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committing all possible crimes being bisexual consumer of ao3 fanfiction cannibalism as a metaphor for love and homoeroticism old man yaoi queerbaiting tv shows with homoaffective subtext hozier sufjan stevens good omens christianism.

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i fucking miss my best friend

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today is his birthday. last year it was his frist birthday that we spent together and that he probably felt happy and accompanied, this year i didnt even text him. i feel sick.

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the horoscope told me that this is going to be a really creative year for me and that I have to express myself more, also that I will discover something about myself at the end of the year…. ALSO Venus is in piscis now so maybe IT IS time for me to confess…. 😓

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she sends me TikToks saying that she wants to kiss me and misses me but we never see each other and never talk or make plans to hang out so it’s just like shared feelings but we are both waiting for the other to make a move

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Hi, I am crazy in love for this one girl and i think we’ve been in a situationship for like a year now and it’s just so !!!!!!!! IDK !!! I really like her and I know she likes me back but neither of us makes a move so I don’t know what to do 😭

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lowkey wish he is better now that I left but also want him to feel horrible for not having me in his life

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I talked to my friends about something and they gave me a completely different perspective and now I hate myself because I feel like I am the bad one and was play king the victim all this time

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i´m just yapping dont mind me

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sometimes i feel like i have no purpose at all, like i don't know why i am here or how the fuck i am still alive. i guess it is because i like to believe that we are all with a purpose, and that i have one myself, it is just i don't know it yet. it fucking scares me that i don't have like not a single idea what i wanna do with my life. everyone keeps asking me what i wanna study or what i want to be, but i don't know!!! i like to do lots of things and have lots of interest but im not sure i wanna pursue an entire career to something i'm not certain about now. i don't want to make bad decisions and have regrets because i don't want to waste years or my time in something i am not.

it's scary, because i think that i know myself, like im confident and have enough self-steem, but when i have to think about my future all that confidence seems to disappear. like i don't know anything at all!! and i don't know what to do. when i try to picture me in a near future i see a version of myself that i think only can be made up in my mind, cause the girl i have in my mind, the one i know the most, is very different from the girl that shows herself to others and who everyone see. and it's so fucking frustrating that i don't even know how to change in order to be more myself to at least get a step closer to the future that i dream.

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Never forget who was there for you during your lowest moments (fanfiction).

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they don’t know how insane I am …

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using tumblr on my laptop cuz it makes girlblogging feel more authentic