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OK well I have texted him and now I'm just waiting to hear back. I'm going to put it out of my mind because I have to get through a shift at work with preferably minimal anxiety.

Just know that I'm terrified but I'm going to face my fears and not let them control me. Also probably gonna go take some meds bc this is fucking ridiculous

I think I'm spiraling again ahhh I have to text my friend's dad, whom I haven't talked to in two and a half years and I'm really scared bc it's not just like a casual hey how ya doin it's. A favor. I need a favor. After not talking for two and a half years. And I feel so so guilty but this is literally one of two options and the other one is so much worse (reconnecting with someone I intentionally cut off bc they made me wanna kill myself even more than I already did - plus I don't even know if I can use that person as reference anyway and I KNOW I can use my friend's dad)

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I think I'm spiraling again ahhh I have to text my friend's dad, whom I haven't talked to in two and a half years and I'm really scared bc it's not just like a casual hey how ya doin it's. A favor. I need a favor. After not talking for two and a half years. And I feel so so guilty but this is literally one of two options and the other one is so much worse (reconnecting with someone I intentionally cut off bc they made me wanna kill myself even more than I already did - plus I don't even know if I can use that person as reference anyway and I KNOW I can use my friend's dad)

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Doomscrolling Save Point

hey relax for a second and watch the cat

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via indiarosecrawford

Frog Paints a Water Lily Pond 🪷🎨🐸

𝑓ₒᵣ ⲕᵢ𝑛𝑔 ₐ𝑛𝑑 𝑐ₒ𝑡𝑡ₐ𝑔ₑ

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I think the sky is trying to say something? 🤔 👀 🏳️‍⚧️

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the “i wanna go home” never leaves my head even when i’m physically sitting in my bed

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crabs are so gentle, they can be so kind. their claws? precise little things, so careful in the sand, so careful with food. they do what they must to live and wave their claws to express their joy to the world for giving so much to them, for giving such kindness to these creatures known as crabs. please be gentle to crabs

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mixing concrete with chicken stock instead of water to give it a richer flavor profile

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“Maybe cats sit around like loaves in the hopes there will be some fishes to accompany them. Cats are very biblical creatures.” -my dad just now.

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When the Apostle Paul said “Where, O Death, is your victory? Where, O Death, is your sting?” and John Donne said “Death, be not proud,” and the Arcadian Wild said “May you know Death lost already,” and

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A reminder for those of us with cats at Easter that lilies of ANY kind are BAD for cats. Some species such as Calla, Peace and Peruvian do not cause kidney damage or death like Easter and daylilies, but they can still cause irritation and gastrointestinal issues if ingested...

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The other day my bisexual lesbian-leaning coworker told me that I look gay and it is genuinely one of the most validating things I've ever been told in my life

Because like, I want it to be more obvious I guess. Like I can wear pride stuff but that doesn't really say everything I want it to. A lot, sure, but not everything.

I want people to look at me and be like "oh that person is definitely lgbt/gnc/whatever", whether that means before or after my potential transition. BUT since I don't think I will be transitioning any time soon (though I'll keep my fingers crossed), for now I'd just like to look gay.

Also I want more pride stuff I haven't got any since I moved the last time

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reblog to reassure the next person who reads this that everything is going to be okay and it’s all going to get easier soon

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being a scavenger animal must be so fucking great. imagine if every time someone died a new restaurant opened up downtown.

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I don't suppose any mutuals want to invent teleportation with me so we can walk to the nearby park and info-dump about blorbos together