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defiance, personified

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The last time we were on a long flight, my wife and I invented a game we call "Little Guy."

You start a game of Little Guy by saying, "I'm gonna hand you a little guy." The little guy is some kind of baby animal you are imagining. "Oh," she might say in response, "Okay," and hold out her hands for it. I will then mime handing her the animal. This provides some clues as to the little guy's size, weight, and general ungainliness.

She then gets to ask questions about what kind of little guy this is, BUT NO QUESTIONS ABOUT HIS ACTUAL APPEARANCE OR SPECIES ARE ALLOWED. Qualitative questions, or questions about his behavior, are the only ones permitted. She can ask "Is he soft?" or "Does he seem nervous about being held?" or "If I put him in the bathtub, does he seem okay with that?" or "Would he like a lil grape?" or "Is he the sort of little fellow who would wear a vest in a children's book?" but not "Does he have fur," "Is he a reptile," "Is he from Asia," etc. Some questions are in a grey area so you have to follow your heart, but the point is not to identify the animal as fast as possible: the point is to guess the animal purely based on vibes + how he would act if he were in your living room right now.

And I'm not limited to yes or no answers! If she asks, "Would it feel appropriate to see this little guy in a propeller hat?" I can reply, "Oh no, he has a gravity to him. A bowler hat would be a more appropriate hat." Or if she asks, "Does this little guy have protagonist energy?" I can say something like, "he probably wouldn't be the main character in a children's cartoon. He'd probably be the main character's ditzy best friend who's always eating sandwiches, or something."

We're big Twenty Questions to kill time in a waiting room people, but Little Guy is more about the journey than the destination. It's got a different kind of sauce that's nice if "killing time" and "lowering anxiety" need to happen hand in hand.

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the death of 8tracks made you all so bad at making playlists i fear. good ship or character playlist is max 16 songs and devastatingly perfectly crushingly curated. it should make sense musically, if not across the playlist, then at least from song to song. GRADIENTS of genre. think about this before you make a 200 song ship playlist that includes both maroon 5 and mitski. Think on it

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Severance, 2x03 “Who Is Alive?” // 2x07 “Chikhai Bardo”

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Thinking about how despite the fact that he doesn’t remember gemma mark s is LITERALLY born out of his love for her. Like he loved her so much he was CHOKING ON HER GHOST (!!!) and created a new version of himself who didn’t have to remember losing her. It’s a super fucked up subversion of loving someone to the point of creation; I love you so much I created a version of myself that never knew you. And he still feels it down there he just doesn’t know what it is!! What the fuck!!!

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Does anyone remember AOL zine culture back in the late ‘90’s-EARLY 00’s? They were mailing lists, basically, about various fandoms. It was pre-photoshop, so graphic design was basically fancy ascii art in cute colors.

If you sent emails to too many people at once, you had to beg your parents to call AOL and give you an exception to mass mailing.

I loved that my computer was so old I couldn’t run any AOL past 4.0, which meant that I still had the ability to get HEX codes for any color since AOL 5.0 only let you choose basic colors.

Found a bunch of old e-mails saved as HTML files so I could use those sweet, sweet colors & it brought back a LOT of memories.

I remember having a music themed one, where I’d send out ONE mp3 a week, because it took a whole hour and a half just to upload one song.

This was even pre-livejournal days for me. I’m glad I’m still friends with one person from those days, if not I’d have thought it was a fever dream because I’ve never met a SINGLE other person who remembered this.

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i feel like i died a very long time ago and now nothing thats happening is real

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#whore behaviour

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Life hacks

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who is the first david you think of when you hear the name david

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it's just unjust that animorphs never found a big fandom niche here because you all really need to go crazy about rachel/tobias with me for real among one billion other reasons

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Everybody moved on. I stayed there, dust collected on my pinned up hair.

@lilyflxwers/hold this - fortesa latifi/@trxuma-system/the good witch - maisie peters/@heavensghost/@archivedsmile/unknown/@lilyflxwers/@therezeegoes/right where you left me - taylor swift

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you died and i desperately need to tell you how it feels. i need you to hold me upright while i show you this hole that exists now in my heart and the emptiness that swallows my soul. i need you to hold me while i cry out for you, and scream at god and ask him why. you died and you are the only one who can get me through this.

-Mae S. // letter to everyone i've ever lost.

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Is there another life? Shall I awake and find all this a dream? There must be, we cannot be created for this sort of suffering.

- John Keats

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love is what we choose to remember.

love elizabeth s.

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i. The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath, Sylvia Plath / ii. As Consciousness Is Harnessed to Flesh: Journals and Notebooks 1964-1980, Susan Sontag / iii. Suddenly, It's December, Margaux Paul / iv. Waiting for This Story to End Before I Begin Another, Jan Heller Levi / v. The Picture of Dorian Gray, Oscar Wilde / vi. The Letters of Gustave Flaubert: 1830-1857, Gustave Flaubert / vii. unknown / viii. @inanotherunivrse / ix. @violentcherries / x. Heaven, Mieko Kawakami (thank u @aworsening for attaching the sources)