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They make me so happy!!!11

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I'm so fucking tired of beginning to feel stable, and then it all comes crashing back down again.

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forever an "it's ok l understand" girl, with tears running down my face.

forever an "I'm sorry" girl, when didn't do anything wrong.

forever a "it wasn't even that important" girl, even though Im really disappointed & got my hopes up.

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Things you can do to help someone while they're in psychosis in a psych ward:

Bring them necessities like soap and clothing and good toothbrushes. After being forced into gowns for a while it's really nice to be able to wear something personal and comfy. It's also nice to take care of yourself when coming back to reality. When realizing you haven't washed in ages a good shower is beyond awesome

Bring things to distract them like books and magazines that suit their interests. Hospitals can be incredibly boring. They can also most certainly feel like jail. It's brutal sometimes. These places have the bare minimum and any little bit of this helps a lot

Visit to show moral support even when they can't communicate or keep their eyes open from sedation. Physical company helps a lot of the time

Accompany them for walks when permitted. Feeling the wind or seeing trees or stars after being unable to for a long time is priceless

Keep them company by calling them after visiting hours end

Gift them coffee or comfort food. They can be big sources of endorphins. Something yummy will always be yummy no matter how detached from the world you get... provided things like delusions don't get in the way

Remain calm if they lose their composure. It personally tended to help me ground myself or lessen the panic I was having. People who were reactionary to me in a negative way defeated the purpose of being around me at the time

Show good vibes. When living a mental nightmare this can help improve state of mind or even delusions and hallucinations. Like even a smile can help tons ngl

Keep patient and don't take things personally. I had my own mother and doctors yelling at me because I wasn't acting the way they liked and it made things so so much worse

Understand that someone unwell might have a long grueling road of recovery ahead of them. Best thing to do is accept them regardless of what occurs

Advocate for their personal needs such as dietary preferences

This of course is all dependent on what's allowed at the psych ward

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mfs be like "I can handle your disorders" until your disorders disorder disorderly

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Hallucinating is entertaining sometimes because I’ll hear someone’s phone go of with a ringer that no one in my house uses and I’ll just go “that’s Herald’s phone then. Didn’t know he had one”. Gathering that hallucinatory lore

For the record, Herald is the lanky 6 ft silhouette who wanders around the house in his fancy little top hat. He seems to like walking through the living room and phasing through the television.

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Psychotic System Culture is...

Not reacting to a noise around others because you assume it's an auditory hallucination and don't want to seem weird, only for it to be an actual external sound and being weird for not reacting to it

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when people talk about auditory hallucinations, they always mention like creepy or weird discordant sound or voices. but no one talks about how annoying they can be. my brain will pick up on random words, repetitive sounds, or very short parts of songs and like go ham with playing them over and over. i’m currently having on that’s a repeat of the “battery on” phrase that plays when i put my earbuds in. like ugggggh can it please stop. does anyone else experience this

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Hallucinating is normal, many people experience it. You have most likely at least passed someone in the street who was hallucinating once. Or you've worked alongside a coworker who was actively hallucinating and you didn't even notice. Or your loved one hallucinated while you were in the room, but they were afraid to tell you.

Hallucinating is common, it's just not commonly talked about in everyday situations. If you don't experience it, or don't know someone who does and tells you about it, you've probably only heard it in the news or on TV. And they only really represent the worst possible outcome for shock value. But that isn't representative of how most of us who hallucinate experience it.

Most of us are just like everybody else, living our lives, just with the addition of hallucinations. We may need to take pills every day, or need therapy, or need to stay in mental hospitals sometimes, or need to be checked on by loved ones, but so do a lot of other people who don't hallucinate.

Hallucinations are just a symptom. Just like anxiety, or trouble concentrating, or tiredness. A lot of people experience it and have to learn to cope overtime. The only difference is we don't generally talk about it to people in casual settings. And it's because of the stigma. If you don't hallucinate, or know someone who does, you probably don't see hallucinations as a normal part of life, a symptom, just a thing plenty of people experience. But it is, it's not special, it isn't more dangerous, it doesn't have to be a huge deal.

Obviously hallucinations can be life changing and horrific, but so can other mental health symptoms. Hallucinations can also be neutral, or just annoying or even a positive experience. It's just a symptom, it doesn't automatically mean someone is in the worst mental state possible if they are hallucinating. It doesn't automatically mean someone is dangerous or unpredictable. It just means a person is experiencing senses that the people around them are not.

You have to learn to accept that it's just a symptom, and that people around you experience it, and they deserve to complain or talk about it just like anyone else gets to with other things in their lives. All you have to do is listen, and try to be understanding. Hallucinating is normal, you just need to stop treating it like it's abnormal.

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Imagine yourself as a magnetic person who always attracts great experiences, unlimited opportunities and good news. Believe that your naturally blessed all the time.

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Do you have any idea how much power you hold while you’re asleep?

Physically, we sleep to recharge. Spiritually, we sleep to awaken.

One of my high school teachers was in a coma. Then I heard that she woke up. I messaged her, wishing her well and saying I’m relieved she’s better now. That night I dreamt of her. She thanked me and said she’s feeling very happy.

I found out that morning that she had passed hours before. Yet she found a way to reply to me after all. Now I know she’s truly at peace.

A relative's house was being haunted by a child’s ghost, until she befriended him in her dreams.

A colleague had an impossible choice to make until he dreamt of 70-year-old him who had taken the right path.

A friend of mine desperately needed money and dreamed of the next day's winning lottery numbers.

In slumber is when our soul is fully conscious. It’s when we can travel to other realms and speak to any soul, dead or alive, including our past and future selves.

So before you fall asleep tonight... ask for help.

Chances are, you will receive it.

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Dark Fox, Very much a dream there!

pokèmonize yourself!!!!

spin this wheel to see your pokemon type

spin this one to see how you'll look like

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That evil eye ring you bought from Amazon is useless.

Amulets and talismans need to be activated. Otherwise they're just pieces of junk from China.

For real occult protection, acquire:

1) An evil eye ring made of metal, not plastic. It must be white and dark blue, not turquoise or mint green. 2) A piece of handmade natural paper, that is, anything made from plant, such as papyrus and banana, and uncoated by chemicals like polymers. 3) A pen owned by your birth mother or father. Whether the owner is dead or alive, ask for permission.

On the first night of the next full moon…

1) Open the windows to gaze upon the moon while taking four deep breaths. 2) Stay by the window, and write on your paper with your marker: PORTO HAMASIAS F EMANUEL F DORENUS 3) Wrap the evil eye ring with the piece of paper. 4) Close the windows, but leave the wrapped ring by the window sill where the moonlight can reach it. By sunrise, you will have created an amulet that will protect you from curses — both intentional and not. 5) Wear the ring, and keep the paper in a safe place. Return the pen to its owner.

As long as the ring is on your finger or touching any part your skin, you are shielded from bewitchment.

Never let it get wet. Do not bathe or swim with it. Water drains its power.

For an amulet to keep working, it needs to be fed. Every full moon, wrap the ring in the same paper you used when you forged it. Leave it overnight by the window sill where the moon can shine on it, as you did when you created it.

Your ring can protect any soul to whom you willingly lend or give it. But if anyone uses it for protection without your permission, it will release onto them any curses it had previously absorbed and deactivated.