme trans dude kirk are you aware of the screencap in journy to babel where he's laying in bed after being stabbed shirtless and he's got something wrapped around his chest and it's kind of glittery except he was clearly stabbed in the lower back like come on are they even trying to pretend that that wasn't a sparkly binder he was wearing

DUDE.

dude.

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hey kids if ur parents r gross n transphobic n homophobic then guess what aphrodite (goddess of wlw) is ur mother and eros (god of mlm) is ur brother and dionysus (god of trans people) is ur cool wine uncle

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Germany Legalizes Gay Marriage In Historic Vote.

June 30th, 2017

(Angela Merkel dropped her opposition to same-sex marriage virtually overnight earlier this week, and her fellow politicians have pushed for a vote on it before the Bundestag’s summer break — which happened to be this Friday, today. German efficiency at its best, is it not–?

In recent polls, the more than 80% of Germans were supportive of same-sex marriage. The German LGBT community and parties such as the SPD have been fighting for this for quite some time now, and now it finally became a reality. Surprisingly, without any of us really actively working towards it. 

I don’t have much time to work on drawings right now as we’re in the middle of moving apartments, but as a guy engaged to another guy, this is something beyond important to me. It’s a big, very important step in the right direction, and I wanted to do a little something for it. I’ll most definitely write a more detailed post about our journey to this point once we’re doing moving.

Happy Ehe für Alle, fellow Germans!)

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What I feel like when dysphoria is kicking in the gut

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I want to die

I don't know why am I writing this. Probably, nobody will notice. Maybe if I write everything off it will hurt less. I've just had a conversation with my mom. As you can guess it was bad. We were talking about my transition. She said that I'm humiliate her in front of our neighbours 'cause everyone around know that she has a daughter, not a son. And that I must move out when I start on testosterone so nobody will know and she will be saved from embarrassment. "Why can't you be just a lesbian? Lesbian is bad but it can be understood or even accept. Transgender can't" Right now I want to die. I already sliced my thights 'cause it makes me feel better. I'm not sure if I can deal with it any longer. I just want it all to stop. I want to be normal in the eyes of my own parents. I want to have friends. I can't tell my girlfriend about all of this shit. She will be worried as fuck and it's terrible. We can't even meet each other when one if us needs help, we live in different countries. Fuck. Kill me, please. Or drug me. I want to die.

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National holiday. Me and my friend. I'm so military, fuck yeah.

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I just feel a desperate need to show you my cats. Lol

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Yay! Did as psychologyst told me. Coming-out on the youtube. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=f870ohLFgXw

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No dysphoria happened last night. I just got drunk as shit with my co-wokers. Just quiet drunken night in intensive care.

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This night will be dysphoriac as shit

Why? 'Cause tonight is my shift. And I work in the same hospital my father works (but different departments. He is in ER, I'm in the intensive care) and most people here know him. And me being myself at my shifts may cause some troubles for him. And he don't want embarrasment like rumors about his daughter being freak, lgbt and other trans/homophobiac shit like this. Most of my patients are old people who don't accept stuff like being gay/lesbian/other sexuality/trans/etc. Sometimes I think that if I wasn't working in the same hospital with my dad, I could be myself during night shifts. But then I'm like "Oh, fuck, no way! I'm in Russia!" Actually, I feel like I'm a very bad transvestite (no offense to transvestites) when I pretend to be a "Maria, sweet shy girl with very feminine face and body". Hello, my dear dysphoria, I didn't miss you, go away! What should I do to be able to work properly, not being distracted by this hell? P. S. Some patients see me as a cute boy, and it makes me happy, but nurses are always correcting them like "she is a girl". P. P. S. Probably will cry for at least two hours in staff toilet