makotothedweeb

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I will be on a hiatus for a few days, due to getting a new laptop.

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huh. i’m not bleeding yet.

that means i need to cut more.

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oh

i found a pocket knife

I can’t feel my arm. That means I self-harmed well :)

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I can’t feel my arm. That means I self-harmed well :)

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JUST LET ME BE.

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HAPPY INTERNATIONAL NON-BINARY PEOPLE´S DAY!!!

(July 14, 2020)

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link to my discord server + update post

Fuck it. I’m posting the link to my discord server. It doesn’t expire but has a limit of 25 uses. You will have to verify though. 

I’m giving out the link because I’m going to be less active on tumblr and I won’t talk about my life problems as much (partly because nobody on this site cares, and I don’t blame y’all). 

If you’re an EAS/sirens/fire alarms/weather/etc enthusiast or want to become one or just want to be in a server with a bunch of chaotic dumbasses my server’s the place for you. 

Click keep reading if you actually care about what’s been happening to me. [TW: suicide mention, hospital mention, and suicide attempt]

Throughout the month of June, I was very suicidal and almost made three suicide attempts, and (as of writing this post) I made one yesterday. [I’m fine; I spat out the pills before I swallowed them and got rid of them.]

Anyways, on June 29th, I went to the hospital. It didn’t do much; they just ran a bunch of tests on me and made me answer some questions. On July 1st, I had an appointment with a psychiatrist for meds, and she put me on a mood stabilizer. It’s been working well, and I’m not as suicidal anymore (the episode I had yesterday was PTSD-triggered). 

On a completely unrelated and more positive note, I’ve moved on from Danganronpa stuff (don’t get me wrong, I still love Danganronpa) and now I’m an EAS enthusiast. I’ve met a lot of great people, one person of which is like an older brother/very close friend to me. He’s fairly popular in the community and creates EAS scenarios (basically telling a story through the emergency alert system). He’s inspired me to start making EAS scenarios of my own. My first full-length one is called The Tornado Maniac. As of writing this post, all I need to do is make the visuals and sync everything. It’ll be uploaded on my Youtube channel (probably/hopefully some time in August) and updates about it will be posted in my discord server and on my Twitter. 

That’s all.

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So, real quick. Do you y’all think my maniacal laugh is scary?

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Photos of when my cat watched NASCAR with me. (for a few minutes)

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The way no one is doing it like Teuta Matoshi 😍

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Pride month memes because I'm trash: asexual edition 🖤🤍💜

(a.k.a. "my teenage years were confusing as hell")

So that was a fucking lie

Like Hamlet, it never learnt how to be

Shocked piccachu

yeet

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oh look something shiny and sharp 

i wonder what’ll happen if i put it in my chest 

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imagine accidentally sending an ahegao emoji...

to your crush...

and he sees it...

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I never realised it until now while replaying that Hiro’s prediction actually came true. Since Sakura doesn’t get murdered but commits suicide and Mukuro is already dead, there are no more actual murders taking place from this chapter on

Also bonus prediction that is correct in the bad ending:

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can an overdose of vitamin b kill you? if so im in luck

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I am absolutely BURSTING with joy right now. There is absolutely NOTHING pissing me off right now WHATSOFUCKINGEVER.

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I’ve been paranoid since I’ve went to the hospital. I’m sick right now mainly with a sore throat and I’m like “CoRoNaViRuS?/!1″ 

It’s much more likely that I just have a really bad cold, but it wouldn’t surprise me if I get/have it. 

Idk why I’m so anxious about it. I have a good immune system so I probably  wouldn’t die from it should I get it.